Public Surrenderings

[Guest guest]

Not sure if this is for those doing the Shaktipat or not (and if it's

for the Shaktipat, please disregard... hehe). Either way, I thought

I'd share mine because it sounds like a wonderful idea... they are

things that I have reaffirmed over and over again and one I'm just

embarking on. My own personal quest and honestly, some of my own

personal prayers. It's silent on the surrenderings on here.

 

I'll be the first...

 

To surrender to the Divine will and follow the synchronicity and the

voice inside regardless of outside conditioning. To have the grace to

surrender " my " will to the Divine without fear or questioning, as

Divine truly takes care of my every need, at every turn and in every

moment. In the moments I am most filled with angst, if I just breathe,

Divine fills me.

 

I surrender my questions, that while I believe can be valid, are

sometimes more painful than helpful. I surrender the need to even

clarify or justify those questions. It is as though, at every turn

lately, I have begun to fill up with questions. To surrender them all

to Divine and let it unfold as it should without putting " my " will into

it and causing harm to myself and others.

 

I surrender my smoking, which I have done on and off throughout the

years and Divine has removed from my life time and again only for my

willfullness to reclaim. This addiction has me at my knees at the

moment and I am filled with guilt over going back to it in " my " moments

of weakness. I surrender this all, with a heart full of tears over it.

I surrender this whole issue without all the self-analytical jargon

that sometimes " I " can get caught up in.

 

I surrender my need for external validation and exterior happiness and

the image of what is " success. " I surrender that internal conflict

surrounding including others, especially my desire for my family, to

enjoy this awakening. These two are so intimately linked but I

surrender this wholly. This attachment is leaving me, surely... but I

will continually pray for the easing of that intensity. I surrender

this. Surrender, surrender, surrender.

 

I surrender all of my emotions, thoughts, prayers, body and actions.

 

May they be Yours.

 

Love