Where Am I Now?

March 26, 2008

Over the last few of months, I have found myself in the most profound

places spiritually! So many things have happened to me spiritually,

at times it has been phenomenally overwhelming…and now `sigh' what is

being revealed to me through the Holy Spirit is out of this world

amazing and electrifying!

About 2 months ago, I suppose, I was roughhousing with my son on the

floor, my oldest Sam. I had him pinned, making it hard for him to get

up! Somehow, possibly, I suppose, I may have unknowingly let up the

pressure from him just enough for him to be able to thrust his hip

upward throwing me off guard causing me to loose balance and flip

over onto my head rolling down my spine with the back of head, neck

and spine taking on the weight of my body it landed flat on the

floor. As I was flipping out of control, I could hear and feel

cracking and popping from the base of my head, down my spine to about

midway down my back. I began suffering tremendous pain and when I

tried lifting my head up I couldn't, the pain was too intense. Not

knowing what to do I called to my husband to help and he himself was

unsure whether or not to try helping me stand in fear I may have

really hurt my back. We decided to see if he could pull me to my

feet. He was able to pull me up, but not without pain. Once I was on

my feet, I became very dizzy and faint. He helped me to the couch

where I stayed for a long time because I couldn't lift my head

without an intense pain shooting down my back.

Later that evening I began feeling a sense of sadness and loneliness

and I felt like I needed to cry my eyes out! I don't know why I was

feeling this way, because I had been having a wonderful day, matter

of fact I can't remember having any day in a long while that would

make me feel the way I was feeling at that moment.

I began feeling as if I needed space and separation from the group so

I sent an email letting him know that I wouldn't be posting

for a while, but would stay in touch with him to keep him up on how I

was doing. I told him I didn't know exactly how long it would be,

that it might even end as early as the next morning, but at the time

I needed to separate. He said he understood and told me if there was

anything he could do to help let him know… " thanks Chrism! "

That night I was lying outside on the ground, bawling like a baby!

Feeling sad and lonely and not being understood or wanted by anyone.

I began to cry out to God asking Him to be with me to let me know

what I needed to do and why I was feeling the way I did; I suppose

old issues coming out! When I say old, I truly mean old, because I

don't remember ever feeling that way. Anyway, this went on for quite

sometime and then I felt somewhat better, but still needed to be by

myself. My back was still hurting and it was still hard for me to

lift my head without causing pain in my back. The pain seemed to be

in the area of my spine between my shoulder blades behind my heart.

I began feeling what appeared to be fluid flowing out of my spine

where I was experiencing the pain and the fluid seemed to be flowing

into my heart. The fluid felt as if it were what I would describe

as `liquid emotions'. I could feel the gushing of the fluid and so I

emailed and he said I had unlocked an area of emotions that

had gone untouched by me. As I continued to surrender and let the

emotions flow, the pain moved up my back to the base of my neck.

After only a few days, I think like three or four, my back had healed

for the most part as far as the intense pain, less than a week fully

healed.

During the third day after the injury occurred I had another bout of

experiences. I started having unusual manifestations and once again

went to about them because I didn't understand why they were

happening or if they were real. assured me they were real and

they were signs that I was stepping into the areas of the Divine and

he welcomed me. I had been watching television and had literally

taken on the characteristics of the people. Two of the people were

suffering in real life from alcoholism. I was experiencing their

drunken state without the alcohol. Then I was calling out 4 of the

Arch Angels Michael, Uriel, Gabriel, and Raphael that were being

called on during a banishment ritual in a different television

program. I immediately felt their presence.

I continued to have other experiences. Then on the Thursday prior to

the seminar I had an extreme phenomenon occur that truly scared me. I

had made a post about it, as it began, but it intensified after I had

made the post. I had been experiencing a weeping coming from my solar

plexus that flowed to my heart up to my throat accompanied with

fluttering from my heart to throat, although at the time the emotions

were so strong I couldn't identify them because there were so many;

almost like a pot of stew. These feelings became so intense that I

couldn't handle them and I felt like I was having a panic attack. I

tried surrendering, but it didn't seem to help in any manner. I

finally called a friend of mine from the group and he was very

helpful in helping me deal with what I was experiencing, I also had

help from others on the group as well. Thank you to all who were

there for me. Anyway, I called to get his take on it and he

said that had I been able to let it flow I would have been able to

experience pure love. Well just for the record, I didn't pass the

test that time, but I have since. LOL! After that experience, the

sensation remained in my chest along with the burning warmth

sensations just below the top of my sternum. I later realized that

when I speak or write things from the heart this burning warmth fires

up and becomes very intense.

Anyway, the day before I was to leave to go to the seminar the full

experience from Thursday increased to a full magnitude. I went to

church that night and I prayed more about what I was experiencing.

The answer was I wasn't supposed to go to the seminar, not because

anything was wrong with it because be no means there wasn't, it was

for some, but not for me at that time. Christ had other plans for me.

Not knowing what they were at the time, I soon got my answer and

little by little, more continues to be revealed the plan for me. That

Saturday another little part of the answer was given while at a local

bookstore. I once again had the same experience I had had that

Thursday a week prior to the seminar and again that Wednesday prior

to my going to the seminar. Every time I picked up certain books I

would experience in it fullest form the experience. At that point, I

realized I had been given the gift of discernment and the gift of

knowing pure love.

That Sunday, Easter Sunday, my family and I attended the Sunrise

service at church and I was there with one of my dearest friends when

she and 9 others were baptized. I had gone up to her prior and given

her a great HUGE hug and she told me she could literally feel my love

penetrate right through her. I knew I was supposed to be there for

her to witness her rededication to Christ.

On Monday, my birthday, I had so many wish me a happy birthday, and

for those on this list who wished me a happy birthday, I really want

to thank you for it, and let you know that it was the best ever!

Anyway, one of my friends from church called me, while talking to me

she told me she could see great things happening to me through

Christ, that she could see a tremendous growth in me spiritually and

that I was making a difference in my family's life, my church's life,

and in the lives of the community. She said she could see Jesus

working through me.

I have learned so much about the purpose of fasting and prayer and

the power it holds; and that it isn't an option, it is a part of the

spiritual path. Well tonight, I got the same thing from the

congregation; Jesus Christ has revealed to me even more of what my

purpose is, of what I am to be learning.

Tonight at church, I brought to the congregation fasting. We all

agreed we needed to do a congregational fasting for those who are

able to participate and who want to participate. I also learned that

there are many who believe in the power given to us when empowered by

the Holy Spirit to heal. I also learned of recent healing at a chorus

practice. It was performed on our music director how literally had no

voice; two of our congregation members had laid their hands on her,

one person laid their hands on her throat and the other just on her

and she was prayed over. The next morning she had her full voice

back. Later after church, I was standing in the parking lot talking

to another friend and learned of other private healings and of her

own fasting with her husband outside of church. I know now that I am

at that church, my church for a reason; that over a year ago, God

knew my desire and passion to heal and my plea to find a church where

I could grow and He indeed answered my prayer giving me what I asked

for and more.

He has revealed so much to me and I am blessed by all He has given

me. I am learning to listen to what is inside me, to what I am being

directed to do, and what is best for me. Someone spoke out about me

during the class for my dedication to service and I saw how others

see me; they see me being filled, empowered, and lead by the Holy

Spirit through my service to others in the community. How they see me

verses how I see me and where I am in my growth. I refer to myself as

being in the early stages of my spiritual growth, yet others see me

far more advanced. I was very surprised to be spoken of in that

manner.

Therefore, I am honored and blessed to know that I am not only

talking the talk, but also walking the talk while being cradled in

the arms of God, as I grow more spiritual and intimate with Him.

Thank you to all who are walking this path with me. Thank you Chrism

for your guidance and your passion. God bless you all!

Love,

Katherine

March 26, 2008

Hi Katherine,

I cannot address the content of your message, I'll let smarter people

do that. But panic attacks I know something about. First, stand up

and really feel your feet, touch something solid too. You will

probably notice that your breathing is not regular, so bring it back

to an easy in and out. Then do something that engages your attention.

Soon you will forget to be panicked.

Peace,

Peter

, " Katherine "

<katsam19 wrote:

>

> Over the last few of months, I have found myself in the most profound

> places spiritually! So many things have happened to me spiritually,

> at times it has been phenomenally overwhelming…and now `sigh' what is

> being revealed to me through the Holy Spirit is out of this world

> amazing and electrifying!

>

> About 2 months ago, I suppose, I was roughhousing with my son on the

> floor, my oldest Sam. I had him pinned, making it hard for him to get

> up! Somehow, possibly, I suppose, I may have unknowingly let up the

> pressure from him just enough for him to be able to thrust his hip

> upward throwing me off guard causing me to loose balance and flip

> over onto my head rolling down my spine with the back of head, neck

> and spine taking on the weight of my body it landed flat on the

> floor. As I was flipping out of control, I could hear and feel

> cracking and popping from the base of my head, down my spine to about

> midway down my back. I began suffering tremendous pain and when I

> tried lifting my head up I couldn't, the pain was too intense. Not

> knowing what to do I called to my husband to help and he himself was

> unsure whether or not to try helping me stand in fear I may have

> really hurt my back. We decided to see if he could pull me to my

> feet. He was able to pull me up, but not without pain. Once I was on

> my feet, I became very dizzy and faint. He helped me to the couch

> where I stayed for a long time because I couldn't lift my head

> without an intense pain shooting down my back.

>

> Later that evening I began feeling a sense of sadness and loneliness

> and I felt like I needed to cry my eyes out! I don't know why I was

> feeling this way, because I had been having a wonderful day, matter

> of fact I can't remember having any day in a long while that would

> make me feel the way I was feeling at that moment.

>

> I began feeling as if I needed space and separation from the group so

> I sent an email letting him know that I wouldn't be posting

> for a while, but would stay in touch with him to keep him up on how I

> was doing. I told him I didn't know exactly how long it would be,

> that it might even end as early as the next morning, but at the time

> I needed to separate. He said he understood and told me if there was

> anything he could do to help let him know… " thanks Chrism! "

>

> That night I was lying outside on the ground, bawling like a baby!

> Feeling sad and lonely and not being understood or wanted by anyone.

> I began to cry out to God asking Him to be with me to let me know

> what I needed to do and why I was feeling the way I did; I suppose

> old issues coming out! When I say old, I truly mean old, because I

> don't remember ever feeling that way. Anyway, this went on for quite

> sometime and then I felt somewhat better, but still needed to be by

> myself. My back was still hurting and it was still hard for me to

> lift my head without causing pain in my back. The pain seemed to be

> in the area of my spine between my shoulder blades behind my heart.

>

> I began feeling what appeared to be fluid flowing out of my spine

> where I was experiencing the pain and the fluid seemed to be flowing

> into my heart. The fluid felt as if it were what I would describe

> as `liquid emotions'. I could feel the gushing of the fluid and so I

> emailed and he said I had unlocked an area of emotions that

> had gone untouched by me. As I continued to surrender and let the

> emotions flow, the pain moved up my back to the base of my neck.

> After only a few days, I think like three or four, my back had healed

> for the most part as far as the intense pain, less than a week fully

> healed.

>

> During the third day after the injury occurred I had another bout of

> experiences. I started having unusual manifestations and once again

> went to about them because I didn't understand why they were

> happening or if they were real. assured me they were real and

> they were signs that I was stepping into the areas of the Divine and

> he welcomed me. I had been watching television and had literally

> taken on the characteristics of the people. Two of the people were

> suffering in real life from alcoholism. I was experiencing their

> drunken state without the alcohol. Then I was calling out 4 of the

> Arch Angels Michael, Uriel, Gabriel, and Raphael that were being

> called on during a banishment ritual in a different television

> program. I immediately felt their presence.

>

> I continued to have other experiences. Then on the Thursday prior to

> the seminar I had an extreme phenomenon occur that truly scared me. I

> had made a post about it, as it began, but it intensified after I had

> made the post. I had been experiencing a weeping coming from my solar

> plexus that flowed to my heart up to my throat accompanied with

> fluttering from my heart to throat, although at the time the emotions

> were so strong I couldn't identify them because there were so many;

> almost like a pot of stew. These feelings became so intense that I

> couldn't handle them and I felt like I was having a panic attack. I

> tried surrendering, but it didn't seem to help in any manner. I

> finally called a friend of mine from the group and he was very

> helpful in helping me deal with what I was experiencing, I also had

> help from others on the group as well. Thank you to all who were

> there for me. Anyway, I called to get his take on it and he

> said that had I been able to let it flow I would have been able to

> experience pure love. Well just for the record, I didn't pass the

> test that time, but I have since. LOL! After that experience, the

> sensation remained in my chest along with the burning warmth

> sensations just below the top of my sternum. I later realized that

> when I speak or write things from the heart this burning warmth fires

> up and becomes very intense.

>

> Anyway, the day before I was to leave to go to the seminar the full

> experience from Thursday increased to a full magnitude. I went to

> church that night and I prayed more about what I was experiencing.

> The answer was I wasn't supposed to go to the seminar, not because

> anything was wrong with it because be no means there wasn't, it was

> for some, but not for me at that time. Christ had other plans for me.

> Not knowing what they were at the time, I soon got my answer and

> little by little, more continues to be revealed the plan for me. That

> Saturday another little part of the answer was given while at a local

> bookstore. I once again had the same experience I had had that

> Thursday a week prior to the seminar and again that Wednesday prior

> to my going to the seminar. Every time I picked up certain books I

> would experience in it fullest form the experience. At that point, I

> realized I had been given the gift of discernment and the gift of

> knowing pure love.

>

> That Sunday, Easter Sunday, my family and I attended the Sunrise

> service at church and I was there with one of my dearest friends when

> she and 9 others were baptized. I had gone up to her prior and given

> her a great HUGE hug and she told me she could literally feel my love

> penetrate right through her. I knew I was supposed to be there for

> her to witness her rededication to Christ.

>

> On Monday, my birthday, I had so many wish me a happy birthday, and

> for those on this list who wished me a happy birthday, I really want

> to thank you for it, and let you know that it was the best ever!

> Anyway, one of my friends from church called me, while talking to me

> she told me she could see great things happening to me through

> Christ, that she could see a tremendous growth in me spiritually and

> that I was making a difference in my family's life, my church's life,

> and in the lives of the community. She said she could see Jesus

> working through me.

>

> I have learned so much about the purpose of fasting and prayer and

> the power it holds; and that it isn't an option, it is a part of the

> spiritual path. Well tonight, I got the same thing from the

> congregation; Jesus Christ has revealed to me even more of what my

> purpose is, of what I am to be learning.

>

> Tonight at church, I brought to the congregation fasting. We all

> agreed we needed to do a congregational fasting for those who are

> able to participate and who want to participate. I also learned that

> there are many who believe in the power given to us when empowered by

> the Holy Spirit to heal. I also learned of recent healing at a chorus

> practice. It was performed on our music director how literally had no

> voice; two of our congregation members had laid their hands on her,

> one person laid their hands on her throat and the other just on her

> and she was prayed over. The next morning she had her full voice

> back. Later after church, I was standing in the parking lot talking

> to another friend and learned of other private healings and of her

> own fasting with her husband outside of church. I know now that I am

> at that church, my church for a reason; that over a year ago, God

> knew my desire and passion to heal and my plea to find a church where

> I could grow and He indeed answered my prayer giving me what I asked

> for and more.

>

> He has revealed so much to me and I am blessed by all He has given

> me. I am learning to listen to what is inside me, to what I am being

> directed to do, and what is best for me. Someone spoke out about me

> during the class for my dedication to service and I saw how others

> see me; they see me being filled, empowered, and lead by the Holy

> Spirit through my service to others in the community. How they see me

> verses how I see me and where I am in my growth. I refer to myself as

> being in the early stages of my spiritual growth, yet others see me

> far more advanced. I was very surprised to be spoken of in that

> manner.

>

> Therefore, I am honored and blessed to know that I am not only

> talking the talk, but also walking the talk while being cradled in

> the arms of God, as I grow more spiritual and intimate with Him.

> Thank you to all who are walking this path with me. Thank you Chrism

> for your guidance and your passion. God bless you all!

>

> Love,

> Katherine

>

March 27, 2008

Kat, you are what I would call " a mover and shaker " ,

you are not afraid to praise God and Jesus with all

your heart and this allows the love and will of the

divine to shine through with full force.

It's great that you have the confidence to spread your

wisdom and to make such a difference in each person

around you's life.

Sing it from the roof tops sister!

I want to come to your church.... Sounds truly

transformational.

You are an ongoing source of inspiration to us all,

love and hugs

elektra x x x

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March 27, 2008

I'm so happy for you Kat! It sounds like you are really following the

guidance you are receiving and blessing many along the way.

Hugs,

Sarita

, " Katherine "

<katsam19 wrote:

>

> Over the last few of months, I have found myself in the most profound

> places spiritually! So many things have happened to me spiritually,

> at times it has been phenomenally overwhelming…and now `sigh' what is

March 27, 2008

Thank you for sharing this, Katherine!! :-)

Let us hope not everyone's awakening is as painful as yours, Bless you!

Godspeed!

What television program was it you watched where they were performing

what I assume was the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram, btw?

Love,

Rich

, " Katherine "

<katsam19 wrote:

>

> Over the last few of months, I have found myself in the most profound

> places spiritually! So many things have happened to me spiritually,

> at times it has been phenomenally overwhelming…and now `sigh' what is

> being revealed to me through the Holy Spirit is out of this world

> amazing and electrifying!

[snip]

March 27, 2008

Katherine:

I am so happy for you in your found place of loving and healing. You are a

true gift from God. I am blessed to know you and to be on this journey with

you. Thank you for all of your support and love. You go gurl!!!

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March 27, 2008

Hello Katherine, I have missed you so very much this week, not having

much contact with you. I feel very priveleged to be your special

friend and triad partner. You have been a wonderful gift for me from

the very beginning here on the group. I love you sis, you are very,

very special to me. I feel our connection goes deep, maybe more than

this lifetime even. It has been a wonderful experience seeing how

your spirituality and K has flourished throughout this whole year and

how you are growing closer and closer to God. I have much love and

respect for you in my heart. It takes a strong person to go against

what others around think you should be doing. Following your inner

guidance is always the correct way, no matter what others think or

feel.

BTW, Sunday evening when I spoke with you on the phone I felt the

warmt coming from your heart and it did warm mine.

Love you always,

Linda

, " Katherine "

<katsam19 wrote:

>

> Over the last few of months, I have found myself in the most

profound

> places spiritually! So many things have happened to me spiritually,

> at times it has been phenomenally overwhelming…and now `sigh' what

is

> being revealed to me through the Holy Spirit is out of this world

> amazing and electrifying!

>

> About 2 months ago, I suppose, I was roughhousing with my son on

the

> floor, my oldest Sam. I had him pinned, making it hard for him to

get

> up! Somehow, possibly, I suppose, I may have unknowingly let up the

> pressure from him just enough for him to be able to thrust his hip

> upward throwing me off guard causing me to loose balance and flip

> over onto my head rolling down my spine with the back of head, neck

> and spine taking on the weight of my body it landed flat on the

> floor. As I was flipping out of control, I could hear and feel

> cracking and popping from the base of my head, down my spine to

about

> midway down my back. I began suffering tremendous pain and when I

> tried lifting my head up I couldn't, the pain was too intense. Not

> knowing what to do I called to my husband to help and he himself

was

> unsure whether or not to try helping me stand in fear I may have

> really hurt my back. We decided to see if he could pull me to my

> feet. He was able to pull me up, but not without pain. Once I was

on

> my feet, I became very dizzy and faint. He helped me to the couch

> where I stayed for a long time because I couldn't lift my head

> without an intense pain shooting down my back.

>

> Later that evening I began feeling a sense of sadness and

loneliness

> and I felt like I needed to cry my eyes out! I don't know why I was

> feeling this way, because I had been having a wonderful day, matter

> of fact I can't remember having any day in a long while that would

> make me feel the way I was feeling at that moment.

>

> I began feeling as if I needed space and separation from the group

so

> I sent an email letting him know that I wouldn't be posting

> for a while, but would stay in touch with him to keep him up on how

I

> was doing. I told him I didn't know exactly how long it would be,

> that it might even end as early as the next morning, but at the

time

> I needed to separate. He said he understood and told me if there

was

> anything he could do to help let him know… " thanks Chrism! "

>

> That night I was lying outside on the ground, bawling like a baby!

> Feeling sad and lonely and not being understood or wanted by

anyone.

> I began to cry out to God asking Him to be with me to let me know

> what I needed to do and why I was feeling the way I did; I suppose

> old issues coming out! When I say old, I truly mean old, because I

> don't remember ever feeling that way. Anyway, this went on for

quite

> sometime and then I felt somewhat better, but still needed to be by

> myself. My back was still hurting and it was still hard for me to

> lift my head without causing pain in my back. The pain seemed to be

> in the area of my spine between my shoulder blades behind my heart.

>

> I began feeling what appeared to be fluid flowing out of my spine

> where I was experiencing the pain and the fluid seemed to be

flowing

> into my heart. The fluid felt as if it were what I would describe

> as `liquid emotions'. I could feel the gushing of the fluid and so

I

> emailed and he said I had unlocked an area of emotions that

> had gone untouched by me. As I continued to surrender and let the

> emotions flow, the pain moved up my back to the base of my neck.

> After only a few days, I think like three or four, my back had

healed

> for the most part as far as the intense pain, less than a week

fully

> healed.

>

> During the third day after the injury occurred I had another bout

of

> experiences. I started having unusual manifestations and once again

> went to about them because I didn't understand why they were

> happening or if they were real. assured me they were real

and

> they were signs that I was stepping into the areas of the Divine

and

> he welcomed me. I had been watching television and had literally

> taken on the characteristics of the people. Two of the people were

> suffering in real life from alcoholism. I was experiencing their

> drunken state without the alcohol. Then I was calling out 4 of the

> Arch Angels Michael, Uriel, Gabriel, and Raphael that were being

> called on during a banishment ritual in a different television

> program. I immediately felt their presence.

>

> I continued to have other experiences. Then on the Thursday prior

to

> the seminar I had an extreme phenomenon occur that truly scared me.

I

> had made a post about it, as it began, but it intensified after I

had

> made the post. I had been experiencing a weeping coming from my

solar

> plexus that flowed to my heart up to my throat accompanied with

> fluttering from my heart to throat, although at the time the

emotions