Self - Sufficiency another angle

July 30, 2008

I just realised something, I am self sufficient in my own way and I've been

trained in becoming self sufficient for about two years, since I came to china

actually.

My husband always worked and earned the money, he paid the bills, I leaned on

him alot.

Since coming to China I have become the money earner, I have lived without my

hubby and taken in people and looked after them totally self sufficient.

Maybe not growing my own food but emotionally, mentally and financially.

I guess I never saw it as i was too busy feeling sorry for myself earlier! Not

anymore, I feel empowered.

I may not have the tree and the garden but I gave up so many things alone in a

stressful enviroment in the worst possible conditions for my kundalini, and

Shakti is guiding me more and more.

I'm looking at this from a whole new perspective now :-))

Self sufficient can mean so many things really.

Thanks family for being there

elektra x x x

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July 30, 2008

Hey Elektra, (and to all the others stuck in the Ukraine and

scattered around planet earth )

well, i can understand somewhat what you are going through. I also

dont have too many possesions, like houses, cars or money, and I am

kind of stuck in Taiwan teaching. I dont like to use the

word 'stuck'...rather, I just have to be creative how to move on in

life.

I tried to start a business in South Africa a few years ago, and

about the same time, K. really kicked in and I was dysfunctional in

many ways as a result..(I had continuous symptoms for months and

months..and K. is still continuous)..so I failed in that attempt,

used up my money and went back to work. In many ways it was a hige

blessing as many of my deep fears about money were bought into

awareness and let go (it was too painful to hold on)

Most of my family has left SA for England so I dont have a home there

anymore, and I have had to hold down a job in Taiwan teaching and

riding out the K. process, in a foreign land and away from family and

friends. Its been difficult and non-ideal, however, the process has

forced me to let of go of attachments to how my world around should

be, and I have leared increasingly to find strength within me, with

Spirit or Shakti as my source, and to trust that source. The

situations are only difficult when you resist (I know, easier said

than done)..and I have learned to appreciate the difficulty, as my

preferences and comfort zones and dependancies are bought quicker

into awareness and I am given the oportunity to experience them and

dissolve them with awareness....

love and strength

Bruce

, Elektra Fire

<elektra.fire wrote:

>

> I just realised something, I am self sufficient in my own way and

I've been trained in becoming self sufficient for about two years,

since I came to china actually.

>

>> I may not have the tree and the garden but I gave up so many

things alone in a stressful enviroment in the worst possible

conditions for my kundalini, and Shakti is guiding me more and more.

> I'm looking at this from a whole new perspective now :-))

> Self sufficient can mean so many things really.

>

> Thanks family for being there

> elektra x x x

>

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July 30, 2008

Yes you are, beautiful one!!!! --- On Wed, 7/30/08, Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote:

Elektra Fire <elektra.fire Self - Sufficiency another angle Date: Wednesday, July 30, 2008, 7:40 AM

I just realised something, I am self sufficient in my own way and I've been trained in becoming self sufficient for about two years, since I came to china actually.My husband always worked and earned the money, he paid the bills, I leaned on him alot.Since coming to China I have become the money earner, I have lived without my hubby and taken in people and looked after them totally self sufficient.Maybe not growing my own food but emotionally, mentally and financially.I guess I never saw it as i was too busy feeling sorry for myself earlier! Not anymore, I feel empowered.I may not have the tree and the garden but I gave up so many things alone in a stressful enviroment in the worst possible conditions for my kundalini, and Shakti is guiding me more and more.I'm looking at this from a whole new perspective now :-))Self sufficient can mean so many things really.Thanks family for being thereelektra

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