Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 Welcome to the group! So glad to have you with us. Sarita , " punkinzlazy " <dwilliams25 wrote: > > hi everyone. i will try to keep this short but i don't think i can. > i have been through sooo much on the path that has brought me here. > please excuse any spelling mistakes. > i had never heard of kundalini until recently. i think it explains a > lot for me. i think i have been very intuitive every since i was a > child. i think it has helped and hurt me because i didn't " know " i > was intuitive or i ignored it to try to keep my life together. as a > young person i latterly ran with my emotions. lots of trouble. at 18 > i married & had a child. after a few decent years with my husband it > went down hill. i started going to church about 10 yrs ago. i really > wanted to know god. i wanted to change my life. it was a small > church. bad vibes were going around and a good friend hurt me so i > quit going. my marriage and my life went down hill. i became very > disillusioned and depressed for about 4 years. i even went to a > urologist i had so many symptoms. i began pulling myself out of this > by exercising, eating good, trying to be positive and working on my > marriage. nothing i did helped my marriage. he is very narcissistic. > the biggest blow of my life came last june when i found out my of > husband 22 yrs had been cheating for at least 4 yrs. i had somewhat > of a break down. i was so traumatized that all i wanted to do was go > to counseling. we went to see the man who was the pastor of the > church i had went to. he is also a 20 years practicing > psychoanalysis. very spiritual, very kind, very supportive, very > healing. we never discussed it but i feel sure he knows something > about all this. he saw us separately for 5 months. i had a head ache > for 3 months straight nonstop. i found out much more about my > husband during this time from outside sources. to much to go into. i > came to understand much about myself. but in the mean time i cried > out to god literally and in my dreams so many times to help he. i > found the strength to tell my husband that i had forgiven him but > thing were not as they used to be and i wanted to separate in > december 2007. at that time and since then i have realized much more > about myself and that much of the toxic feeling and emotions i had > experience over the years was everything i was picking up from my > husband. i have experienced many symptoms over the years but a veil > has been lifted. i KNOW that the holy spirit and kundalini is > working in me. i am excited about my journey now. i believe every > thing happens for a reason and it happens " when " it should happen. I > see signs of this every day. i had just started meditating shortly > before finding this group. i had already been practicing many of the > safeties with out even knowing it. i hardly ever watch tv or radio > except christian things now (and i intuitively know when to tune > some that out too). i drink water all day long. ive forgiven many > people including myself. i am forming an inner joy that i don't know > i have ever felt. i trust i am going where i need to go. i have > always love to help people. actually too much. in the past i have > absorbed to much negative emotion for other people so i am learning > not to get to attached to situations. try to help and let it be as > it should. i am so grateful to be experiencing life as it should be. > i pray for guidance. i am moving out into the world at my own pace. > i eat well. > The doctor went a long way to helping me understand my dreams. i try > to journal them now. most nights i dream all night long. i don't > mind it though. > i lurked for a while and thought if i posted it would be to long of > a post but any way here it is. sorry its so long. i did put my > picture in the summer albums. i am thankful to be able to have more > knowledge about what is going on. and advice or information will be > greatly appreciated. i have done a lot of reading on chism's site. > thanks to everyone > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 thanks for the welcome sarita. debby - " Sarita " <sarita1969 Monday, April 28, 2008 1:38 PM Re: new-saying hi-probably will be long Welcome to the group! So glad to have you with us. Sarita , " punkinzlazy " <dwilliams25 wrote: > > hi everyone. i will try to keep this short but i don't think i can. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 Welcome, Debby! Thanks for introducing yourself. Looking forward to getting to know you. Blessings & love, Claudia , " punkinzlazy " <dwilliams25 wrote: > > hi everyone. i will try to keep this short but i don't think i can. > i have been through sooo much on the path that has brought me here. > please excuse any spelling mistakes. > i had never heard of kundalini until recently. i think it explains a > lot for me. i think i have been very intuitive every since i was a > child. i think it has helped and hurt me because i didn't " know " i > was intuitive or i ignored it to try to keep my life together. as a > young person i latterly ran with my emotions. lots of trouble. at 18 > i married & had a child. after a few decent years with my husband it > went down hill. i started going to church about 10 yrs ago. i really > wanted to know god. i wanted to change my life. it was a small > church. bad vibes were going around and a good friend hurt me so i > quit going. my marriage and my life went down hill. i became very > disillusioned and depressed for about 4 years. i even went to a > urologist i had so many symptoms. i began pulling myself out of this > by exercising, eating good, trying to be positive and working on my > marriage. nothing i did helped my marriage. he is very narcissistic. > the biggest blow of my life came last june when i found out my of > husband 22 yrs had been cheating for at least 4 yrs. i had somewhat > of a break down. i was so traumatized that all i wanted to do was go > to counseling. we went to see the man who was the pastor of the > church i had went to. he is also a 20 years practicing > psychoanalysis. very spiritual, very kind, very supportive, very > healing. we never discussed it but i feel sure he knows something > about all this. he saw us separately for 5 months. i had a head ache > for 3 months straight nonstop. i found out much more about my > husband during this time from outside sources. to much to go into. i > came to understand much about myself. but in the mean time i cried > out to god literally and in my dreams so many times to help he. i > found the strength to tell my husband that i had forgiven him but > thing were not as they used to be and i wanted to separate in > december 2007. at that time and since then i have realized much more > about myself and that much of the toxic feeling and emotions i had > experience over the years was everything i was picking up from my > husband. i have experienced many symptoms over the years but a veil > has been lifted. i KNOW that the holy spirit and kundalini is > working in me. i am excited about my journey now. i believe every > thing happens for a reason and it happens " when " it should happen. I > see signs of this every day. i had just started meditating shortly > before finding this group. i had already been practicing many of the > safeties with out even knowing it. i hardly ever watch tv or radio > except christian things now (and i intuitively know when to tune > some that out too). i drink water all day long. ive forgiven many > people including myself. i am forming an inner joy that i don't know > i have ever felt. i trust i am going where i need to go. i have > always love to help people. actually too much. in the past i have > absorbed to much negative emotion for other people so i am learning > not to get to attached to situations. try to help and let it be as > it should. i am so grateful to be experiencing life as it should be. > i pray for guidance. i am moving out into the world at my own pace. > i eat well. > The doctor went a long way to helping me understand my dreams. i try > to journal them now. most nights i dream all night long. i don't > mind it though. > i lurked for a while and thought if i posted it would be to long of > a post but any way here it is. sorry its so long. i did put my > picture in the summer albums. i am thankful to be able to have more > knowledge about what is going on. and advice or information will be > greatly appreciated. i have done a lot of reading on chism's site. > thanks to everyone > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 Welcome, Debby! Thanks for introducing yourself. Looking forward to getting to know you. Blessings & love, Claudia , " punkinzlazy " <dwilliams25 wrote: > > hi everyone. i will try to keep this short but i don't think i can. > i have been through sooo much on the path that has brought me here. > please excuse any spelling mistakes. > i had never heard of kundalini until recently. i think it explains a > lot for me. i think i have been very intuitive every since i was a > child. i think it has helped and hurt me because i didn't " know " i > was intuitive or i ignored it to try to keep my life together. as a > young person i latterly ran with my emotions. lots of trouble. at 18 > i married & had a child. after a few decent years with my husband it > went down hill. i started going to church about 10 yrs ago. i really > wanted to know god. i wanted to change my life. it was a small > church. bad vibes were going around and a good friend hurt me so i > quit going. my marriage and my life went down hill. i became very > disillusioned and depressed for about 4 years. i even went to a > urologist i had so many symptoms. i began pulling myself out of this > by exercising, eating good, trying to be positive and working on my > marriage. nothing i did helped my marriage. he is very narcissistic. > the biggest blow of my life came last june when i found out my of > husband 22 yrs had been cheating for at least 4 yrs. i had somewhat > of a break down. i was so traumatized that all i wanted to do was go > to counseling. we went to see the man who was the pastor of the > church i had went to. he is also a 20 years practicing > psychoanalysis. very spiritual, very kind, very supportive, very > healing. we never discussed it but i feel sure he knows something > about all this. he saw us separately for 5 months. i had a head ache > for 3 months straight nonstop. i found out much more about my > husband during this time from outside sources. to much to go into. i > came to understand much about myself. but in the mean time i cried > out to god literally and in my dreams so many times to help he. i > found the strength to tell my husband that i had forgiven him but > thing were not as they used to be and i wanted to separate in > december 2007. at that time and since then i have realized much more > about myself and that much of the toxic feeling and emotions i had > experience over the years was everything i was picking up from my > husband. i have experienced many symptoms over the years but a veil > has been lifted. i KNOW that the holy spirit and kundalini is > working in me. i am excited about my journey now. i believe every > thing happens for a reason and it happens " when " it should happen. I > see signs of this every day. i had just started meditating shortly > before finding this group. i had already been practicing many of the > safeties with out even knowing it. i hardly ever watch tv or radio > except christian things now (and i intuitively know when to tune > some that out too). i drink water all day long. ive forgiven many > people including myself. i am forming an inner joy that i don't know > i have ever felt. i trust i am going where i need to go. i have > always love to help people. actually too much. in the past i have > absorbed to much negative emotion for other people so i am learning > not to get to attached to situations. try to help and let it be as > it should. i am so grateful to be experiencing life as it should be. > i pray for guidance. i am moving out into the world at my own pace. > i eat well. > The doctor went a long way to helping me understand my dreams. i try > to journal them now. most nights i dream all night long. i don't > mind it though. > i lurked for a while and thought if i posted it would be to long of > a post but any way here it is. sorry its so long. i did put my > picture in the summer albums. i am thankful to be able to have more > knowledge about what is going on. and advice or information will be > greatly appreciated. i have done a lot of reading on chism's site. > thanks to everyone > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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