Shaktipat - Denny to Sarita

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No, Sarita I do not mind at all. I understand completely what you

are saying and I agree with you. I know that I can not change another

being SO why would I want to waste my time and energy on them. I

believe you are correct in assuming this forgivness is mostly for me

and you are right it is primarily for me. I need really to forgive

myself first before I can move on. I have really been thinking this

over for many years now and have come to a point that this is enough

dwelling and replaying in my mind that I need to put this behind me

and move forward. This is not just something I want to do just so

that I can do so, I open my heart to complete forgives to all those

including myself for forgivness rather they accept it or not. I know

that I have made my amends to it and I feel better about myself in in

doing so. I already feel a lightness in my heart and a complete

release from this burden. I know that what happened was of no fault

of my own , just being a witness to it was enough. Thank you for

sharing you insight and imput and I do appreciate you so much for

your concern and love. I know K had a hand in this coming to light

and resolving this anger I carried.

 

DenDen(Denny)

 

, " Sarita "

<sarita1969 wrote:

>

> Hope you don't mind me interjecting DenDen. IMHO, forgiveness does

> not have to include that person being in your life any longer or,

if

> they are, having to put up with the previous behavior into the

> future. The forgiveness you are doing is for what happened

already,

> of yourself and those involved. You can choose to remove them from

> your life even though you forgive them or you can move forward with

> them. The forgiveness can take place in either scenario. I feel

the

> forgiveness benefits YOU more than anyone else.

>

> I know what it is like to hold onto past hurts and get angry all

over

> again just by thinking about them, to lull myself into believing

> that " this time " I really have forgiven only to find myself getting

> angry/ashamed/embarrassed all over again. The past two years I

have

> let go of so many injuries/hurts from the past. Some of the people

> are still in my life and we are moving forward within the

boundaries

> that I have set down and there are some who I have chosen not to

> continue on with. Either way I check in with myself every so often

> to make sure that I have gotten past the issues.

>

> I can now laugh at the time my ex husband read my journal and then

> proceeded to question me about what was in it. It feels good to

> laugh rather than become red in the face. LOL It is such a freeing

> feeling when you forgive for real. It is unmistakeable and you

will

> feel a lightness in your spirit when it happens. I wish this for

you

> my friend.

>

> Sarita

>

> , " Denny "

> <dennynorton@> wrote:

> >

> > Aha! Thank you for clarifying this for me as I was kind of

> > nervous about it. I have pondered the source of this anger and

> > emotion and I do know the source. It is something that always

> > constantly pops into my head from time to time and bothers me

from

> > childhood. I have been dealing with this issue for some time and

> > trying to forgive those envolved as well as myself. I think I am

> > coming to a head in making amends and forgiving all but it is a

> slow

> > process as I do not trust easily those who have hurt me in the

> past.

> > To let my gaurd down makes me vulernable to possibly more hurt

and

> I

> > do not want either party to be hurt any more than there already

is.

> > It is something that can not be changed as it has already

happened.

> I

> > do however feel that enough is enough and we need to move on with

> our

> > lives and be happy and loving now and in the future towards each

> > other. That is my wish and prayer. I know it is achievable. K has

a

> > way of bringing things to light and purifying them and clearing

> them.

> >

> > DenDen (Denny)

>