First brush with K

[Guest guest]

I have meant to put this into words for some time and did on another

forum. I wanted to copy here. This was about 30 years ago.

 

 

 

The first time that I had the two primary experiences I thought that I

was dying. I thought that my body was shutting down and it scared me

a lot. I was just sitting on my bed and watching TV when it felt like

I was going away and I mean away.

 

My life was good as it always has been but I had not dealt with a lot

of the basic family trauma, emotional baggage, blah blah blah.

Nothing that I can remember triggered it. I suspect now that it was

some of the OBE stuff that I was doing that unleashed the Kundalini.

 

The doctors felt for sure that it was anxiety attacks and proscribed

Valium. They also gave me some sleeping pills. I hung on to them as a

safety blanket for a while but didn't take them.

 

I finally came to the realization (don't remember how I reached that

decision) that I needed to surrender to these feelings. I had been

fighting them off so that I didn't need to go to that death/oblivion

place. I had certainly not come to accept death or my part in this

glorious march to it. Death scared the sh1t out of me.

 

After flirting with the realization for some time I finally just let

go when the feelings came upon me. Rather than dying I had an

experience similar to when I die OB. A rushing and falling backwards

and dramatic energy shift and surge. It was actually quite enjoyable.

All the fear went away after that. The feelings came back every so

often for a while but I just enjoyed them. They stopped coming or I

just don't notice anymore. I can bring back the overpowering feeling

by moving energy up and down my spine area through my energetic body

(not the physical one). It just about blacks me out (very pleasurable)

..... then my life usually takes a jump shift.

 

Lots learned about fear, letting go, trust and change. Hard to

remember what was learned at what stage in my life and after what

experience. Probably isn't linear anyway.

 

BlessU

Sam

[Guest guest]

A great example of the choice of surrender Sam. Thank you for posting

it. Death from a Kundalini standpoint is often merely the increased

paradigm engaging a consciousness on the brink of self discovery. And

it is strong and in many ways amazing. - blessings Sam and good to

read you again! - chrism

[Guest guest]

I miss that... I haven't had an OBE in years (sniff). But I became very

familiar with the falling sensation and the momentary blackness that followed.

I hadn't thought of Kundalini feeling similarly however - I guess that would be

strange during a normal daily activity.

 

 

.... A rushing and falling backwards

and dramatic energy shift and surge. It was actually quite enjoyable.