Guest guest Posted May 18, 2008 Report Share Posted May 18, 2008 I have been going through a rough time lately, both emotionally and physically. I recently read some reports from physicians I saw in regards to my car accident and realized that the injuries I am left with are considered permanent. I have cognitive issues and a number of physical ones as well. For some reason, reading those reports made it all sink in and then a court hearing was the catalyst that ripped it all open and poured salt in it. I did know something of this nature was forthcoming due to some dreams I had a few days before, but I had no idea the depth of what I have not yet dealt with. I really thought I had accepted it all. This is not a forgiveness issue, as I long ago forgave the driver of the truck. What I never accepted is that I will never be who I was before the accident. I thought I had mourned that Sarita, but I secretly believed that I would get back there. My new goal is to surpass who I was before. In thinking about all this, I realize all the wonderful gifts I have been given since my accident. Being led to this group, meeting my K family, spiritual growth. Many of my injuries have already been healed by the K for which I am so grateful. If this group had not come into my life exactly when it did, I shudder to think where I would be. I just want to acknowlege all the love, healing, friendship and other gifts I have been blessed with. I am not through the woods yet, but I will keep going until I get there! Sarita Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 18, 2008 Report Share Posted May 18, 2008 You are a inspiration to me, Sarita. We do not have to except the judgements others place upon us even if it is a doctor making those judgements. We all are not the same person we were yesterday, last week, last year. I really like your goal of surpassing who you were before. That is a goal we all need to strive for daily. Blessings & love, Linda , " Sarita " <sarita1969 wrote: > > I have been going through a rough time lately, both emotionally and > physically. I recently read some reports from physicians I saw in > regards to my car accident and realized that the injuries I am left > with are considered permanent. I have cognitive issues and a number > of physical ones as well. For some reason, reading those reports > made it all sink in and then a court hearing was the catalyst that > ripped it all open and poured salt in it. > > I did know something of this nature was forthcoming due to some > dreams I had a few days before, but I had no idea the depth of what I > have not yet dealt with. I really thought I had accepted it all. > > This is not a forgiveness issue, as I long ago forgave the driver of > the truck. What I never accepted is that I will never be who I was > before the accident. I thought I had mourned that Sarita, but I > secretly believed that I would get back there. My new goal is to > surpass who I was before. > > In thinking about all this, I realize all the wonderful gifts I have > been given since my accident. Being led to this group, meeting my K > family, spiritual growth. Many of my injuries have already been > healed by the K for which I am so grateful. If this group had not > come into my life exactly when it did, I shudder to think where I > would be. > > I just want to acknowlege all the love, healing, friendship and other > gifts I have been blessed with. I am not through the woods yet, but > I will keep going until I get there! > > Sarita > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 19, 2008 Report Share Posted May 19, 2008 Thanks for your friendship and support Linda! I realized that I was in the same place cognitively as a year ago (and the doctor said he thought it was permanent back then) and it just hit me like a slap in the face. I backslid a little bit, but I am grateful that I realized it before the pity party got into full swing, lol. You're right - nobody is the same as they were before. That's a good thing because if we were it would mean we were really stuck. I am going to concentrate more on looking forward, not back. Like I tell my daughter - you can't see your own caboose! Sarita , " Linda " <crazycats711 wrote: > > You are a inspiration to me, Sarita. We do not have to except the > judgements others place upon us even if it is a doctor making those > judgements. > > We all are not the same person we were yesterday, last week, last > year. I really like your goal of surpassing who you were before. That > is a goal we all need to strive for daily. > > Blessings & love, > Linda > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 20, 2008 Report Share Posted May 20, 2008 Dear Sarita sister, I think you're doing just brilliantly, it's not easy to go through traumatic transformation but it is what we are all here to do in our own unique way. You continue to be a blessing to all who surround you, I only know " this Sarita " , and all I know is that I LOVE HER JUST THE WAY SHE IS. But, I do understand what you are going through, when I lost my ability to have sexual contact and babies I never thought I'd feel complete again. A part of yourself is gone forever, or so it seems. The journey is long but rewarding and filled with hidden blessings. I have just finished a 13 year cycle of chaos, which just before it I had another 13 year cycle of chaos. This new 13 year cycle is beginning with an earthquake, I'm starting to think that chaos and transformation go hand in hand!!!! ha ha ha Sarita the butterfly is emerging more beautiful and radiant then ever, Love you and praying for you Elektra x x x ________ Sent from Mail. A Smarter Email http://uk.docs./nowyoucan.html Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 21, 2008 Report Share Posted May 21, 2008 Thank you Elektra! Your words brought tears to my eyes. *sniff* You are such an inspiration to me. With all that you have been through you still have a kind word for everyone and have an abundance of love flowing. In the thick of your own troubles, you still have time to care for and help others. Thank you for the encouraging words. Sarita , Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > > Dear Sarita sister, > > I think you're doing just brilliantly, it's not easy to go through traumatic transformation but it is what we are all here to do in our own unique way. > You continue to be a blessing to all who surround you, I only know " this Sarita " , and all I know is that I LOVE HER JUST THE WAY SHE IS. > > But, I do understand what you are going through, when I lost my ability to have sexual contact and babies I never thought I'd feel complete again. > A part of yourself is gone forever, or so it seems. > The journey is long but rewarding and filled with hidden blessings. > I have just finished a 13 year cycle of chaos, which just before it I had another 13 year cycle of chaos. > This new 13 year cycle is beginning with an earthquake, I'm starting to think that chaos and transformation go hand in hand!!!! ha ha ha > > Sarita the butterfly is emerging more beautiful and radiant then ever, > Love you and praying for you > Elektra x x x > > > ________ > Sent from Mail. > A Smarter Email http://uk.docs./nowyoucan.html > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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