Reintroducing myself

[Guest guest]

Hi everybody,

Ive been enjoying reading the posts lately and have started to get

active on it so I thought I should reintroduce myself and tell some

of my kundalini story.

My name is Ana, I'm 36, I live in New Zealand. I have an 18 month

old son and live with my partner Brent.

 

I dont know exactly when my kundalini journey started, but its

probably been the past 8 years. I dont have a definite event to

start from as I never had what you people call a full spinal sweep.

I guess I would have been having a slow style k awakening...and

thats okay with me!

 

I started seriously spiritually searching after a bout with

depression and burnout. I read everything i could get my hands on

to do with spirituality, personal growth etc.

I started meditating, surrounding myself with white light every

night in bed until i could feel the vibrations starting to lift. I

visualised the chakras filling with their various colours ascending

the spine a few times.I also started doing hatha- iyengar yoga for

well being, having no idea what it was leading to.

 

Pretty soon while meditating, or relaxing I stated to get kriyas, my

mouth started to contort into grimaces etc. I thought I was turning

into a chaneller. Then the jerks turned into large groups of

muscles clenching, spinal stiffening, The energy travelled around my

body,from moment to moment, filling different cells. I had lots of

sensation around the crown chakra, and the weird feeling of

something being -gently- in my ear.

 

Soon the muscle clenching turned into whole body clenching

accompanied by a fair amount of discomfort as i knew it was healing

my back problems. Extrememely forceful hand positions followed. I

found sheer physical force of the energy awesome and overwhelming

but knew intuitively it was beneficial. I still struggle to convey

to people how it feels to have this active in you, struggling with

the fear, exhiliration, awe, gratitude, every feeling you can

imagine.

 

In these early days I thought I was going to explode, and

uncomfortably- references to spontaneous combustion popped into my

head but I can laugh about these fears now.

Once the energy made its initial forays through my body it seemed to

come in a much more subtle way. My body now assumed yoga positions

in a way that was way more graceful and easier than any time when I

had tried to do it. It also progressed into operations on my aura,

using my hands. It now seems to be working somewhere between by

heart and my throat.

I think i must have had a lot of clearing to do as this is still

going on to this day. There are episodes of bliss and plenty of

other surprises happening frequently. Now I am trying to use it to

help or heal other people as well although i still have a lot to

learn on that path. The energy seems encouraging in that direction.

 

I am also using it to help me select good foods, healing tools,

activities for the day even! I've been using it to help me cook

really yummy meals, cooking is exciting now!

I am hoping in this way I am able to channel it into my life as much

as i can so that eventually it becomes second nature, and my life

becomes an expression of kundalini.

Already my life has altered immensely and it feels great! I too

have cleaned up my life, having spent a good many years drinking and

indulging in drugs. Kundalini is helping me to only put clean

things into my body, mind and spirit. some of my biggest struggles

are still around letting go of these old parts of myself and

sometimes I still cling to them. Many people around me dont find the

changes that have occurred within me convenient to them. I struggle

with loneliness sometimes as people dont really understand what it

is I am going through, including people who are knowledgeable about

spirituality.

Despite this, I look forward to the next surprise that the

kundalini has in store for me...

Ana

 

ps. please feel free to put this in the awakening stories as I'm not

sure I know how.

[Guest guest]

Thanks for sharing Ana, it's good to know a little something about

one another. I have forwarded Glen your story for the awakening

section of the website.

 

Sarita

 

, " anastojo "

<brent.ana wrote:

>

> Hi everybody,

> Ive been enjoying reading the posts lately and have started to get

> active on it so I thought I should reintroduce myself and tell some

> of my kundalini story.

> My name is Ana, I'm 36, I live in New Zealand. I have an 18 month

> old son and live with my partner Brent.

>

> I dont know exactly when my kundalini journey started, but its

> probably been the past 8 years. I dont have a definite event to

> start from as I never had what you people call a full spinal

sweep.

> I guess I would have been having a slow style k awakening...and

> thats okay with me!

>

> I started seriously spiritually searching after a bout with

> depression and burnout. I read everything i could get my hands on

> to do with spirituality, personal growth etc.

> I started meditating, surrounding myself with white light every

> night in bed until i could feel the vibrations starting to lift. I

> visualised the chakras filling with their various colours ascending

> the spine a few times.I also started doing hatha- iyengar yoga for

> well being, having no idea what it was leading to.

>

> Pretty soon while meditating, or relaxing I stated to get kriyas,

my

> mouth started to contort into grimaces etc. I thought I was turning

> into a chaneller. Then the jerks turned into large groups of

> muscles clenching, spinal stiffening, The energy travelled around

my

> body,from moment to moment, filling different cells. I had lots of

> sensation around the crown chakra, and the weird feeling of

> something being -gently- in my ear.

>

> Soon the muscle clenching turned into whole body clenching

> accompanied by a fair amount of discomfort as i knew it was healing

> my back problems. Extrememely forceful hand positions followed. I

> found sheer physical force of the energy awesome and overwhelming

> but knew intuitively it was beneficial. I still struggle to convey

> to people how it feels to have this active in you, struggling with

> the fear, exhiliration, awe, gratitude, every feeling you can

> imagine.

>

> In these early days I thought I was going to explode, and

> uncomfortably- references to spontaneous combustion popped into my

> head but I can laugh about these fears now.

> Once the energy made its initial forays through my body it seemed

to

> come in a much more subtle way. My body now assumed yoga positions

> in a way that was way more graceful and easier than any time when I

> had tried to do it. It also progressed into operations on my aura,

> using my hands. It now seems to be working somewhere between by

> heart and my throat.

> I think i must have had a lot of clearing to do as this is still

> going on to this day. There are episodes of bliss and plenty of

> other surprises happening frequently. Now I am trying to use it to

> help or heal other people as well although i still have a lot to

> learn on that path. The energy seems encouraging in that

direction.

>

> I am also using it to help me select good foods, healing tools,

> activities for the day even! I've been using it to help me cook

> really yummy meals, cooking is exciting now!

> I am hoping in this way I am able to channel it into my life as

much

> as i can so that eventually it becomes second nature, and my life

> becomes an expression of kundalini.

> Already my life has altered immensely and it feels great! I too

> have cleaned up my life, having spent a good many years drinking

and

> indulging in drugs. Kundalini is helping me to only put clean

> things into my body, mind and spirit. some of my biggest struggles

> are still around letting go of these old parts of myself and

> sometimes I still cling to them. Many people around me dont find

the

> changes that have occurred within me convenient to them. I

struggle

> with loneliness sometimes as people dont really understand what it

> is I am going through, including people who are knowledgeable about

> spirituality.

> Despite this, I look forward to the next surprise that the

> kundalini has in store for me...

> Ana

>

> ps. please feel free to put this in the awakening stories as I'm

not

> sure I know how.

>

[Guest guest]

Very nice, it's good to see that you are doing so well. I understand

the whole loneliness and letting go of the old part. I've just been

trying to understand that all that stage is is your everyday old

rhythm changing to the pulse of the rhythm of your heart. Knowing

this keeps my head up. It will take time and patience. I wish you

well.

 

much love,

drea

 

, " anastojo "

<brent.ana wrote:

>

> Hi everybody,

> Ive been enjoying reading the posts lately and have started to get

> active on it so I thought I should reintroduce myself and tell some

> of my kundalini story.

> My name is Ana, I'm 36, I live in New Zealand. I have an 18 month

> old son and live with my partner Brent.

>

> I dont know exactly when my kundalini journey started, but its

> probably been the past 8 years. I dont have a definite event to

> start from as I never had what you people call a full spinal

sweep.

> I guess I would have been having a slow style k awakening...and

> thats okay with me!

>

> I started seriously spiritually searching after a bout with

> depression and burnout. I read everything i could get my hands on

> to do with spirituality, personal growth etc.

> I started meditating, surrounding myself with white light every

> night in bed until i could feel the vibrations starting to lift. I

> visualised the chakras filling with their various colours ascending

> the spine a few times.I also started doing hatha- iyengar yoga for

> well being, having no idea what it was leading to.

>

> Pretty soon while meditating, or relaxing I stated to get kriyas,

my

> mouth started to contort into grimaces etc. I thought I was turning

> into a chaneller. Then the jerks turned into large groups of

> muscles clenching, spinal stiffening, The energy travelled around

my

> body,from moment to moment, filling different cells. I had lots of

> sensation around the crown chakra, and the weird feeling of

> something being -gently- in my ear.

>

> Soon the muscle clenching turned into whole body clenching

> accompanied by a fair amount of discomfort as i knew it was healing

> my back problems. Extrememely forceful hand positions followed. I

> found sheer physical force of the energy awesome and overwhelming

> but knew intuitively it was beneficial. I still struggle to convey

> to people how it feels to have this active in you, struggling with

> the fear, exhiliration, awe, gratitude, every feeling you can

> imagine.

>

> In these early days I thought I was going to explode, and

> uncomfortably- references to spontaneous combustion popped into my

> head but I can laugh about these fears now.

> Once the energy made its initial forays through my body it seemed

to

> come in a much more subtle way. My body now assumed yoga positions

> in a way that was way more graceful and easier than any time when I

> had tried to do it. It also progressed into operations on my aura,

> using my hands. It now seems to be working somewhere between by

> heart and my throat.

> I think i must have had a lot of clearing to do as this is still

> going on to this day. There are episodes of bliss and plenty of

> other surprises happening frequently. Now I am trying to use it to

> help or heal other people as well although i still have a lot to

> learn on that path. The energy seems encouraging in that

direction.

>

> I am also using it to help me select good foods, healing tools,

> activities for the day even! I've been using it to help me cook

> really yummy meals, cooking is exciting now!

> I am hoping in this way I am able to channel it into my life as

much

> as i can so that eventually it becomes second nature, and my life

> becomes an expression of kundalini.

> Already my life has altered immensely and it feels great! I too

> have cleaned up my life, having spent a good many years drinking

and

> indulging in drugs. Kundalini is helping me to only put clean

> things into my body, mind and spirit. some of my biggest struggles

> are still around letting go of these old parts of myself and

> sometimes I still cling to them. Many people around me dont find

the

> changes that have occurred within me convenient to them. I

struggle

> with loneliness sometimes as people dont really understand what it

> is I am going through, including people who are knowledgeable about

> spirituality.

> Despite this, I look forward to the next surprise that the

> kundalini has in store for me...

> Ana

>

> ps. please feel free to put this in the awakening stories as I'm

not

> sure I know how.

>