The Fire from Within-The passion of life

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I know I haven't made many posts but I wanted you all to know I was

still around and evolving. Just lately an experience came on that

reminded me of things of the past and things I have gone through, sort

of filling in gaps.

 

There was an experience I went through lately and would like your

opinion. I have been coming up with those painless migraines and other

kundalini symptoms of blocking lately. Well not completely blocking

just finding things happening at the most inconvenient of times. I

thought about putting this on a thread on the forum but wasn't sure

about it.

 

At work 2PM Friday November 16, 2007

It started out with a single point of light in a void of darkness, and

then it had a rainbow around it. After that it started looking like a

star up close and the darkness turned yellow and looked like a

Mandela. Then it went psychedelic, went to geometric patterns on lotus

petals and swirling with the center going to blackness. Looked like an

L8 theory of everything mathematical pattern. I'll give you a link on

that one but imagine this going in a swirl on lotus petals of

different numbers. Then stuff started popping out of the hole. Small

things that happened so fast I couldn't tell what it was and it too

changed to symmetrical patterns of energy and it was changing so much

I can't remember what all it was. The last is something I do remember

as it turned to fire and took the form of a persons face. This was

cool as at first I thought is was my own.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BaQ0EjobZZ4

L8 mathematical Theory of Everything

 

What ever it was at one point I almost fell through it at work. I mean

into an OBE or IBE. I had a momentary thing of realizing where I was a

jerked and didn't fall in but that didn't stop what I was seeing for

about another 6 min. When I opened my eyes I was not sure I was all

there for another few min. It was really fantastic.

 

I thought about this and what my idea was that maybe I was going

visually down through the chakras. It was like the higher

consciousness went down to see the devil. The power me in the root

chakra, I use the term devil as any being of power that is within, it

is the potential. I use that term demon in a loving manor as I know it

is my true inner self, it is that something that has been nourished by

all the thoughts and actions we have made within our lifetime, my

eternal flame. From this experience I am still learning, growing. As

Chrism has expressed about the safeties, the power within comes fourth

in like manor as to what nourishes it.

 

There is a lot more to why I would think along these lines as I truly

believe my awakening began when 5 years old or younger. At that age

the understanding that we are an entity within the physical body and

able to go beyond the boundaries of the body was a principle, which

was understandable and began to practice. Then the fear came to me, it

was of other times and other places where people that knew this secret

were pursued and killed or worse. This attempt of a 5 year old to

block memories of past things may be what led me to a near fatal auto

accident in that same year. A rather odd accident also, two autos

collide head on at over 60MPH and out of the four people I was the

only one injured. There I was standing out of body having these

strange visions of 3 universes going on together staring into an

emptiness that was waiting. Then they told me it was time to go back,

she is calling to me. That would be my sister calling so we got into a

taxi and went to the hospital.

 

Then there was that UFO experience in 1966 that brought up those fires

of kundalini; it was like an automatic defense mechanism. I have put

it that way because later in life it can be that way. It's been a life

process that has taught me this and I have used it that way many

times. By the way that UFO was some 20 feet above my head and in daylight.

 

That same year 1966 I went through therapy after being married and was

introduced to the benefits of yoga. Pick a subject of why I was

invited to go through therapy, physically abusive parents, NDE, OBE

delusions, UFO encounters, or other things I haven't mentioned. But

anyway it helped me to realize most people are just as crazy as I am

and the ones that think they are normal, well they are the people you

have to really watch out for.

 

Within this marital relationship is when I realized what stress is.

" The intellectual reasoning holding back a flaming passion to strangle

the crap out of someone that really disserves it. " I was 20 and a

photojournalist for a local newspaper and my 18-year-old wife brought

her boyfriend home. I knew more about their acquaintance than either

knew but his angle was to gain my favoritism, as he was a political

candidate for mayor, publicity and pictures and all. During this

tête-à-tête while contemplating grabbing his throat a feeling came up

my spine and into the stomach and head and while in mid mental stride

I went into something like a seizure, I was phasing out of body and

could feel that electricity shooting through my entire body, much like

the experience with the UFO. Needless to say I dropped against the bar

and onto the floor and until I could feel that I was breathing again I

could not center my consciousness within the body. Went to the

hospital and discovered I could produce beta waves and still be awake,

and a doctor started treating me for epilepsy.

 

This is about the time I decided to go into Kundalini Yoga to obtain

control over the physical and control the emotional seizures and

release the blockages of energy I was experiencing. I really needed to

take control over what was happening, or just surrender to it all and

die. There were also the severe pains in the solar plexus that were so

intense that the only thing I could do was stop everything and curl up

in a ball until the pain was gone. Also there were the severe lower

back pains. A divorce, all kinds of drugs, and the yoga proved

invaluable at that time. At this point in life 1968 I still had not a

clue as to what was going on in my life yet.

 

What was important from this is that I recognized a feeling it was the

same type of feeling I felt on Friday, a painless migraine. This

certain feeling I can remember going back to the accident when I was 5

and had attributed it to head injury as many doctors also had that notion.

 

On that Friday I was feeling a tension as a young and new worker had

told me that the new foreman was going to make him an inspector.

Regressing in this story, I have a problem with this new boss, a big

one and have little problem in telling him so. I hate working for

total idiots and when he was under me he was useless even then. The

shop has really been in turmoil ever sense he took over. But then this

inexperienced person that I do like tells me this and the forces start

in motion. Anger, rage, betrayal, and a sense of confusion with the

job, in all it began an emotional fire within. That demon within was

making its presence known.

 

As when I was 5 I knew this inner being and 55 years later I went full

circle and consciously went within and saw the fire within. It was

like what is described on

http://kundaliniawakeningseminars.com/howitworks.html going from phase

seven backwards to phase one- and after this experience all was in

balance again……..

At least for a while.

 

Now I'm going to go back and read Carlos Castaneda The Fire from Within.

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There is so much Ben I need more time! - lol -