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Hi Linda:

 

Gosh i really really relate to some of your journey. Where are

the spiritual directors to assist one through these spots I asked

many times! Thanks for sharing. Yes, this period was like having

my heart ripped out.

 

I've never totally reconciled with the church & don't expect i

will. After some time i started experiencing things from different

traditions. I didn't even know, at the time what these things

were or meant. I really had to be open minded, as you have mentioned.

 

I went on a private retreat. One day the experiences were

Christian, nest day they were of a different belief system of which

i knew nothing about. That was interesting At the time i didn't

have a clue what was going on.

 

But I am seeing a theme to it all kinda.

It's like i'm beginning to see my path and it crosses all

belief systems. And it's being repeated in many ways in many

traditions for me. By george that's it. Never saw that before

 

Thanks so much Linda & everyone

 

Moon

 

 

 

 

, " Linda "

<crazycats711 wrote:

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>

> I can totally identify with this, Moon. After a good fifteen year or

> so of having Christ and the Holy Spirit as my constant companion

> throughout my days and nights, I woke up one day to it seeming to be

> mostly all gone. It seemed I was on my own again, even the church I

> had attended was taken away and there was no guidance in finding

> another. I threw myself into working long hours creating a home

> business, until I got too sick to continue with that. LOL! All those

> years I thought I must have quenched the Spirit in some way and was

> being punished.

>

> That day in the park when I went there to grieve, that dude came up

> and told me I needed to be grateful for what I still had. At that

> point nothing I still had even mattered. Life had become meaningless,

> something I had to struggle through. I eventually threw myself into

> all that work so I would not have time to think about it. When I

> allowed myself to think about it, which wasn't often, my thoughts

> would tend to turn to Judas and my desire would be to do what he

> did. In 2005 things came to a head when even my family and my net

> family began turning against me. That day in August, would have been

> the last straw, if Shelby, my grandson had not been there that night.

> His love for me got me through and things began to turn around after

> that. It was not long after, that I had the K experience, where the

> electric sensation went up my back exploded into my heart. At that

> time I knew what happened was kundalini, but still did not know much

> about it. Kundalini became active in me in about 1999/2000 I think,

> when I began a meditation program to help with my health problems.

> When I began having the electric sensations with the OBEs and all I

> didn't have a clue what kundalini was and when I was told that it may

> be what was happening, from what I read on the net, I didn't want

> anything to do with that. Having the OBEs gave some meaning and

> purpose to my life again even though it was a struggle fitting it

> into my christian beliefs. I was only interested in the OBE part.

> LOL!

>

> Linda

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