Just so confused :-(

[Guest guest]

Hi all,

I am just so confused. I am not even sure what i want now. I have this

yearning inside, don't know whats it for. Its not for something

physical and i cant say its spiritual. Its an hollowness, an emptiness

driving me towards something i don't know. Most of the times now i am

just so sad and also so frustrated. I cant meditate since the mind

will not let me. I want to meditate since my heart wants me to. As a

result i cant do anything. Cant set up a routine cause that seems to

constrict me.

 

Most of the times now i just want to tear myself apart cause this is

not me, this society, these rules, this is just not done. All this

hatred, fear, around us for nothing. Such a small life we have and we

spend it thinking and acting it out of things of least importance.

 

I have tried various ways to awaken Kundalini but doesn't seem to

work. I have been a member here for sometime and a scatterfield was

placed by chrism around me. I am not sure what that did or is doing. I

have tried many a times to do the safeties in the hope that Kundalini

will awaken but almost all the times i am unable to stick with them.

Work, Life, routine, family everything eats up into the limited time i

have.

 

I am not even sure what i should be doing. Any suggestions are welcome.

 

Om

[Guest guest]

I think confusion and yearning are good things. It means you are not

satisfied with the status quo, that you are gearing up for something

else. I've been there and symptoms like that have always preceeded

growth for me.

 

I wish I had the answer for you. As far as meditating, what I found

was a good base is to inhale saying " I am " and exhale saying " at

peace " . In and out to a count of 4. This mantra helps to keep your

mind sufficiently occupied so the outside thoughts melt away. When I

do this, I immediately become calm and peaceful.

 

Do you do the forgiveness, service for others? Helping others helps

us grow in so many ways it would be hard to list them all.

 

I'm sure will have some suggestions for you as well. Good

luck!

 

Sarita

 

, " Dan "

<mysticaldan wrote:

>

> Hi all,

> I am just so confused. I am not even sure what i want now. I have

this

> yearning inside, don't know whats it for. Its not for something

> physical and i cant say its spiritual. Its an hollowness, an

emptiness

> driving me towards something i don't know. Most of the times now i

am

> just so sad and also so frustrated. I cant meditate since the mind

> will not let me. I want to meditate since my heart wants me to. As a

> result i cant do anything. Cant set up a routine cause that seems to

> constrict me.

>

> Most of the times now i just want to tear myself apart cause this is

> not me, this society, these rules, this is just not done. All this

> hatred, fear, around us for nothing. Such a small life we have and

we

> spend it thinking and acting it out of things of least importance.

>

> I have tried various ways to awaken Kundalini but doesn't seem to

> work. I have been a member here for sometime and a scatterfield was

> placed by chrism around me. I am not sure what that did or is

doing. I

> have tried many a times to do the safeties in the hope that

Kundalini

> will awaken but almost all the times i am unable to stick with them.

> Work, Life, routine, family everything eats up into the limited

time i

> have.

>

> I am not even sure what i should be doing. Any suggestions are

welcome.

>

> Om

>

[Guest guest]

Dear Dan,

 

The only suggestion I can offer you, which I believe will be the one Chrism

will offer you, is to relax, surrender to the Kundalini, and do something for

someone else.

 

If you do not follow the Safeties, you will encounter many problems and it

sounds like you are, since you are being overwhelmed by 'the way life is.' All

of us here live in the same world that you do. It is frustrating, that's why we

must not focus on frustration and sadness, but focus instead on surrender and

inner joy.

 

You say you can't meditate because your mind won't let you...and you can't set

up a routine because that would be restrictive. has told us many times

that there is a big difference between wanting and having Kundalini...and the

ego is the big 'K killer'...you ego is in full control of you right now. It is

telling you that you CAN'T...and you are listening.

 

Take a deep breath and start the Safeties again. That is the only way that

you are going to be able to begin to 'step out of your own way' and allow the

Kundalini to rise in you. Don't focus on what you can't do, and what you can't

fix in the world, and what this emptiness is inside of you, focus on the

Safeties, surrendering, and service. When you begin to feel the darkness creep

up on you, take a deep breath and say...

 

God, I surrender

Shakti, I surrender

Kundalini, I surrender

 

Say it with gentle self-assurance, FEEL yourself relax and let go as you say

it. Keep saying it over and over till the darkness subsides.

 

The other thing that will help tremendously:

 

SERVICE to others.

 

It is a sure way to move your focus away from yourself, your confusion and

your sadness...and a sure way to bring you much inner joy! Go out and help

someone...your neighbor...a family member....a complete stranger!

 

Remember: the 3 S's: Safeties, Surrender, Service

 

Many blessings and much love to you, Dan!

 

Claudia

 

Dan <mysticaldan wrote:

Hi all,

I am just so confused. I am not even sure what i want now. I have this

yearning inside, don't know whats it for. Its not for something

physical and i cant say its spiritual. Its an hollowness, an emptiness

driving me towards something i don't know. Most of the times now i am

just so sad and also so frustrated. I cant meditate since the mind

will not let me. I want to meditate since my heart wants me to. As a

result i cant do anything. Cant set up a routine cause that seems to

constrict me.

 

Most of the times now i just want to tear myself apart cause this is

not me, this society, these rules, this is just not done. All this

hatred, fear, around us for nothing. Such a small life we have and we

spend it thinking and acting it out of things of least importance.

 

I have tried various ways to awaken Kundalini but doesn't seem to

work. I have been a member here for sometime and a scatterfield was

placed by chrism around me. I am not sure what that did or is doing. I

have tried many a times to do the safeties in the hope that Kundalini

will awaken but almost all the times i am unable to stick with them.

Work, Life, routine, family everything eats up into the limited time i

have.

 

I am not even sure what i should be doing. Any suggestions are welcome.

 

Om

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

Dearest Dan, relax.

 

What comes to me to tell you is to slow down and begin to be grateful

for all that comes to you. Let go of all that is frustrating you. Take

a deep breath and exhale all the effort, and striving, and desiring

that is pulling on you. Step out of it all for a while, until you feel

a balance. Sometimes we get so full of what we want that we can miss

what is already there. jmho. Love, dhyana

 

 

, " Dan "

<mysticaldan wrote:

>

> Hi all,

> I am just so confused. I am not even sure what i want now. I have this

> yearning inside, don't know whats it for. Its not for something

> physical and i cant say its spiritual. Its an hollowness, an emptiness

> driving me towards something i don't know. Most of the times now i am

> just so sad and also so frustrated. I cant meditate since the mind

> will not let me. I want to meditate since my heart wants me to. As a

> result i cant do anything. Cant set up a routine cause that seems to

> constrict me.

>

> Most of the times now i just want to tear myself apart cause this is

> not me, this society, these rules, this is just not done. All this

> hatred, fear, around us for nothing. Such a small life we have and we

> spend it thinking and acting it out of things of least importance.

>

> I have tried various ways to awaken Kundalini but doesn't seem to

> work. I have been a member here for sometime and a scatterfield was

> placed by chrism around me. I am not sure what that did or is doing. I

> have tried many a times to do the safeties in the hope that Kundalini

> will awaken but almost all the times i am unable to stick with them.

> Work, Life, routine, family everything eats up into the limited time i

> have.

>

> I am not even sure what i should be doing. Any suggestions are welcome.

>

> Om

>

[Guest guest]

I find it helps me when I read something positve and spiritual to

uplift my spirit before I meditate. Also guided meditations may help,

at least if you can't quiet your mind it can fill you with positive

messages rather than worrying thoughts, the key is to focus on the

positive messages. Maybe you could just do something that brings you

joy before you meditate.

 

Diane

[Guest guest]

-------------- Original message ----------------------

" Diane " <dcl302000

> I find it helps me when I read something positve and spiritual to

> uplift my spirit before I meditate. Also guided meditations may help,

> at least if you can't quiet your mind it can fill you with positive

> messages rather than worrying thoughts, the key is to focus on the

> positive messages. Maybe you could just do something that brings you

> joy before you meditate.

>

 

Yes! I try to make a meditation out of driving the car. Or I get the dog and do

the dog-walking meditation. Nellie McKay has recorded a great mantra (kinda

long) for this one, called Dog Song. I find that making a meditation out of

whatever I am doing gives me a sense of progress. This doesn't work for nagging

my teenagers. But it works for solitary activities and makes me more receptive

to sitting down meditation.

 

Best wishes,

Dan O.

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

i would love to be able to just do the protocols chrism suggests all day every

day. Trying to fit " K' into life is not easy for anyone. There are those who

are getting up at 3a.m.. or 5a.m. to do the safeties and exercises chrism

suggests for their individual situation. I am the first to say - " hey this is

hard- i fight it all the time - yet when i get into the practice life seems

easier - this path is not easy for all - some enjoy an easy time but many of us

suffer in various ways - so far my suffering has been light but i expect there

is more to come for me - the longing and the desiring you are experiencing is

holding you back - if you just relax and let be what is you may be pleasantly

surprised. Kundalini is a gift - a gift that does not come to all - you can not

force the gift - if it is to be it is -

 

as others have stated - relax - pray do the safeties and accept what is...

 

 

 

loro

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[Guest guest]

Hi Dan since you asked for thoughts I will give you my take on this.

lol... I can only speak from my own limited experience within the K.

However my life experience is quite vast and I have risen above many

things. From your writings it sounds like you are watching, listening

to and or reading a lot of negative news, movies and or books.

Negative energy is coming to you somehow and we have been told to

watch out for this.

 

The Safeties take only minutes to read and it is very important that

we follow them to best of our ability everyday... It's funny how it

works because it seems the more I read them the easier it gets to

follow them. How about that eh… There is an old saying that goes " it

works if you work it " I learned long ago that could mean I have to be

willing to go to any length including following any suggestions given

in my best interest. These suggestions are in place for a reason and

that is to stop us from getting hurt. We have a choice in how we want

to live. I hope you chose to pick up The Safeties Dan and spin and

dance and have some fun lol… I would like to make a suggestion and

that is carry the Safeties with you and read them over and over until

you think you know them through and through. Even if you can read one

page at a time just keep at it everyday. Before you know it they will

be so engrained in your heart that you will follow them without even

thinking. Try it ok… (HUG)

In Love and Light

Laura Joyce

 

 

 

, " Dan "

<mysticaldan wrote:

>

> Hi all,

> I am just so confused. I am not even sure what i want now. I have

this

> yearning inside, don't know whats it for. Its not for something

> physical and i cant say its spiritual. Its an hollowness, an

emptiness

> driving me towards something i don't know. Most of the times now i

am

> just so sad and also so frustrated. I cant meditate since the mind

> will not let me. I want to meditate since my heart wants me to. As a

> result i cant do anything. Cant set up a routine cause that seems to

> constrict me.

>

> Most of the times now i just want to tear myself apart cause this is

> not me, this society, these rules, this is just not done. All this

> hatred, fear, around us for nothing. Such a small life we have and

we

> spend it thinking and acting it out of things of least importance.

>

> I have tried various ways to awaken Kundalini but doesn't seem to

> work. I have been a member here for sometime and a scatterfield was

> placed by chrism around me. I am not sure what that did or is

doing. I

> have tried many a times to do the safeties in the hope that

Kundalini

> will awaken but almost all the times i am unable to stick with them.

> Work, Life, routine, family everything eats up into the limited

time i

> have.

>

> I am not even sure what i should be doing. Any suggestions are

welcome.

>

> Om

>

[Guest guest]

A small clarification, Dan. I didn't mean to stop the Safeties, just

the mental anguish and gymnastics that we go through when things don't

seem to be going right. Its our thinking and outlook that can

frustrate us, so a little space from it can release it and make room

for a more balanced one.

 

I am totally in agreement that commitment to the Safeties should be a

top priority. I had to struggle with making time for " me, " too. And

its still a balancing act with all the other spiritual priorities in

my life, and all the other demands on my time. If the Intention is

strong, a way will be found. I think we all go through this to some

extent. And maybe Shakti even tests us in this to see how serious we

are about it all. Set your face in the direction you want to go and

nothing will be able to stop you.

 

Love, dhyana

 

 

 

 

, " novalees "

<Novalees wrote:

>

>

> Dearest Dan, relax.

>

> What comes to me to tell you is to slow down and begin to be grateful

> for all that comes to you. Let go of all that is frustrating you. Take

> a deep breath and exhale all the effort, and striving, and desiring

> that is pulling on you. Step out of it all for a while, until you feel

> a balance. Sometimes we get so full of what we want that we can miss

> what is already there. jmho. Love, dhyana

>

>

> , " Dan "

> <mysticaldan@> wrote:

> >

> > Hi all,

> > I am just so confused. I am not even sure what i want now. I have this

> > yearning inside, don't know whats it for. Its not for something

> > physical and i cant say its spiritual. Its an hollowness, an emptiness

> > driving me towards something i don't know. Most of the times now i am

> > just so sad and also so frustrated. I cant meditate since the mind

> > will not let me. I want to meditate since my heart wants me to. As a

> > result i cant do anything. Cant set up a routine cause that seems to

> > constrict me.

> >

> > Most of the times now i just want to tear myself apart cause this is

> > not me, this society, these rules, this is just not done. All this

> > hatred, fear, around us for nothing. Such a small life we have and we

> > spend it thinking and acting it out of things of least importance.

> >

> > I have tried various ways to awaken Kundalini but doesn't seem to

> > work. I have been a member here for sometime and a scatterfield was

> > placed by chrism around me. I am not sure what that did or is doing. I

> > have tried many a times to do the safeties in the hope that Kundalini

> > will awaken but almost all the times i am unable to stick with them.

> > Work, Life, routine, family everything eats up into the limited time i

> > have.

> >

> > I am not even sure what i should be doing. Any suggestions are

welcome.

> >

> > Om

> >

>

[Guest guest]

I went through awful confusion in the last 6 months, but didnt

realise until I had my 'episode' that awoke kundalini in me. The

pain of my back etc. And once I surrendered to the confusion, and

stopped trying to work it all out, it all just fell into place. It

didnt happen overnight, but it did happen. I have also now had

trouble sleeping sometimes, which is a first for me, but I have also

stopped worrying about that, and it is fine now. It is all about

not trying to control the process and to trust. I was told this at

the beginning, by and others here, but only now do I see and

understand.

What I am trying to say Dan, is just to try to go with the flow if

you can. Things will untangle soon.

CV

 

 

 

 

 

 

, Claudia

<newtfoodbowl wrote:

>

> Dear Dan,

>

> The only suggestion I can offer you, which I believe will be the

one will offer you, is to relax, surrender to the Kundalini,

and do something for someone else.

>

> If you do not follow the Safeties, you will encounter many

problems and it sounds like you are, since you are being overwhelmed

by 'the way life is.' All of us here live in the same world that

you do. It is frustrating, that's why we must not focus on

frustration and sadness, but focus instead on surrender and inner

joy.

>

> You say you can't meditate because your mind won't let you...and

you can't set up a routine because that would be restrictive.

Chrism has told us many times that there is a big difference between

wanting and having Kundalini...and the ego is the big 'K

killer'...you ego is in full control of you right now. It is

telling you that you CAN'T...and you are listening.

>

> Take a deep breath and start the Safeties again. That is the

only way that you are going to be able to begin to 'step out of your

own way' and allow the Kundalini to rise in you. Don't focus on

what you can't do, and what you can't fix in the world, and what

this emptiness is inside of you, focus on the Safeties,

surrendering, and service. When you begin to feel the darkness

creep up on you, take a deep breath and say...

>

> God, I surrender

> Shakti, I surrender

> Kundalini, I surrender

>

> Say it with gentle self-assurance, FEEL yourself relax and let

go as you say it. Keep saying it over and over till the darkness

subsides.

>

> The other thing that will help tremendously:

>

> SERVICE to others.

>

> It is a sure way to move your focus away from yourself, your

confusion and your sadness...and a sure way to bring you much inner

joy! Go out and help someone...your neighbor...a family member....a

complete stranger!

>

> Remember: the 3 S's: Safeties, Surrender, Service

>

> Many blessings and much love to you, Dan!

>

> Claudia

>

> Dan <mysticaldan wrote:

> Hi all,

> I am just so confused. I am not even sure what i want now. I have

this

> yearning inside, don't know whats it for. Its not for something

> physical and i cant say its spiritual. Its an hollowness, an

emptiness

> driving me towards something i don't know. Most of the times now i

am

> just so sad and also so frustrated. I cant meditate since the mind

> will not let me. I want to meditate since my heart wants me to. As

a

> result i cant do anything. Cant set up a routine cause that seems

to

> constrict me.

>

> Most of the times now i just want to tear myself apart cause this

is

> not me, this society, these rules, this is just not done. All this

> hatred, fear, around us for nothing. Such a small life we have and

we

> spend it thinking and acting it out of things of least importance.

>

> I have tried various ways to awaken Kundalini but doesn't seem to

> work. I have been a member here for sometime and a scatterfield was

> placed by chrism around me. I am not sure what that did or is

doing. I

> have tried many a times to do the safeties in the hope that

Kundalini

> will awaken but almost all the times i am unable to stick with

them.

> Work, Life, routine, family everything eats up into the limited

time i

> have.

>

> I am not even sure what i should be doing. Any suggestions are

welcome.

>

> Om

 

> Never miss a thing. Make your homepage.

>

>

[Guest guest]

I understand what you are trying to say and i agree. I think the K

does test us if we are even worthy of her which is why it can

lifetimes to stir her from sleep. I think i am expecting too much and

the best way is to just let go and surrender completely. Forget

everything and just practise my safeties and if K awakens then great

else just keep doing the safeties. At best K will awaken and at worst

it will prepare me for another lifetime.

 

I think its time i just kept everything aside and prepared myself for

the jump. I have done everything i am doing for many lifetimes and now

it doesnt even interest me. Life looks so mundane and still. Nature

looks so alive, when i compare it to my life, i almost feel dead.

 

Om

 

 

, " novalees "

<Novalees wrote:

>

> A small clarification, Dan. I didn't mean to stop the Safeties, just

> the mental anguish and gymnastics that we go through when things don't

> seem to be going right. Its our thinking and outlook that can

> frustrate us, so a little space from it can release it and make room

> for a more balanced one.

>

> I am totally in agreement that commitment to the Safeties should be a

> top priority. I had to struggle with making time for " me, " too. And

> its still a balancing act with all the other spiritual priorities in

> my life, and all the other demands on my time. If the Intention is

> strong, a way will be found. I think we all go through this to some

> extent. And maybe Shakti even tests us in this to see how serious we

> are about it all. Set your face in the direction you want to go and

> nothing will be able to stop you.

>

> Love, dhyana

>

>

>

>

> , " novalees "

> <Novalees@> wrote:

> >

> >

> > Dearest Dan, relax.

> >

> > What comes to me to tell you is to slow down and begin to be grateful

> > for all that comes to you. Let go of all that is frustrating you. Take

> > a deep breath and exhale all the effort, and striving, and desiring

> > that is pulling on you. Step out of it all for a while, until you feel

> > a balance. Sometimes we get so full of what we want that we can miss

> > what is already there. jmho. Love, dhyana

> >

> >

> > , " Dan "