Been a while sense I visited( want your thoughts too.)

April 15, 2008

Don't know how many of you remember me, it has been a while sense I

visited, people come and go from here fast I don't expect to many lol.

Life hit me, been very busy not much time for forums/meditation etc.

Something did happen earlier this weekend. I would like all of your

thoughts =)

Here is the exact post, this is also posted on Ablazes myspace

group so you can check replies there too if you wish.

Topic: " Visit from K, a girl, her mother in the hospital, and a bit of

empathy? "

" So this morning was great I got to wake up natrualy and not hop out

of bed as usual.

While laying there I thought to myself I haven't had time to meditate

nor felt kundalini in a while of course me thinking that lights it up

and lets me feel it, I don't think I will EVER get used to that

feeling, especially at the heart on my spine.(for those of you who

don't know me I show very little emotion and do not care for others,

no empathy AT ALL. Kelly described me best in my reading lol, " I don't

know whether to be surprised or understanding of your nonchalant

personality in

your present life. :-) " )

Anyway it was nice to feel it again I layed there watching jimmy

neutron because I was to lazy to get up(watch nick at night when I go

to sleep). Finally get up, get ready for work and head out to subway!

I got there to see at about 3 am some faggot broke in stole 300

dollars and the tip jar. So one door was out of order and there was

still pieces of glass in some places even if some people had already

cleaned it up. I said hi to my manager and Alishya, ignored tim

because he's always an ass. Clocked in etc. Wash a few dishes and then

tons of people come in so from about 12:30(got there at 12:00) to 3 we

had a line full. Around 2 Alishya's mom came in and told her that she

had been stung by something and was having an alergic reaction and had

to go to the hospital. I told Alishya I would take her home, this girl

has only worked here for about 3-4 days, I do really like her

though....here is the odd part, for the first time in my life I felt

the pain of another. I heard this and my heart sank and I could feel

it. It was so damn weird, for anything I generally am not bothered by

people dieing....I just don't get it, maybe I am becoming a slight

empath -.- So for the next hour I felt like shit and that I wanted to

beat the fuck out of something to kill some stress.

We leave and head to Alishya's house, I did not realize her situation

was so bad. She just moved from a different state and her mom cannot

work so she has to pay the bills(won't get far at subway...) But she

lives in a horrible house. Of course I reassured her it would all be

OK. I honestly wish I could help her but I cannot. This house was

literally falling apart and was legally condemnable.

Thought I would share it was an interesting day and quiet odd for me.

Waiting for my friend to call me back so I can go to his house, his

dads putting break pads on my car -.-

Oh, and as I said many times before I don't get to meditate much

anymore but I still think a lot about it. I think that sense I got the

chance to learn about and experience many things about well,

everything. That sense I am still growing my chakras are slowly

straightening out without as much help just from me growing up. "

So how has the group been?

April 15, 2008

Hello Chris,

You will be changing in very big ways as you continue

your journey so don't get too stuck on one or more consistent

personality traits. Non-chalance gives way to love and love gives

way to vulnerabilities unforeseen as yet by you. These are great

gifts and can help you to understand what it is that is needed by

you at the moment and for the moments that are coming.

You are a good guy and your ability to help others and your

willingness to do so is quite admirable. So is your practicality. So

keep movin and keep your eyes open to what emotional accessibilities

want to come through you. Let them come and embrace them fully.

Compassion and helpfulness will create much harmony within you Chris

which can be amplified outside of yourself and into your

surroundings and into other people.

Nice to read you again my friend - blessings to you and Alishya and

her mom. - chrism

, " zappy3491 "

<zappy3491 wrote:

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> Don't know how many of you remember me,

April 15, 2008

Zappy love, I was thinking about you at the last

shaktipat actually, wondering where you had gone to.

Good to hear from you again, it's great that you're

feeling things.

Perhaps your solar plexus just activated slightly, I

feel others emotions through my tummy.

Hope all works out well for your friend,

Love Elektra x x x

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For Good helps you make a difference

http://uk.promotions./forgood/

April 16, 2008

I think thats what i needed to read...

Nice to see you again elektra =)

Yea, as I said life is a pain but you have to do it.

, Elektra Fire

<elektra.fire wrote:

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> Zappy love, I was thinking about you at the last

> shaktipat actually, wondering where you had gone to.

> Good to hear from you again, it's great that you're

> feeling things.

> Perhaps your solar plexus just activated slightly, I

> feel others emotions through my tummy.

>

> Hope all works out well for your friend,

> Love Elektra x x x

>

> _________

> For Good helps you make a difference

>

> http://uk.promotions./forgood/

>

April 16, 2008

Hiya Zappy...

I can't help you with your question, but I'm glad to see you're still " alive and

kicking " . 'was wondering where you had gotten to... Yep life moves on. I

suspect you'll get back into the meditation at some point though. Actually, you

may save time and effort if you do - life teaches you either way, but some paths

are quicker than others. But you have a better start than many - I hope you

find happiness in whatever you do.

Blessings to you and the group..

Paul

PS As for your nonchalant personality, I obviously don't know you so I'm not

entirely sure what you mean, but I did find that after I started having OBE's

and other spiritual experiences, I just didn't take the " death thing " as

seriously. It's hard to look at something as dreadful when you're trying to

accomplish the same thing (if temperarally) every night. :-)

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