True Love and Narcissism- with question for

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Hi Peter,

 

Thank you for your reply.

 

No I don't really think that I want him to complete me at all. I

could just so easily never talk with him again and still feel the

same that i do right now. I dont really need anything from him, he

doesnt have to give love back.

 

See, I'm just going to summarize, him and I used to have a

narcissistic relationship just like the majority of relationships

out there, but I eventually caught it and cleared away all sorts of

information that my ego was placing on him. What happened was that

he was stuck in a horrible sitation and he just stopped talkign to

me for the longest time leaving my ego to torment me with my

kundalini as to what was really going on with my heart. I was very

judgemental and assuming things as to why he wasnt talking. But I

eventually learned that I was being narcissistic, I've noticed the

mirror I placed on him, so over time I just cleared this reflected

information, while at the same time learning more about myself

through the information. One day, I just had an insight and even

though I've never really talked with him I just totally understood

everything about his horrible situation at an unconscious level

because there were no more distractions on him from myself, there

were no more judgements and it was like for the first time in my

life I was beginning to understand what love was even though this

man was not really talking to me because of the pain of his

situation.

 

Now what happened was that I was just in total bliss for the longest

time over the whole realization and was just a bit upset, because I

understood what was wrong with him, like what he needed to work on

or realize, but he was just not talking. But one day, coincidently,

he just came to me for help. so I've just been so over joyed that we

have finally made the connection again, and that I could give love

and service to him. All I ever really wanted to do was reflect back

whatever informtation I have gathered about him that he needs to

know.

 

I feel that this is true love. True love is to begin to look through

the mirrors on others and look beyond what it is your ego wants to

see, its about accepting truth and not dwelling on your ego wants in

the person. This will allow you to see youre lover and truly merge

with them. True love is reflecting faithfully the unconscious

important information projected onto you by your lover.. It's

reflecting that important information that they need in order to

expand and grow beyond the ego. This is what I want to happen with

him and everyone else around me, thats my goal. This is a coming

enlightenment to me I feel.... if my ego doesnt slip me lol.

 

Now I just get so upset because of how difficult this is lol. And i

don't really understand what it is my energies are doing when I talk

with him now. I seriosuly just want to help this man see certain

things in himself, but all sorts of werid things with my kundalini

begin to happen when I talk with him one on one and its only really

with him. The last time with him it just really upset me because it

was like so many things were going on at once, like I wasn't

prepared for being in such a state while talking with him. It's like

I'm trying to adjust to something higher but I'm having difficulty

and confusion... probably because I'm possibly becoming aware of my

ego is trying to get in the way(?). Have I accidently pushed myself

too fast or something?

 

Sorry, if you don't understnad, I've been pretty confused myself.

All of this I have just realized all at once and just more keeps on

piling in. Sorry I talked too much lol.

 

Kundalini-Awakening-Systems-

1 , " peter.nichols " <peter wrote:

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> Hi Drea,

>

> It's always hard to separate out those kinds of issues, god, we

have

> all been there. Here's my take, and if it doesn't fit please

disregard.

[Guest guest]

Hi Paula,

 

How do you mean? Whats inverted narcissim? I know that the

connection was narcissistic, but its not nearly as close as it is

now.

 

Is this what you mean by inverted narcissist: A narcissist usually

feels the need to be with another narcissist where they feed each

others egos. They must be in a relationship, but I dont want a

relationship with him or anyone really. I think I'm even drifting

more away from any such relstionships, even my views on marriage has

changed around this.

 

I think I'm just gaining a better understanding of love, and since

its energies are so unknown, new, and mysterious to me all these

years, its jsut taking time to adjust. I think I know and understand

whats going on now. I think I'm just becoming more aware of possible

projection or mirrors I'm placing on othrs and that I'm still doing

this. This isnt necessarily a bad thing as long as I notice that I'm

doing this, and it can be benefitial for becoming more conscious.

 

Ok... really now.. I'm jsut going to say, I truly beleive that a

good percentage of the population, like in the 90s for percentage,

are narcissitic. I am narcissistic, but I'd rather accept myself as

a narcissist than not or else I think it would be a lot harder for

me to see the fields that I must work on for myself. Being aware of

your narcissism is where its at. If you're not aware than you risk

yourself in slipping with your ego without noticing.

 

Do you all not see the mirrors on people? Do you not see your own

reflection on someone when you are judging someone? Do you not

compare current situations with someone with past situations? Do you

not see the illusions that you place on others? Do you not create

fantasies? I could go on, but these are all signs of a narcissist

and until you begin to notice these mirrors, you probably wont see

beyond your narcissistic self and its illusions.

 

Sorry, lol, I get into weird topics, I should probabbly keep my

experiences to myself.

 

, <ari.reza

wrote:

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> Drea shoot me if its wrong , just an idea,

> maybe your connection is Inverted Narcissism..

> after torment comes bliss..

> self destructive path...you have found a new path trust it...

> purge the old..

> just an idea ...

> paula

 

>

[Guest guest]

You go girl! Right on target keep it going and realize that nothing is

wrong as your interior life goes thru these changes. Let them come!

Embrace them for the refinements they bring. - Nice self

introspection! - chrism

[Guest guest]

Hey Drea,

 

Ok, best of luck with it all.

 

Peter

 

 

 

, " Drea "

<lvledusa wrote:

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> No I don't really think that I want him to complete me at all. I