Guest guest Posted June 30, 2008 Report Share Posted June 30, 2008 Hello group. My first introduction to Kundalini came from a member of your group, , whom I knew for much of my childhood. I recently reconnected with her, after running into her at a local coffee shop. I saw an energy in her, a transformation so apparent and so attractive to my energy. It was an obvious light that I recognized and right away I knew this woman was different from the one I used to know. She would be an angel in my path. For the past couple years I have had sort of nagging questions about my energy that I kept very deep inside. At first I pushed them deeper, thinking they were of the ego. There was definitely no one in my life who I felt would understand, even if I could find the vocabulary to explain myself. All of my 'teachers' in life were falling short. Yet the energy, my energy, could not be denied. Most dramatically it appeared in my relationships with the other sex. Recently I began to I feel strongly that I could no longer safely date or even touch men. It felt like a power, and at first I experimented... just to see. Through visualization and meditation I could move my energy, it felt like magic, I hesitate to explain myself, in fear of ego again. I learned some very hard lessons, that this was nothing to be played with. These days it feels like the people in my life are either obsessed with me or afraid of me. I find a few friends in older people with energy that seems a little more my speed, such as . I have always been very likable, my entire life surrounded by friends, but my spiritual path has always been present, and most of my life has been filled with discomfort which has brought about massive growth. Most recently I have felt that process incredibly amplified, and life put me on a somewhat aesthetic path. My friends now, only seem to seek me out for guidance, but it feels weird to me, and I can feel my energy being taken sometimes. other than that I am very alone. more and more by the day. This I felt to be a good thing, although hard, so that I can figure out exactly what this energy is. I feel my energetic path started when I was very young when my mom got cancer. It has been a fifteen year struggle for her, I was nine when she first got sick. That is when I began trying to heal her from love. At the time I had no words for my actions. I would massage her entire body for hours each night... for years. My hands would get so hot and I could feel the energy of love. My mom called my hands healing hands. I continue this process when I am with her, as I have been for the last month. My meditations and visualizations have taken this process to an interesting level that, on certain days, feels more powerful than ever. Other than that I am practicing surrender and working on my ego. I know that I am only a tool of the universal love, and am here to explore how magical that can be... in a safe way. I am feeling extremely sensitive, and I am an environmental science major, so most of the time I feel like an open wound. Especially these days. I know this fragility is somehow my strength, I would just like to manage it better. Sorry to babble. Much love to everyone. Thank you. Kellie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 30, 2008 Report Share Posted June 30, 2008 Hi Kellie, Glad that you bumped in to , she is an angel isn't she! We certainly love her round here :-)) Nice to read of your journey and a very warm welcome . Love elektra x x x ________ Not happy with your email address?. Get the one you really want - millions of new email addresses available now at http://uk.docs./ymail/new.html Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 30, 2008 Report Share Posted June 30, 2008 Welcome Kellie! It's great to have you with us. I think it's wonderful that you hooked back up with ! I know that I have witnessed many changes in her since she has become a part of our family here and she is a very special person. Make yourself at home. Have you checked out the website and the Safeties yet? I'm sure has filled you in on that! Sarita , " Kelly Anderson " <longlivlife wrote: > > Hello group. > My first introduction to Kundalini came from a member of your group, , > whom I knew for much of my childhood. I recently reconnected with her, after > running into her at a local coffee shop. I saw an energy in her, a > transformation so apparent and so attractive to my energy. It was an obvious > light that I recognized and right away I knew this woman was different from > the one I used to know. She would be an angel in my path. > For the past couple years I have had sort of nagging questions about my > energy that I kept very deep inside. At first I pushed them deeper, thinking > they were of the ego. There was definitely no one in my life who I felt > would understand, even if I could find the vocabulary to explain myself. All > of my 'teachers' in life were falling short. Yet the energy, my energy, > could not be denied. Most dramatically it appeared in my relationships with > the other sex. Recently I began to I feel strongly that I could no longer > safely date or even touch men. It felt like a power, and at first I > experimented... just to see. Through visualization and meditation I could > move my energy, it felt like magic, I hesitate to explain myself, in fear of > ego again. > I learned some very hard lessons, that this was nothing to be played with. > These days it feels like the people in my life are either obsessed with me > or afraid of me. I find a few friends in older people with energy that seems > a little more my speed, such as . > I have always been very likable, my entire life surrounded by friends, but > my spiritual path has always been present, and most of my life has been > filled with discomfort which has brought about massive growth. Most recently > I have felt that process incredibly amplified, and life put me on a somewhat > aesthetic path. My friends now, only seem to seek me out for guidance, but > it feels weird to me, and I can feel my energy being taken sometimes. other > than that I am very alone. more and more by the day. This I felt to be a > good thing, although hard, so that I can figure out exactly what this energy > is. > I feel my energetic path started when I was very young when my mom got > cancer. It has been a fifteen year struggle for her, I was nine when she > first got sick. That is when I began trying to heal her from love. At the > time I had no words for my actions. I would massage her entire body for > hours each night... for years. My hands would get so hot and I could feel > the energy of love. My mom called my hands healing hands. I continue this > process when I am with her, as I have been for the last month. > My meditations and visualizations have taken this process to an interesting > level that, on certain days, feels more powerful than ever. > > Other than that I am practicing surrender and working on my ego. I know that > I am only a tool of the universal love, and am here to explore how magical > that can be... in a safe way. I am feeling extremely sensitive, and I am an > environmental science major, so most of the time I feel like an open wound. > Especially these days. I know this fragility is somehow my strength, I would > just like to manage it better. > Sorry to babble. > Much love to everyone. Thank you. > Kellie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 30, 2008 Report Share Posted June 30, 2008 She did fill me in, and I haev looked closer on your web page... I LIKE THEM! Some of them I began incorporating years ago... others I have done my whole life. Either way I am excited to have some guidance in this. has been trying to get me to join for about a month now. I am glad I did. Thank you for your warmth! Kellie On 6/30/08, Sarita <sarita1969 wrote: > > Welcome Kellie! It's great to have you with us. I think it's > wonderful that you hooked back up with ! I know that I have > witnessed many changes in her since she has become a part of our > family here and she is a very special person. > > Make yourself at home. Have you checked out the website and the > Safeties yet? I'm sure has filled you in on that! > > Sarita > > --- In <%40ya\ hoogroups.com>, > " Kelly > Anderson " <longlivlife wrote: > > > > Hello group. > > My first introduction to Kundalini came from a member of your > group, , > > whom I knew for much of my childhood. I recently reconnected with > her, after > > running into her at a local coffee shop. I saw an energy in her, a > > transformation so apparent and so attractive to my energy. It was > an obvious > > light that I recognized and right away I knew this woman was > different from > > the one I used to know. She would be an angel in my path. > > For the past couple years I have had sort of nagging questions > about my > > energy that I kept very deep inside. At first I pushed them deeper, > thinking > > they were of the ego. There was definitely no one in my life who I > felt > > would understand, even if I could find the vocabulary to explain > myself. All > > of my 'teachers' in life were falling short. Yet the energy, my > energy, > > could not be denied. Most dramatically it appeared in my > relationships with > > the other sex. Recently I began to I feel strongly that I could no > longer > > safely date or even touch men. It felt like a power, and at first I > > experimented... just to see. Through visualization and meditation I > could > > move my energy, it felt like magic, I hesitate to explain myself, > in fear of > > ego again. > > I learned some very hard lessons, that this was nothing to be > played with. > > These days it feels like the people in my life are either obsessed > with me > > or afraid of me. I find a few friends in older people with energy > that seems > > a little more my speed, such as . > > I have always been very likable, my entire life surrounded by > friends, but > > my spiritual path has always been present, and most of my life has > been > > filled with discomfort which has brought about massive growth. Most > recently > > I have felt that process incredibly amplified, and life put me on a > somewhat > > aesthetic path. My friends now, only seem to seek me out for > guidance, but > > it feels weird to me, and I can feel my energy being taken > sometimes. other > > than that I am very alone. more and more by the day. This I felt to > be a > > good thing, although hard, so that I can figure out exactly what > this energy > > is. > > I feel my energetic path started when I was very young when my mom > got > > cancer. It has been a fifteen year struggle for her, I was nine > when she > > first got sick. That is when I began trying to heal her from love. > At the > > time I had no words for my actions. I would massage her entire body > for > > hours each night... for years. My hands would get so hot and I > could feel > > the energy of love. My mom called my hands healing hands. I > continue this > > process when I am with her, as I have been for the last month. > > My meditations and visualizations have taken this process to an > interesting > > level that, on certain days, feels more powerful than ever. > > > > Other than that I am practicing surrender and working on my ego. I > know that > > I am only a tool of the universal love, and am here to explore how > magical > > that can be... in a safe way. I am feeling extremely sensitive, and > I am an > > environmental science major, so most of the time I feel like an > open wound. > > Especially these days. I know this fragility is somehow my > strength, I would > > just like to manage it better. > > Sorry to babble. > > Much love to everyone. Thank you. > > Kellie > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Guest guest Posted June 30, 2008 Report Share Posted June 30, 2008 Hey Kellie, Welcome to the kundaloonies!!!! Julie --- On Mon, 6/30/08, Chris_H <chghes1 wrote: Chris_H <chghes1 Re: hello group Monday, June 30, 2008, 12:28 PM Hello Kellie and welcome to this wonderful group . Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 30, 2008 Report Share Posted June 30, 2008 Kellie: I am so happy you logged on - Thank you for the kind words - none of what I shared was me it was all k - I have been concerned about you yet now I feel so much better - you have a family here that will guide you as needed and you now have chrism to help you with the big things. And my little sister you always will have me - I have learned so much from you in the past few weeks and love sharing with you - You belong to my heart now and forever... , " Kelly Anderson " <longlivlife wrote: > > Hello group. > My first introduction to Kundalini came from a member of your group, , > whom I knew for much of my childhood. I recently reconnected with her, after > running into her at a local coffee shop. I saw an energy in her, a > transformation so apparent and so attractive to my energy. It was an obvious > light that I recognized and right away I knew this woman was different from > the one I used to know. She would be an angel in my path. > For the past couple years I have had sort of nagging questions about my > energy that I kept very deep inside. At first I pushed them deeper, thinking > they were of the ego. There was definitely no one in my life who I felt > would understand, even if I could find the vocabulary to explain myself. All > of my 'teachers' in life were falling short. Yet the energy, my energy, > could not be denied. Most dramatically it appeared in my relationships with > the other sex. Recently I began to I feel strongly that I could no longer > safely date or even touch men. It felt like a power, and at first I > experimented... just to see. Through visualization and meditation I could > move my energy, it felt like magic, I hesitate to explain myself, in fear of > ego again. > I learned some very hard lessons, that this was nothing to be played with. > These days it feels like the people in my life are either obsessed with me > or afraid of me. I find a few friends in older people with energy that seems > a little more my speed, such as . > I have always been very likable, my entire life surrounded by friends, but > my spiritual path has always been present, and most of my life has been > filled with discomfort which has brought about massive growth. Most recently > I have felt that process incredibly amplified, and life put me on a somewhat > aesthetic path. My friends now, only seem to seek me out for guidance, but > it feels weird to me, and I can feel my energy being taken sometimes. other > than that I am very alone. more and more by the day. This I felt to be a > good thing, although hard, so that I can figure out exactly what this energy > is. > I feel my energetic path started when I was very young when my mom got > cancer. It has been a fifteen year struggle for her, I was nine when she > first got sick. That is when I began trying to heal her from love. At the > time I had no words for my actions. I would massage her entire body for > hours each night... for years. My hands would get so hot and I could feel > the energy of love. My mom called my hands healing hands. I continue this > process when I am with her, as I have been for the last month. > My meditations and visualizations have taken this process to an interesting > level that, on certain days, feels more powerful than ever. > > Other than that I am practicing surrender and working on my ego. I know that > I am only a tool of the universal love, and am here to explore how magical > that can be... in a safe way. I am feeling extremely sensitive, and I am an > environmental science major, so most of the time I feel like an open wound. > Especially these days. I know this fragility is somehow my strength, I would > just like to manage it better. > Sorry to babble. > Much love to everyone. Thank you. > Kellie > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 1, 2008 Report Share Posted July 1, 2008 Thank you ! I feel the same about you. And I really do feel better already! On 6/30/08, . wrote: > > Kellie: > I am so happy you logged on - Thank you for the kind words - none of > what I shared was me it was all k - I have been concerned about you > yet now I feel so much better - you have a family here that will guide > you as needed and you now have chrism to help you with the big things. > And my little sister you always will have me - I have learned so much > from you in the past few weeks and love sharing with you - > You belong to my heart now and forever... > > > --- In <%40ya\ hoogroups.com>, > " Kelly Anderson " > <longlivlife wrote: > > > > Hello group. > > My first introduction to Kundalini came from a member of your group, > , > > whom I knew for much of my childhood. I recently reconnected with > her, after > > running into her at a local coffee shop. I saw an energy in her, a > > transformation so apparent and so attractive to my energy. It was an > obvious > > light that I recognized and right away I knew this woman was > different from > > the one I used to know. She would be an angel in my path. > > For the past couple years I have had sort of nagging questions about my > > energy that I kept very deep inside. At first I pushed them deeper, > thinking > > they were of the ego. There was definitely no one in my life who I felt > > would understand, even if I could find the vocabulary to explain > myself. All > > of my 'teachers' in life were falling short. Yet the energy, my energy, > > could not be denied. Most dramatically it appeared in my > relationships with > > the other sex. Recently I began to I feel strongly that I could no > longer > > safely date or even touch men. It felt like a power, and at first I > > experimented... just to see. Through visualization and meditation I > could > > move my energy, it felt like magic, I hesitate to explain myself, in > fear of > > ego again. > > I learned some very hard lessons, that this was nothing to be played > with. > > These days it feels like the people in my life are either obsessed > with me > > or afraid of me. I find a few friends in older people with energy > that seems > > a little more my speed, such as . > > I have always been very likable, my entire life surrounded by > friends, but > > my spiritual path has always been present, and most of my life has been > > filled with discomfort which has brought about massive growth. Most > recently > > I have felt that process incredibly amplified, and life put me on a > somewhat > > aesthetic path. My friends now, only seem to seek me out for > guidance, but > > it feels weird to me, and I can feel my energy being taken > sometimes. other > > than that I am very alone. more and more by the day. This I felt to be a > > good thing, although hard, so that I can figure out exactly what > this energy > > is. > > I feel my energetic path started when I was very young when my mom got > > cancer. It has been a fifteen year struggle for her, I was nine when she > > first got sick. That is when I began trying to heal her from love. > At the > > time I had no words for my actions. I would massage her entire body for > > hours each night... for years. My hands would get so hot and I could > feel > > the energy of love. My mom called my hands healing hands. I continue > this > > process when I am with her, as I have been for the last month. > > My meditations and visualizations have taken this process to an > interesting > > level that, on certain days, feels more powerful than ever. > > > > Other than that I am practicing surrender and working on my ego. I > know that > > I am only a tool of the universal love, and am here to explore how > magical > > that can be... in a safe way. I am feeling extremely sensitive, and > I am an > > environmental science major, so most of the time I feel like an open > wound. > > Especially these days. I know this fragility is somehow my strength, > I would > > just like to manage it better. > > Sorry to babble. > > Much love to everyone. Thank you. > > Kellie > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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