Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 OK i know that i am becoming a pain, i do apologise for this. I am starting to become a real believer and that is a step in some direction for me. Dont get me wrong, i still wish it would just all go away, I think to myself, nooo this is just my mind, because i believe its happening to me, but geeze the heat, the shakes. I asked the energy to stop yesterday, but it doesnt seem to be stopping i dont think. I was nice about it and as sincere as one can be. I am a breastfeeding mother, this isnt bad for my baby is it? Also I am fearful as i get fears that i will loose control and hurt my family because things dont feel so real around me right now? Is this normal? Maybe part of my ocd, so i try to imagine committing this act so that i can make myself feel bad enough toknow i dont really want to do such a thing. I know this makes it worse and i suffer greatly. I am afraid to go outside I cant function properly and it takes mental effort to function and go outside but i am afraid of going outside. I guess i shyed away from ppl most of my life and now im facing those issues big time. Recently I painted an image of the devil figure i feard so much and it felt good to do that also painted the fear of being alone and fear of going crzy. Is this ok? Although atm I stopped painting, I want to calm down. thankyou so much for listening, I know you all just want to help me. I go from belief to dis belief. This is like a miracle for me in a way. It is scarey. A miracle in that, these things dont happen to me. its like " omg, you mean the heavens heard my prayers? " Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 You are not a pain Sylvia.Maybe you can tell the energy to slow down instead of stopping altogether.I don't think breastfeeding now is bad for your baby but maybe chrism knows better since I don't know anyone who did it while going through an awakening.It's very important to think good positive thoughts and pray to god if that's what it takes to make you calm so you will not be afraid.Ask me how many times I was sure I was going crazy,lol ! Love,Nicole Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70 wrote: > > OK i know that i am becoming a pain, i do apologise for this. I am > starting to become a real believer and that is a step in some > direction for me. Dont get me wrong, i still wish it would just all > go away, I think to myself, nooo this is just my mind, because i > believe its happening to me, but geeze the heat, the shakes. I asked > the energy to stop yesterday, but it doesnt seem to be stopping i > dont think. I was nice about it and as sincere as one can be. I am a > breastfeeding mother, this isnt bad for my baby is it? Also I am > fearful as i get fears that i will loose control and hurt my family > because things dont feel so real around me right now? Is this > normal? Maybe part of my ocd, so i try to imagine committing this > act so that i can make myself feel bad enough toknow i dont really > want to do such a thing. I know this makes it worse and i suffer > greatly. I am afraid to go outside I cant function properly and it > takes mental effort to function and go outside but i am afraid of > going outside. I guess i shyed away from ppl most of my life and now > im facing those issues big time. Recently I painted an image of the > devil figure i feard so much and it felt good to do that also painted > the fear of being alone and fear of going crzy. Is this ok? Although > atm I stopped painting, I want to calm down. > > > thankyou so much for listening, I know you all just want to help me. > I go from belief to dis belief. This is like a miracle for me in a > way. It is scarey. A miracle in that, these things dont happen to me. > its like " omg, you mean the heavens heard my prayers? " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 No worries about the breast feeding. It will be fine for baby. Also no worries about expressing or feeling the dark shadowy areas that are coming up for balance. Just make sure you realize that this is " why " they are coming up. We all have them and we all make the choice not to act on them. This is continuous. Your shadows and fears can be validated for their existance and the service that they do. Such as allowing us to be cautious or angry or careful or vicious if we must be. These are survival traits and can come from the first chakra as it is stimulated by the Kundalini. Doesnt mean you are becoming Satanic or a devil worshipper or anything like that it means that this aspect of your human survival expression is coming up for validation not for expressing against those you love or mere strangers. These areas of our being need to be given conscious justification or validation for doing what they do. They work for us and it is only the ego and its fears that twist them into something else. So no worries and keep honoring these aspects as much as is needed. Continue to control yourself with regards to acting out with any of these expressions. They are like bullets in a gun and are only used when absoluteluy needed. But you can still validate them without using them. Remember that Kunda;lini is an intelligent force and it knows you better than you know you or your partner knows you and it has your best interests as part of its agenda. An agenda that you do not yet know about or feel but that will slowly and eventually allow itself to be known by you. No accident you are here and you have this happening so do your best and dont worry about being a pain. We all get chances to be a pain so you are not alone! 0- blessings - chrism , " ntaroiu " <lsirca wrote: > > You are not a pain Sylvia. Love,Nicole > > Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- > 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70@> wrote: > > > > OK i know that i am becoming a pain, i do apologise for this. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 lol how many times, ohhh and what was it that made you feel ur going crzy, what part of it, what was happening? , " ntaroiu " <lsirca wrote: > > You are not a pain Sylvia.Maybe you can tell the energy to slow > down instead of stopping altogether.I don't think breastfeeding now > is bad for your baby but maybe chrism knows better since I don't know > anyone who did it while going through an awakening.It's very > important to think good positive thoughts and pray to god if that's > what it takes to make you calm so you will not be afraid.Ask me how > many times I was sure I was going crazy,lol ! > > Love,Nicole > > Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- > 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70@> wrote: > > > > OK i know that i am becoming a pain, i do apologise for this. I am > > starting to become a real believer and that is a step in some > > direction for me. Dont get me wrong, i still wish it would just all > > go away, I think to myself, nooo this is just my mind, because i > > believe its happening to me, but geeze the heat, the shakes. I > asked > > the energy to stop yesterday, but it doesnt seem to be stopping i > > dont think. I was nice about it and as sincere as one can be. I am > a > > breastfeeding mother, this isnt bad for my baby is it? Also I am > > fearful as i get fears that i will loose control and hurt my family > > because things dont feel so real around me right now? Is this > > normal? Maybe part of my ocd, so i try to imagine committing this > > act so that i can make myself feel bad enough toknow i dont really > > want to do such a thing. I know this makes it worse and i suffer > > greatly. I am afraid to go outside I cant function properly and it > > takes mental effort to function and go outside but i am afraid of > > going outside. I guess i shyed away from ppl most of my life and > now > > im facing those issues big time. Recently I painted an image of the > > devil figure i feard so much and it felt good to do that also > painted > > the fear of being alone and fear of going crzy. Is this ok? > Although > > atm I stopped painting, I want to calm down. > > > > > > thankyou so much for listening, I know you all just want to help > me. > > I go from belief to dis belief. This is like a miracle for me in a > > way. It is scarey. A miracle in that, these things dont happen to > me. > > its like " omg, you mean the heavens heard my prayers? " > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 I am feeling very down atm, my partner is saying tome that i am obsessed with all this and it is all i can talk about now. We cant have a normal conversation he says. How do i get on with normal life and just not obsess here? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 Its new so of course it will occupy your mind. Live your life as you normally do and enjoy the changes that the Kundalini can bring. Watch for them without having an expectation of how they come or what they are. Live your life and raise your kids and perhaps lower the volume of discussing it with your partner. For those not experiencing Kundalini cannot understand how it can be so exciting and dramatic. Take comfort that indeed prayers have been answered. - a thought - Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70 wrote: > > I am feeling very down atm, my partner is saying tome that i am > obsessed with all this and it is all i can talk about now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 I am not sure chrism, as i am not feeling excited about talking about it all the time, I feel like its my ocd nature, as i cant help myself and im feeling depressed and anxious over it. , " chrism " <> wrote: > > Its new so of course it will occupy your mind. Live your life as you > normally do and enjoy the changes that the Kundalini can bring. Watch > for them without having an expectation of how they come or what they > are. Live your life and raise your kids and perhaps lower the volume > of discussing it with your partner. For those not experiencing > Kundalini cannot understand how it can be so exciting and dramatic. > Take comfort that indeed prayers have been answered. - a thought - > > > Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- > 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70@> wrote: > > > > I am feeling very down atm, my partner is saying tome that i am > > obsessed with all this and it is all i can talk about now. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 This may seem strange but try to find on your spine where it feels hot and ask that heat source to help you in your inner discipline. This would be the Shakti which is the feminine aspect of Kundalini. Try this at least six times at different times with spaces between the asking being at least three hours. - c Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70 wrote: > > I am not sure chrism, as i am not feeling excited about talking about > it all the time, I feel like its my ocd nature, as i cant help myself > and im feeling depressed and anxious over it. > > > , " chrism " > <@> wrote: > > > > Its new so of course it will occupy your mind. Live your life as you > > normally do and enjoy the changes that the Kundalini can bring. Watch > > for them without having an expectation of how they come or what they > > are. Live your life and raise your kids and perhaps lower the volume > > of discussing it with your partner. For those not experiencing > > Kundalini cannot understand how it can be so exciting and dramatic. > > Take comfort that indeed prayers have been answered. - a thought - > > > > > > Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- > > 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70@> wrote: > > > > > > I am feeling very down atm, my partner is saying tome that i am > > > obsessed with all this and it is all i can talk about now. > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 I think i am so anxious and worked up because i really dont understand this. Please tell me, what happens when symptoms settle down? Do you always see things, do they go away? i mean like stop being so vivid and prominent. I need phone support and support in person and i dont know where to find it. , " chrism " <> wrote: > > This may seem strange but try to find on your spine where it feels > hot and ask that heat source to help you in your inner discipline. > This would be the Shakti which is the feminine aspect of Kundalini. > Try this at least six times at different times with spaces between > the asking being at least three hours. - c > > > > Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- > 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70@> wrote: > > > > I am not sure chrism, as i am not feeling excited about talking > about > > it all the time, I feel like its my ocd nature, as i cant help > myself > > and im feeling depressed and anxious over it. > > > > > > , " chrism " > > <@> wrote: > > > > > > Its new so of course it will occupy your mind. Live your life as > you > > > normally do and enjoy the changes that the Kundalini can bring. > Watch > > > for them without having an expectation of how they come or what > they > > > are. Live your life and raise your kids and perhaps lower the > volume > > > of discussing it with your partner. For those not experiencing > > > Kundalini cannot understand how it can be so exciting and > dramatic. > > > Take comfort that indeed prayers have been answered. - a > thought - > > > > > > > > > Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- > > > 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70@> wrote: > > > > > > > > I am feeling very down atm, my partner is saying tome that i > am > > > > obsessed with all this and it is all i can talk about now. > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 -Also is it ok for me to just go of the net for a while and just live my life i find talking on here is panicking me more. I want to get on with things, i am feeling again like i dont want this, sorry everyone I dont want to be seeing spirit continuously either. Is this similar to being a medium coz that i can handle -- In , " chrism " <> wrote: > > This may seem strange but try to find on your spine where it feels > hot and ask that heat source to help you in your inner discipline. > This would be the Shakti which is the feminine aspect of Kundalini. > Try this at least six times at different times with spaces between > the asking being at least three hours. - c > > > > Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- > 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70@> wrote: > > > > I am not sure chrism, as i am not feeling excited about talking > about > > it all the time, I feel like its my ocd nature, as i cant help > myself > > and im feeling depressed and anxious over it. > > > > > > , " chrism " > > <@> wrote: > > > > > > Its new so of course it will occupy your mind. Live your life as > you > > > normally do and enjoy the changes that the Kundalini can bring. > Watch > > > for them without having an expectation of how they come or what > they > > > are. Live your life and raise your kids and perhaps lower the > volume > > > of discussing it with your partner. For those not experiencing > > > Kundalini cannot understand how it can be so exciting and > dramatic. > > > Take comfort that indeed prayers have been answered. - a > thought - > > > > > > > > > Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- > > > 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70@> wrote: > > > > > > > > I am feeling very down atm, my partner is saying tome that i > am > > > > obsessed with all this and it is all i can talk about now. > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 29, 2008 Report Share Posted April 29, 2008 Little bites Sylvia take small steps and dont worry about the loss of symptoms until that occurs. - c Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70 wrote: > > I think i am so anxious and worked up because i really dont > understand this. Please tell me, what happens when symptoms settle > down? Do you always see things, do they go away? i mean like stop > being so vivid and prominent. I need phone support and support in > person and i dont know where to find it. > > > , " chrism " > <@> wrote: > > > > This may seem strange but try to find on your spine where it feels > > hot and ask that heat source to help you in your inner discipline. > > This would be the Shakti which is the feminine aspect of Kundalini. > > Try this at least six times at different times with spaces between > > the asking being at least three hours. - c > > > > > > > > Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- > > 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70@> wrote: > > > > > > I am not sure chrism, as i am not feeling excited about talking > > about > > > it all the time, I feel like its my ocd nature, as i cant help > > myself > > > and im feeling depressed and anxious over it. > > > > > > > > > , " chrism " > > > <@> wrote: > > > > > > > > Its new so of course it will occupy your mind. Live your life > as > > you > > > > normally do and enjoy the changes that the Kundalini can bring. > > Watch > > > > for them without having an expectation of how they come or what > > they > > > > are. Live your life and raise your kids and perhaps lower the > > volume > > > > of discussing it with your partner. For those not experiencing > > > > Kundalini cannot understand how it can be so exciting and > > dramatic. > > > > Take comfort that indeed prayers have been answered. - a > > thought - > > > > > > > > > > > > Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- > > > > 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70@> wrote: > > > > > > > > > > I am feeling very down atm, my partner is saying tome that i > > am > > > > > obsessed with all this and it is all i can talk about now. > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 30, 2008 Report Share Posted April 30, 2008 Hi Sylvia, I am still breastfeeding while having an awakening, I wondered what sort of an effect it would have on my son as well. I found that he seemed to really enjoy the energy. While i was having some blissful episodes he was definitely enjoying himself you could tell just by looking at him. Dont underestimate them, I've had a couple of experiences to show me just how strong they are, probably stronger than us! Sometimes I do ask however that any processing of energy that I do does not affect those around me and it never seems to. I do have a suggestion with regard to the anxiety that worked a treat for me. At a couple of stages in my awakening, while breastfeeding I was experiencing very bad anxiety for no apparent reason. I had a dream where I heard the word 'lecithin'I took heed and bought some. Its just a supplement/ food its really easy to take and cheap too. i got it from the supermarket. Later I looked it up, it contains inositol, a nutrient which plays an important role in regulating anxiety. I also found that a lot of it is excreted in breastmilk. I realised as I read this that the anxiety had just gone immediately after I had taken the lecithin! I couldnt believe it was something so simple, but it is easy to forget that when your a busy mum, as well as breastfeeding you can just get run down and fail to get the nutrients you need from your diet. I've also had some good results from homeopathy with regard to symptoms. At one stage I was having what felt like panic attacks . I was able to dowse myself an excellent remedy. I used a pendulum. The energy itself is the best teacher with regards to what to do for your own situation. Use whatever way you have to communicate. In my experience it wants to help and make things smooth for you, it just needs to get the info across to you It sounds like its certainly got your attention anyway. Good luck to you. feel free to email me. i am in NZ so we're neighbours of a sort. Take care Ana When I was Kundalini-Awakening-Systems- 1 , " awakenedspirit70 " <awakenedspirit70 wrote: > > OK i know that i am becoming a pain, i do apologise for this. I am > starting to become a real believer and that is a step in some > direction for me. Dont get me wrong, i still wish it would just all > go away, I think to myself, nooo this is just my mind, because i > believe its happening to me, but geeze the heat, the shakes. I asked > the energy to stop yesterday, but it doesnt seem to be stopping i > dont think. I was nice about it and as sincere as one can be. I am a > breastfeeding mother, this isnt bad for my baby is it? Also I am > fearful as i get fears that i will loose control and hurt my family > because things dont feel so real around me right now? Is this > normal? Maybe part of my ocd, so i try to imagine committing this > act so that i can make myself feel bad enough toknow i dont really > want to do such a thing. I know this makes it worse and i suffer > greatly. I am afraid to go outside I cant function properly and it > takes mental effort to function and go outside but i am afraid of > going outside. I guess i shyed away from ppl most of my life and now > im facing those issues big time. Recently I painted an image of the > devil figure i feard so much and it felt good to do that also painted > the fear of being alone and fear of going crzy. Is this ok? Although > atm I stopped painting, I want to calm down. > > > thankyou so much for listening, I know you all just want to help me. > I go from belief to dis belief. This is like a miracle for me in a > way. It is scarey. A miracle in that, these things dont happen to me. > its like " omg, you mean the heavens heard my prayers? " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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