Guest guest Posted August 4, 2008 Report Share Posted August 4, 2008 i read a lot on the group, but don't post a whole lot. lately i have really been having trouble forgiving certain people....mainly because of my own ego...they were wrong to act they way they did and i don't deserve that...i need to learn to let that go. one of the reasons i don't post often (especially when i'm frustrated like i have been lately) i feel like i might bring people down w/ my negative energy and i don't want to do that so i don't post. however, in reading through a lot of the posts today i found myself in tears (not sad or upset, but not necessarily of joy either...not sure what..lol) and had butterflys in my stomach...it was a good feeling like something in me was opening up...i just want to thank you all for all of the wonderful posts lately. several of them i have " starred " so i can go back and reread them and reread them again... brandyk Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 4, 2008 Report Share Posted August 4, 2008 Hi Brandy, Your post touched me to the bottom of my heart.... Brandy, if I may speak for you for just a second...., PLEASE never be afraid to post in fear of bringing others down. I thing that is what this group is all about. I can sense by your post that you are a very sensitive and kind hearted person, that I bet ...has much to say, and much to offer. I had a friend that told me she never wanted to tell me her problems, for fear of bringing me down, and my response to her, was... " Well than how will I ever know how or when to pray for you if you don't tell me " ? I think it is critical to lay it all on the table, to allow others the gift of helping you. Serving others is a rare and precious privilege. I take my prayer life to heart, and if someone is in need of help/prayer... I feel it is a wonderful opportunity God has given me to serve him and others. Some days, that is the ONLY way I can find joy, is when I lose myself in service to others. So you would actually be doing many of us a favor in your request for prayer. Big Hug to you, Sharon --- On Mon, 8/4/08, Brandy Kelley <divarep wrote: Brandy Kelley <divarep this wonderful group Monday, August 4, 2008, 9:19 PM i read a lot on the group, but don't post a whole lot. lately i have really been having trouble forgiving certain people....mainly because of my own ego...they were wrong to act they way they did and i don't deserve that...i need to learn to let that go. one of the reasons i don't post often (especially when i'm frustrated like i have been lately) i feel like i might bring people down w/ my negative energy and i don't want to do that so i don't post. however, in reading through a lot of the posts today i found myself in tears (not sad or upset, but not necessarily of joy either...not sure what..lol) and had butterflys in my stomach...it was a good feeling like something in me was opening up...i just want to thank you all for all of the wonderful posts lately. several of them i have " starred " so i can go back and reread them and reread them again... brandyk Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 4, 2008 Report Share Posted August 4, 2008 Hi Brandy, it's good to hear from you. You have been on my mind a lot lately. I should have send you an e-mail..shame one me. We are here for you, rain or shine. We all have those days when we need a little help. No need to stay away at those times. There is enough positive here to cover over a mutitude of neg. Blessings & love, Linda , " Brandy Kelley " <divarep wrote: > > i read a lot on the group, but don't post a whole lot. lately i have really > been having trouble forgiving certain people....mainly because of my own > ego...they were wrong to act they way they did and i don't deserve that...i > need to learn to let that go. one of the reasons i don't post often > (especially when i'm frustrated like i have been lately) i feel like i might > bring people down w/ my negative energy and i don't want to do that so i > don't post. however, in reading through a lot of the posts today i found > myself in tears (not sad or upset, but not necessarily of joy either...not > sure what..lol) and had butterflys in my stomach...it was a good feeling > like something in me was opening up...i just want to thank you all for all > of the wonderful posts lately. several of them i have " starred " so i can go > back and reread them and reread them again... > > brandyk > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 6, 2008 Report Share Posted August 6, 2008 Brandy, I know what you mean, I have been going through my shadow side a lot recently, thats why I tried to write about it on the list, its nothing to be ashamed of, it's a part of who we are, if we can't talk about it here where can we talk about it. Spiritual progress isn't all hearts and flowers , sometimes our ego takes us in to a quagmire of despair/hurt/sadness and we need to be free to express the good with the bad without fear of judgement. So, you just let it all out love, we are all here for you warts and all. Write me offlist if you like, to just let off steam :-)) HUGS and loves elektra x x x ________ Not happy with your email address?. Get the one you really want - millions of new email addresses available now at http://uk.docs./ymail/new.html Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 6, 2008 Report Share Posted August 6, 2008 Hi Brandy, how you doing? just to let you know that I went through, and probably still will go through, a lot of low points in the K process. It does get lonely and hard and tiring so no problems about sharing the process. Its incredible how much shadow I had to work with, and its exhausting. something I find really useful for forgiveness is doing shadow work. Do you know the 3-2-1 Shadow process from the Integral Life Practice (ILP) kit? It's quick and easy to use and helped me a lot with dealing with boundaries I had relating to undesierable qualities, both in myself and in others. If you like, just email me and I will send you a description of the process and you can try it out. The other thing I found really useful was the Big Mind process by Genpo Roshi, also from the ILP kit. I dont know if you know the process or not; one thing it does is teach you to dialogue with the dualistic ego voices, such as the victim or the controller, and then to step put of that voice, helping create movement with the mind. I dont have a write up of it, but its worth checking out... hang in there love Bruce i read a lot on the group, but don't post a whole lot. lately i have really > been having trouble forgiving certain people....mainly because of my own > ego...they were wrong to act they way they did and i don't deserve that...i > need to learn to let that go. one of the reasons i don't post often Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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