Denny's story

January 22, 2008

Hello group...Chris had asked me to post my story to this group also

so here goes my story of kundalini awakening.

Enjoy !

Growing up as a child I experienced many unusual and unexplainable

things. I can remember at an early age of 4 playing with Arthur my

imaginary friend but to me he was real and I could see and hear him.

This was not an issue with my mother but my father did not condone it

and I was punished if I was caught playing with Arthur. I learned so

much from Arthur about things I was not supposed to know and I did

not know better than to repeat it to my parents. Boy did I get in

trouble. I was considered an odd or strange person and people did not

like to be around me unless it was with other people or if my family

was with me. I never could figure out why and no one would really

tell me. I always thought it was on account of my hearing disability.

Other students did not associate with me because I wore a hearing

aid, and I had speech impairment. I became a loner and became

introverted. All the while many other things were happening to me,

and it totally confused me, and I became rebellious on account of.

Our family life was a disaster, dad was a violent alcoholic and he

abused us repeatedly for anything. We avoided dad whenever possible

or just got lost period and stayed away from him. We were safer that

way, at least most of the time. I had many visions, intuitions and

premonitions, as well as OOBE growing up and when I did express them

to family members they accused me of eavesdropping on them or for

being nosey. I got in so much trouble over these abilities that I

finally just stopped letting them know that I knew something anyway.

I got tired of them calling me a liar or beating me up. I was most

times in the dog house as a result. My dog Butch did not mind

sharing his house with me. hahaha. It was difficult for me to be

myself. I did have a few outside friends growing up but even that was

limited to visiting times and with whom I could be friends with, and

I usually had to stay in the living room area. This however changed

once I became a teenager and began working and making some money.

Little did I know that the money I made was going to have to go back

into the household paying rent, electric, gas, groceries, and so on.

I did not like this arrangement since my other brothers were not

contributing to the expenses. I became very hateful and resentful of

them and my parents. Over the years I provided for my twin brother

and one other brother (Steve). Bill Jr., my oldest Brother, had

already left the nest leaving Steve, Me and my twin Danny. I was in

co-op in high school where I went to school half the day and worked

the rest of the day, if I was scheduled to work. I pretty much kept

my schedule full so I would not be at home. I enjoyed working as it

kept my mind occupied and me busy. I can relate much to knowing

about Kundalini through reading materials such as books and so on. I

also have a rather large collection myself in which I am very proud

of my library. How I came about " KNOWING " of Kundalini was when I was

in the hospital in 2004 after a near death experience along with

other medical issues. I awoke with this foreign, strange word on the

forefront of my brain. I was completely confused and baffled and

dismissed it as being disoriented. However, over a few days I became

really troubled about this new found word as it would not leave my

thoughts. I was not in the greatest of health during this time and I

needed so much help to live and stay alive. I did not have at that

time a friend with whom I could trust to express this openly with, at

least I did not feel that I did. One morning a friend of mine came

to visit me in the hospital, her name is Sandra. I have known her for

about 2 years by then and I asked her to bring me anything, something

to read other than the newspaper or magazines, I had already read

everything there was available on the hospital floor. She brought me

a book she had in her jeep titled " REIKI " . This opened up a terrific

conversation for discussion as I was always interested in Reiki but

did not know anyone who actually performed Reiki. I learned she was

fixing to become certified and I was so excited for her too. I asked

her if she was metaphysical as this is what I was more interested

in. She expressed to me that she was, and Oh Boy, was that a relief

to me. I told her I was too. This was the very beginning of a very

fond and personal friendship together. I told her of my strange

experience upon waking and that I was not sure how to go about it or

what to make of it. I told her I woke up with this strange foreign

word on my forehead. By lunch time I asked her if she would go to a

bookstore and locate or find a book titled " KUNDALINI " , as this was

the word I woke up to and its cover is gold in color. I heard her

grasp for air and she gave me the strangest, weirdest, oddest look. I

was thinking I might have offended her. I began to think I went into

a dangerous area or fear came over me. She excused herself and left

my room. All kinds of thoughts were passing through my head. I was

thinking I offended her for sure, or maybe I said something wrong. I

did not know what to think. I just knew I did not want to ever hurt

her and this pained me terribly. She was not gone very long before

she finally returned to my room. She brought with her the very book I

had asked her to look for and it was gold in color. WOW! Who would

have thought? I had total goose bumps running up and down my body and

weird tingling feelings throughout my body, so many images were

passing thru my thoughts, I could not slow them down enough to know

what they were. She shared with me her honest views on the subject

and for me to go real slow if I decided this was for me. I told her

that it must be for me if I was told about it without KNOWING of it

or ever heard of such word. She agreed with me but she still held

strong reservations. We continued to talk more about it and then she

left me so I could go read up on this new book I just received. I am

an avid veracious reader this is one of my passions. I quickly

finished the book. I consider myself extremely open minded and I have

an ability of reading beyond words, I do have a special gift of

insight that has a mind of its own. After reading the book " I KNEW "

this is what I was looking for and I desperately wanted this for me.

So the next day I asked my housemate Oskar to bring me my laptop from

home so I can do some internet researching on this subject. I did

not tell him what I wanted or what for. I was afraid and apprehensive

of how he would take my new found interest so I kept it quiet. I was

more interested in getting to the root of this Kundalini mystery. I

quickly became dismayed as there was not much at that time about

Kundalini on the web. But I did accept what there was and I learned

much from that as well. I found that there was so little known

actual information in the western era but so much in the Eastern.

That was great…but I came into another issue…I did not know how to

read Sanskrit or India language. I became frustrated and

discouraged. I decided to try out our famous Fort Worth Central

Library Inter-Library Loan service. This library had limited

information and few books about Kundalini on hand. During my Inter-

Library loan search I found so many books available throughout the

various other 50 states and I quickly ordered as many as they would

allow me to order at that time. I think it was 5 books at no charge

and would take about 2-3 weeks to arrive. I was so excited when the

books started arriving one by one as I finished each one. I made

notes, files, folders, research material and so on. I was like a

sponge soaking up any and all that I could find. I could not get

enough I was obsessed with this. Talk about having OCD. My next

venture was to try to locate another being or group with whom I could

communicate with locally or at least within 100 miles. I quickly ran

into more problems there. During this time I had been going through

many personal issues, cleaning up old baggage and past problems with

family and such. I never did alcohol, drugs, or anything criminal and

I was proud of myself for standing firm with that. I was having

severe anxiety attacks and sought out professional help. I was having

problems leaving my home, driving, sleeping, whatever. This became so

unbearable that I would hide in my room for days on end. I tried so

hard to break free of this prison of mine and no one I talked to

would or could understood me and really thought I was losing it. I

was afraid of myself and feared losing my own sanity. The

professionals I did find all they wanted to do was give me anti-

depressive drugs, I tried Abilify, Paxel, Zoloft, Xanax, and so on. I

absolutely hated the way I felt and what I was turning into…a

complete zombie. All of this seemed like the longest days of my

entire life trying to adjust and control my anxiety. I had run into a

brick wall and I just did not know what else to do or where to turn.

I quit all the anxiety drugs and threw them away. I knew they did

nothing for me but make me numb. I cried for days, I prayed for

guidance, support, anything. I finally gave up. I finally got around

to talking to my friend Sandra and she asked me to explain in detail

what I was experiencing when I had one of my anxiety attacks. So I

did and when I was finished she gave me a link to a and

told me to read up on this as she felt this was what my issue was

more related to and to take it from there. Since this was at my home

I grabbed my laptop and looked at the link

Empaths/ After reading this site I

KNEW then that I was an EMPATH and I needed help in controlling my

Empathic abilities. This group saved my life and brought me back to

sanity. I met so many people in this group on and off and I can

honestly say that I am now in control of my EMPATH abilities and I no

longer have anxiety attacks of any kind. Now, I teach others how to

control and removed unwanted emotions or whatever negativity that is

the root cause of their anxiety or depression. In doing so, I help

and grow myself. I enjoy being of service and kind to others. In all

this time adjusting to empathy abilities I also came to terms with my

intuitive abilities. I would shut them out. I did not want it. I

always had intuitive knowing as a child and a mother who did not

discourage this gift. MOM would actually talk me through it so I

could understand the information I was receiving when I was much

younger but when I became a teenager I became very quiet. If I knew

something…I would just keep it to myself. It did not always work that

way, sometimes I just had to say what was on my mind no matter what

and face the consequences. There were many good points to this

ability but there were also some sad points. Seeing good things

before hand was super and I loved them, it was just the knowing of

something bad or sad that I did not like. Most times those things

were completely out of my control. I had to accept the reality of it.

Today I am blessed with such wonderful abilities and I always use

them for the greatest good and always in divine light. I am a past

member of Kundalini Awakening group. I am well read on Kundalini but

sometimes I wonder if I know anything at all. I did have a K

experience that was very profound. One night while sleeping I started

to get uncontrollable freezing body chills and shakes. Now the

weather here was the mid 70s which was warm, during the summer

months. I tried the Pingala (right nostril) method to bring in more

heat by closing off the Ida (left) nostril. It finally kicked in

about 2 hours later. I finally returned to some type of normalcy. At

that time I was experiencing too much body heat (fire) so the A/C is

definitely on. So you probably figured out I was using the Ida

method. My experiences with K have been strange and odd of the last

year. I also remember one night while I was sleeping I had this deep

burning (fire) sensation going up my spine from my tailbone. I saw

the color red like burning flames. I remember having an OOBE and

being in the cosmic…I noticed the many levels of ENERGY, in total

darkness with a few stars shining and the feeling of being alone and

abandoned. In the far distance I saw and an image I could not make

out that was in vivid deep blue color. I could only see the deep

green of her eyes and blue. I felt so alone in eternity if that's the

right word and these very powerful words came to mind or did I hear

them, I do not recall but it was so profound 'All is One, One is

All' and I panicked and jumped out of bed. Everything around me

looked different, brighter, clearer, detailed, and crisp. For the

first time in my entire I was experiencing extreme FEAR.

I was so weak at my knees I could not walk. I made it to my bedroom

entry and was met there by my roommate Oskar at the same time. He

looked at me and asked me if I was OK…he had a very concerned look on

his face. I answered back that I am not so sure. I told him I had

woken up from a strange experience and I just heard these words

spoken…at the same time we said " All Is ONE and ONE is All " . We both

became shocked and confused. This one took me a few days to grasp and

to get my mind wrapped around it. This was a total revelation so

monumental to me that we are all one, everything and nothing. This

was almost too much for me to comprehend. Over the remaining months I

experienced many K symptoms and this group helped me to cope with and

deal with the many k surprises that came up. I knew that I was not

alone and others have or may not have yet experienced this exact K

symptom. But many thanks to Chris Mitchell and Kundalini Awakening

group, I have found that I was not alone and I was not going out of

my mind. I am well read on Kundalini but sometimes I wonder if I know

anything at all. I feel I need more guidance and assistance and do

not know where to turn. So I am back here again. When I try to locate

a support group in my area no one knows about K and are dumbfounded.

That makes it hard for me to locate a person(s) who is going thru or

had K experiences. So I usually go at it alone and make the best of

whatever arrives.

About me: My name is Denny. I reside in the wonderful city of

Dallas/Fort Worth, Texas. I am male, 40 years old, single (not

looking) and I work in the medical transcription field and I am

currently studying to become a paralegal. I love to read anything and

consider myself very open minded. I am also a very sensitive EMPATH.

Blessings,

Denny

January 22, 2008

Denny, first of all I will gratefully refer to you using your given name! I love

that and it truly characterizes who you are! Thank you for sharing with us your

life! You have had some rough times, but I must say that your optimistic

attitude, your great strength, your unconditional love you seem to have for your

family even though you did what you had to growing up is so out of this world

amazing and inspiring. YOU have a unique strength and many wonderful abilities

to help others. Thank you for using it for the better. I admire you for being

who you are based on your life past. Once again thank you for sharing it with

us.

Love you my dear brother.

Love,

Katherine

Denny <dennynorton

Tuesday, January 22, 2008 8:39:19 PM