What's happening

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The shaktipat seems to be going wonderfully. As each day comes I see

each chakra in turn light up. At first they looked like the head of a

large (3-4 " ) bolt on my back, but this morning it's more like large

circular tattoos that are also quite colorful. I don't get a sense of

them spinning, but as I notice them I get the feeling of them moving

toward turning.

 

Also my beautiful kidneys are doing much better these days, thank you.

And the fridge is full of watermelon and blueberries.

 

I'm still trying to realize that this is work that I am choosing to do

for myself, not for others. Well for others too, but also for me.

But I haven't missed practice in four days which is a lot for me at

this stage. I think it was hard to get moving because of not feeling

ready or worthy of the K, and also being a bit afraid of it. On the

one hand I feel incredibly lucky to have stumbled onto this group, and

on the other I have trouble trusting my abilities although that is

getting easier.

 

I am slowly surrendering the mistrust. Prior to I had a

teacher that wasn't a good teacher for me, and who left me feeling

that nothing I ever did was right or good, so that's the holdup for

me. Chrism, you're doing great so far! In fact, I am totally

grateful for all you have done.

 

Being slow,

Peter