Shaktipat - to Carol

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Hi Carol,

 

Thank you for you opinion. I think I need to clarify a few things

here. What I mean by my " avoid " word of choice is this. There are

several, if you had an experience and it was unpleasant, hurtful,

painful or whatever, there was a lesson here we had to learn from it.

I am sure most of us dealt just fine with it and moved on. Why would

you want to stick your finger in the fire again. I think once is

enough. Also, I am intuitive and a very sensitive EMPATH and I see/

feel things before they arrise in most cases. If I have a feeling

it's not going to be pleasant, it is my choice to either go on with

it or avoid it. I have never ever run away from my problems or our

family problems. I allow myself to deal with those emotions in a

positive perspective. My father being an alcoholic is a very big

issue our family had to deal with. When I was 12 he became a

recovering alcoholic, we all were so proud of him. I attended Ala-

Teen in my teen years then Al-Anon in my adult years and I still

attend Al-Anon for Me not my father. A year and a half ago both my

parents had open heart surgery and while in the hospital my 3 other

brothers and I went to talk with our father about his drinking. He's

67 years old and in poor health himself. We asked him to go to rehab

and give it another go and to really try this time. He promised and

he kept that promise. He is now a recovering alcoholic who attends AA

meetings and he is now attending college to become aa alcoholic

counselor. He has been sober a year and a half as of today. We are so

proud of him and very supportive of him. When I was diagnosed with

cancer, my father came to my home and stayed with me to help me for a

month. He was there for the very 1st time as the father I always

wanted. He bathed me, fed me when I was too sick to hold my head up,

we talked a many a hours day and night, we cried together, he asked

me for forgives and I not only forgave him but I also forgave me too.

He stood by be, side by side to be sure I would not fall, he was

especially there for me when I really wanted to give up and throw in

the white towel and just die. He knew the severe pain I was in and he

felt so hopeless and he let it be known. He held me at night like I

was a child and he told me stories to take my mind off cancer and my

health problems. I have to my knowledge never run away from problems,

I deal with them as they come the best way I know how. I am sure

there was a lesson to be learned in it too. I am forever grateful for

those lessons. I can not even begin to tell you how it has changed me

and my family as well as other who are a part of my immediate life.

 

Many Blessing,

 

DenDen (Denny)