Re:Carol - Everyone and

June 1, 2008

Hello Everyone.

I guess I must have needed an ego slam. I am very sorry for all the

negativity. I have been pretty pissy lately. I do not excuse myself, but

in the way of an explanation, I was just SO disappointed in being unable

to attend the seminar, and I just did not understand why it had to be in

such lush surroundings. It is just another thing that only the well off

have access to. And that happens to be something I feel quite strongly

about. I have had cancer, and am on a fixed income (please I really do

not mean for this to be be more than an explanation, NOT an excuse), and

I just cannot afford to eat the way I would like to eat. I cannot get

good medical care. (Not really sure I would do much of that anyway). I

have been going thru some things that surely do bring out my anger. And

I definitely see now, my ego is raging. Thank you all very much for not

slamming me too bad-I did not mean anyone slammed me, I understand I

slammed myself, all by myself. It was all me. I am sorry.

Chrism, If you made it this far, I am very sorry I attacked you. It is

not the first time and you have been very gracious every time. For that

I am very grateful. I only have one teeny minor thing left to say. Are

you really that lazy you can't press the space bar in between the s and

the m?

Love and light to all, and again I am sorry.

June 1, 2008

It sounds like your focus is going back to your Inner Light Carol!

To destroy our Ego Dominance we have to have our Egos attacked-- so

much we get tired of defending them!

Sounds like you are getting over one of those nasty hurdles.

It's never easy to grow spiritually (if it was we'd all be Bloody

Gurus and such from birth!).

The tone of your message sounds sweet.

I wish you great strength in your struggles. It will be worth the

effort in the end!

:)

With Love,

Stephen

, Carol

<light248Y80 wrote:

>

> Hello Everyone.

> I guess I must have needed an ego slam. I am very sorry for all the

> negativity. I have been pretty pissy lately. I do not excuse

myself, but

> in the way of an explanation, I was just SO disappointed in being

unable

> to attend the seminar, and I just did not understand why it had to

be in

> such lush surroundings. It is just another thing that only the well

off

> have access to. And that happens to be something I feel quite

strongly

> about. I have had cancer, and am on a fixed income (please I really

do

> not mean for this to be be more than an explanation, NOT an

excuse), and

> I just cannot afford to eat the way I would like to eat. I cannot

get

> good medical care. (Not really sure I would do much of that

anyway). I

> have been going thru some things that surely do bring out my anger.

And

> I definitely see now, my ego is raging. Thank you all very much for

not

> slamming me too bad-I did not mean anyone slammed me, I understand

I

> slammed myself, all by myself. It was all me. I am sorry.

>

> Chrism, If you made it this far, I am very sorry I attacked you. It

is

> not the first time and you have been very gracious every time. For

that

> I am very grateful. I only have one teeny minor thing left to say.

Are

> you really that lazy you can't press the space bar in between the s

and

> the m?

> Love and light to all, and again I am sorry.

>

June 1, 2008

Hello sweet Carol,

So glad you are balancing. Know we love you, and we all hang together

through the trials.

I still don't understand why what someone chooses to call themselves

bothers you. Why should not having a space in their name where you

would like it be an issue? I'm just curious.

Love and a big HUG,

Dhy ana

, Carol

<light248Y80 wrote:

>

> Hello Everyone.

> I guess I must have needed an ego slam. I am very sorry for all the

> negativity. I have been pretty pissy lately. I do not excuse myself,

but

> in the way of an explanation, I was just SO disappointed in being

unable

> to attend the seminar, and I just did not understand why it had to

be in

> such lush surroundings. It is just another thing that only the well off

> have access to. And that happens to be something I feel quite strongly

> about. I have had cancer, and am on a fixed income (please I really do

> not mean for this to be be more than an explanation, NOT an excuse),

and

> I just cannot afford to eat the way I would like to eat. I cannot get

> good medical care. (Not really sure I would do much of that anyway). I

> have been going thru some things that surely do bring out my anger. And

> I definitely see now, my ego is raging. Thank you all very much for not

> slamming me too bad-I did not mean anyone slammed me, I understand I

> slammed myself, all by myself. It was all me. I am sorry.

>

> Chrism, If you made it this far, I am very sorry I attacked you. It is

> not the first time and you have been very gracious every time. For that

> I am very grateful. I only have one teeny minor thing left to say. Are

> you really that lazy you can't press the space bar in between the s and

> the m?

> Love and light to all, and again I am sorry.

>

June 1, 2008

Hello again, Everyone and Chris m and Fashji!

Fash I love you, my true friend! Thank you! I just felt i need to say a

few more things. LOL! I do feel the questions I asked needed to be

asked. I just should have been a little more spiritual about it.

I do wonder still about the location and cost of the seminar. I have

been involved in extremely spiritual groupings that involved hundreds of

people that cost almost nothing to attend. And the settings were every

bit as beautiful. You should not have to be wealthy to attend a seminar.

That is my belief and I am entitled to it. You should not have to be

wealthy to eat well, sleep well or live well.

And BTW, I did not spend tens of thousands on college, and I do believe

state universities should be free. As should good medical care, now

there is a topic I could spend hours on. Lawyers are another subject I

do not want to get into either, altho I will say I believe they are way

overpaid, as well as sports figures, actors....on and on.

I have had issues with trusting chris m (see how easy that was?) mainly

because of that little space. Chris, I am sorry, I just cannot buy that

you are that lazy.

$3000 for advertising? You must be joking, or did I read that wrong? How

many more people did that net you as participants of the seminar? How

much did it come out to per person? These are just a few more of the

questions I feel I need to ask. If I have more, I'll be sure to let you

know, altho I will be perfectly civil about it. Lots of love and light

to you all! caro l hehehe, couldn't resist.

June 1, 2008

I second what Stephen said. Much love and blessings for you Carol.

Would you like to be put on the K prayer and healing list?

http://health.Kundalini-Healing/

blessings & love,

Linda

, " Master

Condrey " <mastercondrey wrote:

>

> It sounds like your focus is going back to your Inner Light Carol!

>

> To destroy our Ego Dominance we have to have our Egos attacked-- so

> much we get tired of defending them!

>

> Sounds like you are getting over one of those nasty hurdles.

> It's never easy to grow spiritually (if it was we'd all be Bloody

> Gurus and such from birth!).

>

> The tone of your message sounds sweet.

> I wish you great strength in your struggles. It will be worth the

> effort in the end!

>

> :)

> With Love,

> Stephen

>

> , Carol

> <light248Y80@> wrote:

> >

> > Hello Everyone.

> > I guess I must have needed an ego slam. I am very sorry for all

the

> > negativity. I have been pretty pissy lately. I do not excuse

> myself, but

> > in the way of an explanation, I was just SO disappointed in being

> unable

> > to attend the seminar, and I just did not understand why it had

to

> be in

> > such lush surroundings. It is just another thing that only the

well

> off

> > have access to. And that happens to be something I feel quite

> strongly

> > about. I have had cancer, and am on a fixed income (please I

really

> do

> > not mean for this to be be more than an explanation, NOT an

> excuse), and

> > I just cannot afford to eat the way I would like to eat. I cannot

> get

> > good medical care. (Not really sure I would do much of that

> anyway). I

> > have been going thru some things that surely do bring out my

anger.

> And

> > I definitely see now, my ego is raging. Thank you all very much

for

> not

> > slamming me too bad-I did not mean anyone slammed me, I

understand

> I

> > slammed myself, all by myself. It was all me. I am sorry.

> >

> > Chrism, If you made it this far, I am very sorry I attacked you.

It

> is

> > not the first time and you have been very gracious every time.

For

> that

> > I am very grateful. I only have one teeny minor thing left to

say.

> Are

> > you really that lazy you can't press the space bar in between the

s

> and

> > the m?

> > Love and light to all, and again I am sorry.

> >

>

June 1, 2008

It sounds like your focus is going back to your Inner Light Carol!

To destroy our Ego Dominance we have to have our Egos attacked-- so

much we get tired of defending them!

Sounds like you are getting over one of those nasty hurdles.

It's never easy to grow spiritually (if it was we'd all be Bloody

Gurus and such from birth!).

The tone of your message sounds sweet.

I wish you great strength in your struggles. It will be worth the

effort in the end!

:)

With Love,

Stephen

, Carol

<light248Y80 wrote:

>

> Hello Everyone.

> I guess I must have needed an ego slam. I am very sorry for all the

> negativity. I have been pretty pissy lately. I do not excuse

myself, but

> in the way of an explanation, I was just SO disappointed in being

unable

> to attend the seminar, and I just did not understand why it had to

be in

> such lush surroundings. It is just another thing that only the well

off

> have access to. And that happens to be something I feel quite

strongly

> about. I have had cancer, and am on a fixed income (please I really

do

> not mean for this to be be more than an explanation, NOT an

excuse), and

> I just cannot afford to eat the way I would like to eat. I cannot

get

> good medical care. (Not really sure I would do much of that

anyway). I

> have been going thru some things that surely do bring out my anger.

And

> I definitely see now, my ego is raging. Thank you all very much for

not

> slamming me too bad-I did not mean anyone slammed me, I understand

I

> slammed myself, all by myself. It was all me. I am sorry.

>

> Chrism, If you made it this far, I am very sorry I attacked you. It

is

> not the first time and you have been very gracious every time. For

that

> I am very grateful. I only have one teeny minor thing left to say.

Are

> you really that lazy you can't press the space bar in between the s

and

> the m?

> Love and light to all, and again I am sorry.

>

June 1, 2008

Dhy ana,

LOL! I think we should all put spaces in our names! It may not seem

important to you Dhyana, but I just cannot help thinking that chrism

(the way he writes his name) is affected and misleading. It is just

too close to Christ to be accidental or lazy. I just don't buy that it

is not quite subtly purposeful. MY OPINION! Love to you, car ol

, " novalees "

<Novalees wrote:

>

> Hello sweet Carol,

>

> So glad you are balancing. Know we love you, and we all hang together

> through the trials.

>

> I still don't understand why what someone chooses to call themselves

> bothers you. Why should not having a space in their name where you

> would like it be an issue? I'm just curious.

>

> Love and a big HUG,

> Dhy ana

>

> , Carol

> <light248Y80@> wrote:

> >

> > Hello Everyone.

> > I guess I must have needed an ego slam. I am very sorry for all the

> > negativity. I have been pretty pissy lately. I do not excuse myself,

> but

> > in the way of an explanation, I was just SO disappointed in being

> unable

> > to attend the seminar, and I just did not understand why it had to

> be in

> > such lush surroundings. It is just another thing that only the

well off

> > have access to. And that happens to be something I feel quite

strongly

> > about. I have had cancer, and am on a fixed income (please I

really do

> > not mean for this to be be more than an explanation, NOT an excuse),

> and

> > I just cannot afford to eat the way I would like to eat. I cannot get

> > good medical care. (Not really sure I would do much of that

anyway). I

> > have been going thru some things that surely do bring out my

anger. And

> > I definitely see now, my ego is raging. Thank you all very much

for not

> > slamming me too bad-I did not mean anyone slammed me, I understand I

> > slammed myself, all by myself. It was all me. I am sorry.

> >

> > Chrism, If you made it this far, I am very sorry I attacked you.

It is

> > not the first time and you have been very gracious every time. For

that

> > I am very grateful. I only have one teeny minor thing left to say.

Are

> > you really that lazy you can't press the space bar in between the

s and

> > the m?

> > Love and light to all, and again I am sorry.

> >

>

June 1, 2008

I'd love to be able to go to Ojai for any event, even just to go use the

library there. It was the home of J Krishnamurti, and I'm sure that the

energy there is significant. It is much more than just a lush place, but a

place that has a spiritual history. If you can't go somewhere that you want

to go, or if things don't work out the way you would like them to, that

merely means that it's not for you, or not needed at this time, or any

explanation, since G-d directs all. I've found it is better for me to

concentrate on myself, my motives, my understandings, so that I can live in

the NOW, which is real, rather in the fantasyland of memory or desire

projection. If I find myself out of the NOW into thought, I catch myself as

soon as I can, and try to realize what I've been doing.

Thomas

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