Walk With G-d Until you Disappear

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This is a blog of mine that I wrote recently. If you feel like it, please

read it, if not, that's ok with me. I think there is some value in it.

It's a bit long though...

 

 

 

As part of my recovery, I have been going walking for fairly long distances,

usually 3 or 4 miles. This gives me a lot of time to appreciate Nature,

etc. The local Baptist church has a marquee sign up, and for a time it

said:

 

Exercise Daily

Walk with G-d

 

Well, I was doing my exercise, and as for the second part, I remembered

Enoch (Chanokh in Hebrew, from the root chanakh, to train or to educate)

'walked with G-d'. (Bereshit/Genesis 5:22-24.)

So, I began to think to myself, while walking, what does it mean to walk

with G-d? I'm sure that most religious people will merely think it means

keeping religious subjects on one's mind, or praying while walking to have

G-d's will done, or maybe to attempt to live a holy life. There are many

variations on this theme. But I have a different notion. What I am going

to type now may be a repetition of some things I've said before; if so,

please bear with me, ok?

 

One of the things that I meditate on, the basic, fundamental thing, is what

is known as the Shema (the Listen up, in Marine Corps-ese.) In English, it

starts out, " Hear O Israel, the Lord thy G-d, the Lord is One. " As I am no

different than most I was brought up to believe that this basically means

merely that there is but one G-d, not many, as the pagans believed, or still

believe, and the Hindus too. But time, studies, and experience have brought

new realizations on the subject. I started to think about where we come

from, what this creation is. I began to think about the 'Beginning', which

is the first word in Genesis, Bereshit. To think of this as 'the beginning'

actually forces the mind to focus on an absurdity, before the beginning,

which we cannot imagine or, rather, we can only imagine, by projecting onto

the unknown the known, or our images, our conditioned beliefs. We cannot

*know* the unknowable, we cannot explain that which does not exist. But

what other choice do we have? I decided that we can only imagine the

'before' as an unknown, the seed, or source from whence all things come.

Cabalists think of this as the Limitless Light, the Nothing; one can also

think of it as G-d, but not G-d as a concept made in the image of man.

HaShem, the 'Name', aka Jehovah, is one such G-d, which means 'that which

was, is and will be', but has been projected as a father figure, a judge, a

'who', someone with all kinds of human emotions as we experience them, based

as they are on our fragmented consciousness. So is Eheya ( I am that I am),

Elohim, Adonai (Lord), and the many other G-d names used today. They are

actually vibratory formulae, to which, if one attunes oneself, our

consciousness aligns, so that we are better able to receive the Unknown into

our lives.

 

Imagine that 'before the beginning' there was Nothing but That which we call

G-d. There was no 'outside', no 'inside'. " Creation " is not something

projected outside, separate and self-existent, but is something we can only

think of as a 'mental' realization of various aspects of selfness. There is

but One Mind, One Identity, One Self. G-d is One. Our senses are aspects

of this Mind, and are receivers of vibrations at various frequencies. When

we are whole, no longer fragmented, we are open, merely receiving,

observing, which is what G-d is doing. We then are participants in that

Observation. Our life and death are nothing more than the cycles of forms

(bodies) which are developing into vehicles able to participate in this

Creative Observation.

 

Why are we constantly thinking? Why don't we just observe what is around us

without judgment? What is it that makes us constantly talk to ourselves,

explain, modify, rationalize? My answer is fear, not stomach addling,

paralyzing fear, but constant worry, pressure to do the 'right thing',

psychological conditioning which gives us a feeling of security, possible of

a kind of fulfillment as long as things go well. My eyes take in a scene;

my brain, which cannot change what it sees, nevertheless goes into a

turmoil, projecting onto the scene conditioned belief, interpretation. I

hear something; my brain immediately judges what is heard as noise, as

humor, as insult, as taboo, etc. We move toward sounds and scenes which we

like, that humor our belief system, our paradigms. We eat something;

immediately our brain judges what we eat, not merely in terms of

poisonous/non-poisonous, but in terms of like and dislike. We eat that

which we like regardless of its nutritional value or lack thereof. Smell

and taste are similarly used. But no matter what we do with our brain to

resist or move toward that which we sense, our senses are only able to

receive, not to send. Senses and self activity are two different things.

It is our fragmentation, our fragmented consciousness that does this. We

want this, but not that that goes with it, and actually believe that we can

have the former without the latter. Sorry, it doesn't work that way. What

we receive via our senses as vibratory energy travels along the nerves to

the brain, which translates the sensation into a picture, a conditioned

picture, so that there is no guarantee that what we see is what is actually

'there'. It is oneself that one is always looking at, one's own images.

 

So I came to understand 'walking with G-d' as meaning being quiet, open,

letting the senses receive what is there without reacting to it, without

thinking about it and so missing the next nano-second long Now moment of

sensory perception. It means not missing anything because we don't block

the received data long enough to think about anything in particular, just

trusting a higher consciousness to work things out. This is how we 'tune

in', by not naming things all the time, but just quietly watching,

listening, etc.

 

The other day, as I was gazing off into the sky, at some beautiful clouds, I

realized that these too are images created by my brain. What I was looking

at was my brain's image of the environment, and so I was looking at an

aspect of myself. I then realized that everything I see is myself, and

remembered the Sanskrit saying, Sat Tvam Asi, that is to say, " Thou art

That " . And all that is One, and One is G-d, and our senses are designed to

be receptive to G-d, and we are the way G-d perceives, observes,

experiences. And G-d is not something that can be 'known', is not something

that can be understood, or named. We can only learn to be receptive, to be

one, not fragmented, and then Microcosm and Macrocosm are attuned, and

aligned, inside and outside are One. I imagine that this is what Enoch was

trained to realize, and why, after he was perfected in this, he 'was not',

because G-d took him.