Guest guest Posted March 9, 2008 Report Share Posted March 9, 2008 Dear Family, I wanted to share a small part of a story with you , a process within my personal journey. Recently I have caused myself a lot of suffering. How did I do that I hear you ask? I was wanting to come to the USA so much to the seminar, I put so much importance on it in my mind, so much expactation, I prayed and tried and tried to manifest the money to come. NOTHING. NADA. Infact, I have had one of the worst times ever recently money-wise. I have not had a booking since 14th February and have been facing a very bleek time with my friends over here who are all also skint. It really is hard right now. For a moment I felt distress, why has Shakti foresaken me? Have I not done all that she asked? Maybe I am not worthy to go? All the questions and emotions of failure swam within my mind. I was suffering. Then, I received Eckhart Tolle's wonderful gift via dhyana in my mail box and I listened to it. It helped me understand the ego so much and how it makes us think that we need something to make us complete and that excitement and dissapointment are the same emotion stemming from ego. It's weird, the whole experience has not brought me physically closer to my friends in the USA but has indeed brought me closer to my own inner self and I feel blessed. I have gone through a considerable shift in conciousness recently and have found me inner self and can see my ego self so clearly. I know that I am always right where I need to be, no need to pine after something like a child. And so, I may have failed to get the money, I may not be coming to the USA, but I am transforming and learning at all times, no matter where I am. This is true peace. What an idiot I feel when I look back at all the suffering I was going through....hee hee. I won't be falling for that one again (I hope) or at least if I do I will catch myself at it much sooner :-)) Love and Peace elektra x x x _________ Rise to the challenge for Sport Relief with For Good http://uk.promotions./forgood/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 9, 2008 Report Share Posted March 9, 2008 wonderful to hear of your awareness awakening. I too need to listen to the audio's. Ego plays some very nasty parts in our lives, as well as offers vital lessons for us. I understand what you are talking about. Things will come about when they need to. Have faith and believe in yourself blessings sis. lisa ---- Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > Dear Family, > > I wanted to share a small part of a story with you , a > process within my personal journey. > > Recently I have caused myself a lot of suffering. > > How did I do that I hear you ask? > > I was wanting to come to the USA so much to the > seminar, I put so much importance on it in my mind, so > much expactation, I prayed and tried and tried to > manifest the money to come. NOTHING. > NADA. > > Infact, I have had one of the worst times ever > recently money-wise. I have not had a booking since > 14th February and have been facing a very bleek time > with my friends over here who are all also skint. > It really is hard right now. > > For a moment I felt distress, why has Shakti foresaken > me? > Have I not done all that she asked? Maybe I am not > worthy to go? > All the questions and emotions of failure swam within > my mind. > I was suffering. > > Then, I received Eckhart Tolle's wonderful gift via > dhyana in my mail box and I listened to it. > It helped me understand the ego so much and how it > makes us think that we need something to make us > complete and that excitement and dissapointment are > the same emotion stemming from ego. > > It's weird, the whole experience has not brought me > physically closer to my friends in the USA but has > indeed brought me closer to my own inner self and I > feel blessed. > I have gone through a considerable shift in > conciousness recently and have found me inner self and > can see my ego self so clearly. > > I know that I am always right where I need to be, no > need to pine after something like a child. > > And so, I may have failed to get the money, I may not > be coming to the USA, but I am transforming and > learning at all times, no matter where I am. > This is true peace. > > What an idiot I feel when I look back at all the > suffering I was going through....hee hee. I won't be > falling for that one again (I hope) or at least if I > do I will catch myself at it much sooner :-)) > > Love and Peace > elektra x x x > > > _________ > Rise to the challenge for Sport Relief with For Good > > http://uk.promotions./forgood/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 9, 2008 Report Share Posted March 9, 2008 Exciting, Elektra! I'm shifting,too. I love it! Love, dhyana , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > Dear Family, > > I wanted to share a small part of a story with you , a > process within my personal journey. > > Recently I have caused myself a lot of suffering. > > How did I do that I hear you ask? > > I was wanting to come to the USA so much to the > seminar, I put so much importance on it in my mind, so > much expactation, I prayed and tried and tried to > manifest the money to come. NOTHING. > NADA. > > Infact, I have had one of the worst times ever > recently money-wise. I have not had a booking since > 14th February and have been facing a very bleek time > with my friends over here who are all also skint. > It really is hard right now. > > For a moment I felt distress, why has Shakti foresaken > me? > Have I not done all that she asked? Maybe I am not > worthy to go? > All the questions and emotions of failure swam within > my mind. > I was suffering. > > Then, I received Eckhart Tolle's wonderful gift via > dhyana in my mail box and I listened to it. > It helped me understand the ego so much and how it > makes us think that we need something to make us > complete and that excitement and dissapointment are > the same emotion stemming from ego. > > It's weird, the whole experience has not brought me > physically closer to my friends in the USA but has > indeed brought me closer to my own inner self and I > feel blessed. > I have gone through a considerable shift in > conciousness recently and have found me inner self and > can see my ego self so clearly. > > I know that I am always right where I need to be, no > need to pine after something like a child. > > And so, I may have failed to get the money, I may not > be coming to the USA, but I am transforming and > learning at all times, no matter where I am. > This is true peace. > > What an idiot I feel when I look back at all the > suffering I was going through....hee hee. I won't be > falling for that one again (I hope) or at least if I > do I will catch myself at it much sooner :-)) > > Love and Peace > elektra x x x > > > _________ > Rise to the challenge for Sport Relief with For Good > > http://uk.promotions./forgood/ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 10, 2008 Report Share Posted March 10, 2008 Elektra, I know, I am reading the book also, it is wonderful isn't it? And such good timing, as I suppose it would be at any time! I really love that book! I wish I could go to the seminar too, but alas, there is no way I could come up with that kind of money. I am reading the part about abundance right now, and see that statement I just made? I was gonna delete it, but I left it to illustrate why I do not have the funds to go to the seminar! I have been lurking lately, but I am here, just feels less ego-ish to lurk. I am still praying and sending healing. Love you sister, Carol , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > Dear Family, > > I wanted to share a small part of a story with you , a > process within my personal journey. > > Recently I have caused myself a lot of suffering. > > How did I do that I hear you ask? > > I was wanting to come to the USA so much to the > seminar, I put so much importance on it in my mind, so > much expactation, I prayed and tried and tried to > manifest the money to come. NOTHING. > NADA. > > Infact, I have had one of the worst times ever > recently money-wise. I have not had a booking since > 14th February and have been facing a very bleek time > with my friends over here who are all also skint. > It really is hard right now. > > For a moment I felt distress, why has Shakti foresaken > me? > Have I not done all that she asked? Maybe I am not > worthy to go? > All the questions and emotions of failure swam within > my mind. > I was suffering. > > Then, I received Eckhart Tolle's wonderful gift via > dhyana in my mail box and I listened to it. > It helped me understand the ego so much and how it > makes us think that we need something to make us > complete and that excitement and dissapointment are > the same emotion stemming from ego. > > It's weird, the whole experience has not brought me > physically closer to my friends in the USA but has > indeed brought me closer to my own inner self and I > feel blessed. > I have gone through a considerable shift in > conciousness recently and have found me inner self and > can see my ego self so clearly. > > I know that I am always right where I need to be, no > need to pine after something like a child. > > And so, I may have failed to get the money, I may not > be coming to the USA, but I am transforming and > learning at all times, no matter where I am. > This is true peace. > > What an idiot I feel when I look back at all the > suffering I was going through....hee hee. I won't be > falling for that one again (I hope) or at least if I > do I will catch myself at it much sooner :-)) > > Love and Peace > elektra x x x > > > _________ > Rise to the challenge for Sport Relief with For Good > > http://uk.promotions./forgood/ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 10, 2008 Report Share Posted March 10, 2008 Elektra, as absolutely lovely as it would be to see you and give you a hug in the physical, we feel you and you are one with us in spirit! Like dhyana and you, I feel that reading about the ways ego can manipulate us is causing a shifting in my perception of not only myself but others as well. This is a very good read! Love you all and keep working with it!!! Valarie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 10, 2008 Report Share Posted March 10, 2008 Hi Elektra Everything that happens is auspicious. You will be at shaktipat in spirit in many ways, I am sending light, love and well wishes for changes to come forth. Often the greater the stress the greater the learning amd from what I have seen and everyone else in the group, you are a brilliant, shining being impacting so many lives. thank you and keep that shine blessings, love and peace. nick --- Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > Dear Family, > > I wanted to share a small part of a story with you , > a > process within my personal journey. > > Recently I have caused myself a lot of suffering. > > How did I do that I hear you ask? > > I was wanting to come to the USA so much to the > seminar, I put so much importance on it in my mind, > so > much expactation, I prayed and tried and tried to > manifest the money to come. NOTHING. > NADA. > > Infact, I have had one of the worst times ever > recently money-wise. I have not had a booking since > 14th February and have been facing a very bleek time > with my friends over here who are all also skint. > It really is hard right now. > > For a moment I felt distress, why has Shakti > foresaken > me? > Have I not done all that she asked? Maybe I am not > worthy to go? > All the questions and emotions of failure swam > within > my mind. > I was suffering. > > Then, I received Eckhart Tolle's wonderful gift via > dhyana in my mail box and I listened to it. > It helped me understand the ego so much and how it > makes us think that we need something to make us > complete and that excitement and dissapointment are > the same emotion stemming from ego. > > It's weird, the whole experience has not brought me > physically closer to my friends in the USA but has > indeed brought me closer to my own inner self and I > feel blessed. > I have gone through a considerable shift in > conciousness recently and have found me inner self > and > can see my ego self so clearly. > > I know that I am always right where I need to be, no > need to pine after something like a child. > > And so, I may have failed to get the money, I may > not > be coming to the USA, but I am transforming and > learning at all times, no matter where I am. > This is true peace. > > What an idiot I feel when I look back at all the > suffering I was going through....hee hee. I won't > be > falling for that one again (I hope) or at least if I > do I will catch myself at it much sooner :-)) > > Love and Peace > elektra x x x > > > > _________ > > Rise to the challenge for Sport Relief with > For Good > > http://uk.promotions./forgood/ > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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