What I've been experiencing this week---... -all

[Guest guest]

Thanks , I do hope my post will be a help and not scare anyone.

The way I see it now, it is our beliefs that have a big influence on

what we experience. To tell you the truth, I still had a thought

there embedded in my mind that all this K stuff just might not be of

God. LOL! You should have heard the stuff my ego mind was telling me

all week.

Even after what I experienced Saturday night with the feeling of

peace I recieved after praying to Jesus. (I actually prayed to

Jesus, not to God the Father in Jesus' name, which is the way I have

always believed it should be done. LOL!) I have found in desparate

situation I find myself praying directly to Jesus and he is always so

quick to reply when I do. Even after being blessed with that, all

day Sunday my ego mind faught tooth and nail with what was taking

place. It was telling me it was all a trickery of the mind, that it

all had to do with reality creation, that it was my imagination and

emotions causing it all. At one point Sunday I even considered

dropping out of all the groups and going back to being just

a " normal " christian. Just renounce it all and quit doing all this

enlightenment stuff. I stay away from the computer most of yesterday,

except to write a couple of short e-mails and put a puzzle together.

LOL! I figure I wasn't in the right frame of mind to be making any

kind of decision or say much to anyone. I pretty much stayed to

myself all day even though James was here. He keep asking me every

few minutes if I was OK. He always seems to know when something is up

with and Shakti always seems to do the big stuff when he is around.

Every Shaktipat he alway seems to feel and go through things that I

am experiencing, this time was no exception. I need to find a way to

tell him about all this. LOL! I have already spoken to both my

daughters about it, but it's hard to talk to him about these kinds of

things. *sigh*

 

Yes, it was lucky for me that Ben was able to stay up and chat half

the night and into the morning. Most days he goes to bed around 9 or

10. It was a really fun and interesting chat that took my mind of me.

We talked about UFO's and other stuff and some about Kundalini,too.

Ben has had a lot of interesting experiences and I am grateful he

shared them with me. Thanks again, Ben.

 

I really think I am pretty much over the big fear part. LOL!

Maybe! It hard to tell what your reactions are going to be about

things, until they happen. I do have a strong faith, that God will

always have someone there for me when I am in need. After all, Jesus

himself is only a breath away.

 

Love,

Linda

 

 

 

, " "

. wrote:

>

> How exciting Linda! You are experiencing such wonderful events. I

> am so happy for you and wish you a fearless continuance of Shakti

and

> her presence. Good you had Ben there as a support. Thank you for

> sharing it will make any happenings for me and others less scarey -

> it is good to know what is possible. Enjoy your new happenings.

>

> Love to you

>

>

>

>

>

> , " Linda "

> <crazycats711@> wrote:

> >

> > I decide I would share what I have been experiencing these past

few

> > days, it may be of help to someone.

> >

> > Since about Tuesday, my second chakra became very activated. I

> became

> > very weepy and other emotions. I began having the sensation that

> > happens when an orgasm is building, this was happening without

any

> > sexaul thoughts or desire, just happening on it's own. It is

> still

> > going on non-stop, but not so intense as it was all day

Saturday.

> On

> > top of that I was having a strange sensation going on within my

> > brain, which is still going on but not as intense as Sat. I have

> > also been experiencing little burst of joy exploding out from my

> > heart chakra, similar to the big explosion that happen several

> years

> > ago. I am thankful they are little, because I would not be able

to

> > withstand a lot of big explosions. They are very intense.

(Chrism,

> is

> > this bliss? or something else?)

> >

> > On Saturday when all this got very extremely instense, I began

> having

> > very physical sensations of movement inside my body. It reminded

> me

> > of what happened in the first Shaktipat where I had the warmt and

> > tingling moving from my feet up to the top of my head, but this

was

> > not warmt and tingling, it felt like something physical entered

> into

> > my body and was moving, twisting, and pulsating as it wraped

itself

> > and connected to every muscle fiber and cell of my body. Well! I

> got

> > a little bit in fear when my left brain began analyzing what was

> > going on. I thought maybe this isn't K but instead I am being

> > possessed by some entity. I felt like I was in an episode of

> > the " Invasion of the Body Snatchers " . I was so very thankful to

> see

> > Richard's post Sat. morning, it set my mind at ease somewhat,

since

> > he was expriencing something similar to me. I was also having

the

> > sensation of a stronge pressure going up my back. Actually, I

had

> > been having this for several months, even small sensation of

> > movements and pulsatings. Never questioned that it was anything

> but

> > K, but what was going up my back this time felt huge. The

closest

> > things I can describe it as, was that it felt like a baby inside

me

> > kicking and squirming, but instead of coming out the birth canal

it

> > was forcing it's way up my spine. There was some physical pain.

> >

> > After reading Richard's post my mind settled down and excepted it

> as

> > K, mostly. Then later that afternoon my computer finally allowed

> me

> > to watch that Jill Bolte Taylor stroke movie, then I begin

getting

> > into fear all over agian, thinking maybe I was having a stroke,

> with

> > the crazy stuff going on within my brain. What was happening with

> my

> > brain and is still going on, but not as intense, feels like my

> brain

> > is hook up to an electric light switch and some kid has

discovered

> it

> > and is there switching the light off and on, but not a light,

it's

> my

> > brain. ( Chrism, I am wondering if what I experienced on the

plane

> > where I felt like I was nothing for a second, was the beginning

of

> > this?)

> > I thank God for Ben. He stayed with me chating most of the

evening

> > and on into wee morning, while all that was going on. He saved

my

> > sanity, even though I still wasn't convinced that what was going

on

> > was all K. We both got too sleepy to hold our eyes open and

> > eventually gave it up and went to bed, but not before answering

an

> e-

> > mail from Bradly. I told Bradly about some of what was happening

> > with me and he e-mail me back with all these assurances and that

it

> > was all K. Thanks Bradly!

> >

> > I went on to bed still not fully convinced, though. As soon as

I

> > laid down and forced my self to relax, full body kriyas began and

> > some facial stuff. A first for me, before I have only experienced

> > kriyas in my legs. Well, the facial stuff sort of freaked me

> because

> > I knew that was a symptom of having a stroke and I had not

> > experienced that before. As I laid there forcing myself to relax

> and

> > surrendering to the kriyas, a peace flooded over me after saying

a

> > short little prayer asking Jesus to help me know if it was not

K.

> > At that moment it didn't matter to me if I lived or died or that

a

> > stroke was happening or not. I fell asleep soon after and woke

of

> > Sunday feeling things were back to being a sense of normal, even

> > though I am still experiencing all of it but not so intense.

Since

> I

> > didn't die or have a stroke I take it, that it was all K. right?

> > Would you think so, Chrism? or do you think I should be getting

> > myself to a doctor?

> >

> > That is my wild ride.

> >

> > Love

> > Linda

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Linda- all of your experineces help me and others. Thank you for sharing the

thoughts/feelings of fear and the questioning of what is happening. I know I

fall into this. I was raised Catholic and I pray to Jesus, Mary , Joseph - that

is what I was taught in school and it sticks. Nothing wrong with praying to

whoever- There are many observers watching and waiting to see what we do. And

like you I feel a kinship to Jesus -

so again I say - good going Linda- you are a shining example of how one works

thru all the fear and the ego- thank you

 

it is hard to absorb all this new K stuff when we are conditioned to believe

a certain way - and we often are taught to dismiss anything that is not

sanctioned by a " religious body " it is a way to keep us in the dark- K has been

around for man for always- we, the ones who are accepting K as a rightful gift

,are the ones who will help others receive and honor their gift.

 

 

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[Guest guest]

Thank you Linda and as bringing a spouse into where you are I

completely understand. Actually you have a much better chance than I

do of achieving that goal. And if you find a good way of doing this

please let me know. You're a good listener and your welcome.

 

What we talked about with the K is when the experiences that you have

described began with me. It is fortunate that people have this forum

to come to and ask questions. In 1971 there were no such things I knew

of and being alone in this I did have quite a struggle. But from our

conversations over the years I hope you can tell that I'm not a

complete blubbering idiot.

 

In the questioning of religious values I have perceived it as a

purging aspect or a redefining of EGO. Ego in its purity is something

I cannot see as something to avoid, as it is the consciousness of

being. We do have our moments with super inflated egos though. The

point is that I went through a lot of these questions and got a few

answers but with all the turmoil and confusion I wasn't sure if I were

to be an angle or devil. That's still open for debate according to my

wife.

 

In all the religious questioning I had and still the main resolve

would be that I have an understanding of " I Am " . Not the frilly hyped

ego " I Am " , but the unshakable kind that you would take to the cross.

I feel that a lot of these fears that some are facing is like a

purging process that will eliminate false ego issues.

[Guest guest]

Thanks for this post Ben. I was thinking along the same lines and this

is helping to confirm it. You're an angel in my book. ;-)

 

Sarita

 

>

> In all the religious questioning I had and still the main resolve

> would be that I have an understanding of " I Am " . Not the frilly hyped

> ego " I Am " , but the unshakable kind that you would take to the cross.

> I feel that a lot of these fears that some are facing is like a

> purging process that will eliminate false ego issues.

>

[Guest guest]

@@@@ But from our conversations over the years I hope you can tell

that I'm not a complete blubbering idiot.@@@@

 

Hehe! Ben, you did sound like a blubbering idiot to me when I first

met you. LOL! But I liked you and wanted to understand what you knew.

I remember on the WB forum reading your post over and over and over

again and could not make a lick of sense out of what you were saying.

LOL! Thanks for not brushing me aside as a hopeless case. And

thanks big time for pointing me in direction of the possiblity of

Kundalini. Your friendship through the years as meant a lot to me.

 

If I can figure out how to bring James into this with me I will be

sure to let you know. You probably have just as much of a chance as I

do of achieving that. Where there is faith, there is hope. We both

do have our spouses still with us even with all our craziness. That

is something in itself. I don't know about your spouse, but mine

keeps telling me he is an atheist.

 

Love

Linda

 

 

--- " ben_hangen "

<ben_hangen wrote:

>

> Thank you Linda and as bringing a spouse into where you are I

> completely understand. Actually you have a much better chance than I

> do of achieving that goal. And if you find a good way of doing this

> please let me know. You're a good listener and your welcome.

>

> What we talked about with the K is when the experiences that you

have

> described began with me. It is fortunate that people have this forum

> to come to and ask questions. In 1971 there were no such things I

knew

> of and being alone in this I did have quite a struggle. But from our

> conversations over the years I hope you can tell that I'm not a

> complete blubbering idiot.

>

> In the questioning of religious values I have perceived it as a

> purging aspect or a redefining of EGO. Ego in its purity is

something

> I cannot see as something to avoid, as it is the consciousness of

> being. We do have our moments with super inflated egos though. The

> point is that I went through a lot of these questions and got a few

> answers but with all the turmoil and confusion I wasn't sure if I

were

> to be an angle or devil. That's still open for debate according to

my

> wife.

>

> In all the religious questioning I had and still the main resolve

> would be that I have an understanding of " I Am " . Not the frilly

hyped

> ego " I Am " , but the unshakable kind that you would take to the

cross.

> I feel that a lot of these fears that some are facing is like a

> purging process that will eliminate false ego issues.

>