What it used to be ------------

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Dearest -

Hope your are well and your road is not a dusty one, specially through Texas,

kachoo!

What it used to be was being this woman living her life as a mother and wife.

Living a life with no specific dreams except for those of the husband's wish to

realize. Unbeknown to me that my dream was yet to come. It used to be pleasant

to wake up in the morning happy for the sleep and rest, now I wake up with

gratefulness for the brand new day.

The road of my life has been turbulent at times. I have been visiting lots of

the scenes that makes the wonderful production that I have lived and marveled at

all the melodramas that has taught me how to be better and appreciate everyone

who has been in my path. Every person along the way was a teacher and every

teacher had a sparkle in their eyes, the reflection of All we are. Our

Creator's wink in every-ones' eyes.

Kundalini is not " normal " I dare say! I recall writing that in my journal,

the one I posted here for the group to read. It is not normal to be thrusted so

powerfully into the Kundalini experience like I have been, I thought. Now I

smile, no not normal, but it sure the hell beats waking up in the morning with

just the gratefulness for the sleep and rest.

It used to be that I'd go into meditation and Shakti would greet me at the

other side of my stillness and fill my body with twitches, spasms, traveling and

rolling pulsing masses, and of course the never ending surges of her powerful

presence. A presence she makes sure was in gradual terms, never too much for me

to handle and never too little for me not to notice. She has always been

consistent, and continues to be. Now, things are different. Her unhurried

pace has hasten, not that Shakti is in a hurry and neither am I, time is not the

essence. I perceive her presence precipitated but not when it is not supposed

to be. It used to be that the strong waves of energy would have long pauses, as

if to rest my body and condition it for what was to come. Shakti in conjunction

with the safeties is preparing my body, my mind and my self to accept all that

has been given thus far.. Nowadays, there is barely a gap between the waves

that pours inside my body. My

meditation is one huge surge, like surfing an endless ocean wave, cresting

eventually after sometimes an hour and half of stillness. Funny, I don't know

why I call it stillness with so much hoopla happening in me. It has gotten to a

point that my head barely lays to rest and Kundalini is saying " I am here " . It

used to be that I'd wait for Shakti to make her presence known, it is now that I

make mine first. I talk to her passionately and she answers every inquiry

without fail. We should all talk to her, she listens, she is Loving and has our

best interest in her. She is not there to hurt us, but to express her

unconditional Love. It used to be that I'd feel Kundalini expressing in me the

most with Loving gushes during meditation now a days all I have to do is think

and feel a Loving thought and a warm wave culminates my heart. She is moving

from being in part of my day while in meditation to Loving me while I do dishes,

make dinner, read a book or writing you this

post. Her Love is always there, the Love that we all are. What is there to be

afraid of? Certainly nothing at all. Shakti has our best interest in her,

unconditional Love and an unwavering desire for our evolvement. There's just

one thing we need to do, and that's the footwork. She shows us the path, we do

the walking. I am in awe, Chrism, as the days go by and by, unhurried for

there's no essence of time as Kundalini gives the blessed gift of Love, the

Universal language we can all understand but some, unfortunately, fail to

comprehend. The language we knew before we were born to this existence, what a

beautiful dialect. My sons are always saying in delight, " Look mom!! I grew!! "

I smile and I say to myself " Yes, my darling, I had a growth spurt too "

I Love the growth in me, I wake up as that woman used to do, still being the

mother and the wife but now with her own dreams smiling at her. It's good to

feel Loved, for I AM Love, you ARE Love we All are that twinkle in God's eyes.

Wink, wink

Becky

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

Very nice Becky... Thanks... I needed that. :-)

 

Blessings...

Paul

 

-------------- Original message from Becky Jean Rich <beckyjeanrich:

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Dearest -

Hope your are well and your road is not a dusty one, specially through Texas,

kachoo!

What it used to be was being this woman living her life as a mother and wife.

Living a life with no specific dreams except for those of the husband's wish to

realize. Unbeknown to me that my dream was yet to come. It used to be pleasant

to wake up in the morning happy for the sleep and rest, now I wake up with

gratefulness for the brand new day.

The road of my life has been turbulent at times. I have been visiting lots of

the scenes that makes the wonderful production that I have lived and marveled at

all the melodramas that has taught me how to be better and appreciate everyone

who has been in my path. Every person along the way was a teacher and every

teacher had a sparkle in their eyes, the reflection of All we are. Our Creator's

wink in every-ones' eyes.

Kundalini is not " normal " I dare say! I recall writing that in my journal, the

one I posted here for the group to read. It is not normal to be thrusted so

powerfully into the Kundalini experience like I have been, I thought. Now I

smile, no not normal, but it sure the hell beats waking up in the morning with

just the gratefulness for the sleep and rest.

It used to be that I'd go into meditation and Shakti would greet me at the other

side of my stillness and fill my body with twitches, spasms, traveling and

rolling pulsing masses, and of course the never ending surges of her powerful

presence. A presence she makes sure was in gradual terms, never too much for me

to handle and never too little for me not to notice. She has always been

consistent, and continues to be. Now, things are different. Her unhurried pace

has hasten, not that Shakti is in a hurry and neither am I, time is not the

essence. I perceive her presence precipitated but not when it is not supposed to

be. It used to be that the strong waves of energy would have long pauses, as if

to rest my body and condition it for what was to come. Shakti in conjunction

with the safeties is preparing my body, my mind and my self to accept all that

has been given thus far.. Nowadays, there is barely a gap between the waves that

pours inside my body. My

meditation is one huge surge, like surfing an endless ocean wave, cresting

eventually after sometimes an hour and half of stillness. Funny, I don't know

why I call it stillness with so much hoopla happening in me. It has gotten to a

point that my head barely lays to rest and Kundalini is saying " I am here " . It

used to be that I'd wait for Shakti to make her presence known, it is now that I

make mine first. I talk to her passionately and she answers every inquiry

without fail. We should all talk to her, she listens, she is Loving and has our

best interest in her. She is not there to hurt us, but to express her

unconditional Love. It used to be that I'd feel Kundalini expressing in me the

most with Loving gushes during meditation now a days all I have to do is think

and feel a Loving thought and a warm wave culminates my heart. She is moving

from being in part of my day while in meditation to Loving me while I do dishes,

make dinner, read a book or writing you this

post. Her Love is always there, the Love that we all are. What is there to be

afraid of? Certainly nothing at all. Shakti has our best interest in her,

unconditional Love and an unwavering desire for our evolvement. There's just one

thing we need to do, and that's the footwork. She shows us the path, we do the

walking. I am in awe, Chrism, as the days go by and by, unhurried for there's no

essence of time as Kundalini gives the blessed gift of Love, the Universal

language we can all understand but some, unfortunately, fail to comprehend. The

language we knew before we were born to this existence, what a beautiful

dialect. My sons are always saying in delight, " Look mom!! I grew!! " I smile and

I say to myself " Yes, my darling, I had a growth spurt too "

I Love the growth in me, I wake up as that woman used to do, still being the

mother and the wife but now with her own dreams smiling at her. It's good to

feel Loved, for I AM Love, you ARE Love we All are that twinkle in God's eyes.

Wink, wink

Becky

 

 

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