Guest guest Posted January 20, 2008 Report Share Posted January 20, 2008 Hello Everybody, I had a busy week of music making and haven't been able to post. I have been doing well lately. I have to admit that I am incredibly frustrated right now with feeling out of whack. There is an energy on the left side of my head that is constantly yammering an internal dialogue day and night of a very obsessive and delusional nature. It keeps me awake at night and is present first thing in the morning when I wake up. I know there has always been part of me of an analytical bent and maybe this is just that part times a million but it is so controlling that I constantly feel rigid like my mind is controlling my body and will not let go, in meditation it is difficult to find my center and stay with it. When I start to experience a feeling of stillness it chimes in to classify it. Is this some aspect of a super ego or something? Why is it so difficult to let go? I can't seem to lose myself in anything. Does anyone have any words of wisdom? I find that I want to ask how to surrender this which I know is an oxymoron. I'm probably the only one that can help here but that's my update from obsessive introvert land.AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Nothing too serious. Just venting I guess. Love, Travis Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 21, 2008 Report Share Posted January 21, 2008 Dear Travis, The more aware we become of our " ego " part the more peculiar and seperate it feels, like a whole other person exists within many other parts. I suggest you make friends with it, no matter how paranoid and moany it becomes. Send love to it. Tell that part of you that you love it and it's ok, it can relax , everything is going to be fine. The ego fears losing it's control, of losing itself. It needs comfort. Ask God/ess, Shakti, Jesus or whoever you feel comfortable with praying to, to help. Everyday say I surrender this part of myself in to love, I give of it freely as a gift to you Shakti (or whoever). See yourself giving it away as a wrapped present or however you can visualise it. This is one method I use to rid myself of feelings or negative thought patterns. I give it to God. Love and surrender Elektra x x x _________ Support the World Aids Awareness campaign this month with For Good http://uk.promotions./forgood/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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