Ugly Duckling Syndrome and Breaking Away from Ego - Healing

[Guest guest]

Thank you all for caring and for your kind words. A friend of mine

walked me through EFT and Ho`oponopono just a few minutes ago and I

felt like crying. I'm working through healing unresolved wounds from

my childhood till present and future ones.

 

I was feeling sad today while working on my projects, because all of

these past hurts that I blocked from my memory started to resurface

(THAT'S IT! I'm not doing anymore projects) - LOL - kidding. I guess

it's been therapeutic. I've been pretty busy with them especially

since I have 3 more weeks left before finals once again. Sigh .. there

was another incident in grade school that came back to my memory:

 

In third grade, there was a time when I was walking home from

school with our maid. We were almost home. We just have to cross

the street. There were jeeps running on the street. I happen to

step on mud by accident and my white socks got all dirty (how clumsy

). The passengers on the jeepney saw what happened and instead of

feeling bad, they all laughed at me. I just ignored them - pretended

that I did not see their facial reactions and laughter. I will never

forget that day, but I blocked it from my mind. Now, I remembered it

again. It made me teary eyed.

 

I can say that when I graduate, I would not consider any one of my

family members as one of the people who believed in me. It

is sad and disappointing, but I can count a few sincere and caring

people in my life off the net who truly believed in me especially at

times when I feel I am not " capable " or " hopeless " . They are the ones

who never stop believing and remind me to believe in myself once

again. I also am glad to be part of this group, because even though I

am the only child, God blessed me to have spiritual brothers and

sisters. ((Thank You)) :`(

 

Anne