Guest guest Posted August 15, 2008 Report Share Posted August 15, 2008 People often have severe difficulty with this subject. They feel as if they are laying down all of their defenses that they have nurtured and developed and woven into a tight enclosure around themselves to protect them from harm. And they are correct. On one level. If you are not afraid than there is no need for such an enclosure. In life in our current society there is still some need for this defense mechanism. But inside of the Kundalini there is no room for it. Yet due to the Kundalini reputation and its strengths the person will still feel drawn to the familiar artifice and comfort of defense. Yet there is no defense against the Kundalini. It is inside of you and is part of you and knows you better than you know yourself! You do not defend against your arms or your legs do you? You do not defend against your eyelashes or your heart do you? And even if you could. Why would you? Same goes for the Kundalini. It will begin to unburden you of your fears. Not by taking them away but by giving you direct experience with them. The opportunity to release them. Remember there are reasons why you fear what you fear. Other existence or Karma or a difficult childhood, it's a long list. Kundalini gives you your fears so that you may progress beyond these fears by coming face to face with them and balancing them. And yes some of them are pretty bad and scary and so must your resolve be as strong! Giant snakes and spiders are mere representations of the Shakti as are dancing blue maidens and dancing blue men and they are not as closely related to your own special fears - unless they are. Fear of water or heights or certain animals like sharks or wolves or bears. Predators that you may have a past relationship with can often come back for balancing when the Kundalini begins to clean out your fear closet. So you must surrender to these fears. Let them come and let them do what they will do. But do not back down or huddle in petrified fear as you may have once done. You change the outcome by reversing the emotion or the actions. This is no small thing. Those of you who have been molested and tortured as children know exactly what I am writing of here. Fear attaches the experience to the person. Facing the fear releases it. Kundalini has a plan for each and every one of you. As she did and does for me. We are not apprised of this plan unless Shakti desires for it to be so. Kundalini Shakti will choose which fear to present you with and when. There are reasons for this choice and it is for your benefit and for your continued ability to surrender these fears that certain themes are used and others left alone. So do not feel as if you can second guess what will occur. Surrender your fearful expectations. With private students I ask them to surrender every aspect of their lives to my jurisdiction. This in reality is my Kundalini's jurisdiction but most students don't quite get that. They are still ensconced in the ego world. This is a test in and of itself. Not many can do this. Yet it is crucial for there ability as a practice to surrender everything to the Shakti. It requires trust and fearlessness and love and faith. Not easy qualities to come by in real life. This begins the process of surrender to their Kundalini as it is in fact easier to surrender to an in your face teacher than one who comes to you in dreams and visions often in forms that can be very terrifying. So know this and also know that for every fear you balance you will be gifted with an immense joy and an all pervading love as you continue to climb up the Kundalini ladder one rung at a time, assisted and guided by your Kundalini teachers within and outside of your self. - blessings all - chrism Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 18, 2008 Report Share Posted August 18, 2008 I have been thinking about this subject since you posted this, Chrism. I am having a very hard time surrendering my fears and other negative emotions, which seem to have magnified in the last few months. I don't know if it's part of my grief over the loss of my dad or not, but I feel like a different person now....sort of like a prisoner in a dark cell. I pray and I surrender all day and when I lay awake at night for hours, which is also happening very frequently. But nothing seems to change. This was a wonderful thought that Chris H. posted: ~~~~~~~~~ "When my emotions get overbearing I just take a step back to reflect on thereason why and ask shakti for guidance on understanding why theseemotions have come up and then to release them for balance."~~~~~~~~~~ It sounds so easy...so what's wrong with me that I can't do it?? The thing is...I've never been a fearful, negative person before now! This is all so new.... Bruce, this part of your recent post stood out to me: ~~~~~~~~ "K. has propelled me on a journey to self-understanding and self-realization, and in doing so, I have had to become deeply curious about myself. In a sense, I have had to have a relentless curiosity about what is occuring within, as well as a love for each of my perspectives, even when a perspective may appear to be divisive and reactionary." ~~~~~~~~ I feel much internal divisiveness these days... And then in your latest post, Bruce: ~~~~~~~~ "I feel unbearably alone or seperate and go through deep darkness, and then there is a breakthrough and its okay again and I am joyful and faithful and my sense of humor returns and i want to go dancing..that kind of stuff...I have learnt to kind of hunt in the darkness, and find the roots of the suffering..." ~~~~~~~~ It was encouraging to read that there is a breakthrough after the darkness....as was this part of Nicole's post today: ~~~~~~~~ "Bruce,I feel divided and so alone at times too and that brings on suffering but it's always followed by a breakthrough which brings acceptance through faith and joy." ~~~~~~~~ I really need a breakthrough right now! Chrism, you have told me that losing my dad in the process of my awakening is very difficult, that the grief is amplified by the K. I really thought I was making some progress in that regard but perhaps not. I get the feeling that this is Kundalini amplifying my fears, grief, and other negative emotions, and I guess I'm asking for your and others' thoughts and advice on this seeming dark impasse that I have reached. Thank you, Claudia , "chrism" <> wrote: People often have severe difficulty with this subject. They feel as if they are laying down all of their defenses that they have nurtured and developed and woven into a tight enclosure around themselves to protect them from harm. And they are correct. On one level. If you are not afraid than there is no need for such an enclosure. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 18, 2008 Report Share Posted August 18, 2008 At 01:32 PM 8/18/2008, you wrote: I've never been a fearful, negative person before now! Stop right there. Look at your languaging. You are experiencing fear and negativity ... does that have to make you a fearful, negative person? Think on that one ;-) ... it's deeper than it looks. Brandi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 18, 2008 Report Share Posted August 18, 2008 Are you talking semantics?? Sorry, I said it wrong..."I am experiencing fear and other negative emotions." Better? I agree that it does not make me a negative, fearful person. "It's deeper than it looks." Sounds ominous, lol....got any advice? Or should I get me to a nuttery? Claudia --- On Mon, 8/18/08, Brandi Jasmine <jazztalk wrote: Brandi Jasmine <jazztalkRe: Re: Fears and surrender Date: Monday, August 18, 2008, 2:09 PM At 01:32 PM 8/18/2008, you wrote: I've never been a fearful, negative person before now! Stop right there.Look at your languaging. You are experiencing fear and negativity ... does that have to make you a fearful, negative person?Think on that one ;-) ... it's deeper than it looks.Brandi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 18, 2008 Report Share Posted August 18, 2008 At 02:25 PM 8/18/2008, you wrote: Are you talking semantics?? " I don't normally experience fear and other negative emotions " has a very different meaning from " I am not normally a fearful, negative person " . The one implies the emotions are of the moment. The other implies an expectation that the fearful, negative conditions will continue. It implies that fearful and negative is what believe you are becoming. If you give that message to others, likewise you give it to yourself, don't you? It's important to look at that beyond semantics because we do this all the time. We don't say " I have depression " , we say " I AM depressed " . We don't say " That made me angry " , we say " I AM angry " . We *become* the emotion. Languaging - the art of conscious speaking - goes far beyond semantics, if you do believe in the notion that we create our own reality. Brandi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 18, 2008 Report Share Posted August 18, 2008 Sorry you are feeling so bad Claud! It seems that we have both been going through dark times recently. The feeling I am starting to get is that Shakti is bringing up all these things that we need to deal with so we can move up to the next level of our development. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Granted, it looks pretty far away right now....but we'll get there! If it was all hearts and flowers, how much would we really appreciate it? Hard times make us stronger. You're a tough lady, I know you will keep climbing up that mountain and I'll be right there next to you! Sarita , Claudia <newtfoodbowl wrote:>> > > I have been thinking about this subject since you posted this, Chrism. I am having a very hard time surrendering my fears and other negative emotions, which seem to have magnified in the last few months. I don't know if it's part of my grief over the loss of my dad or not, but I feel like a different person now....sort of like a prisoner in a dark cell. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 19, 2008 Report Share Posted August 19, 2008 At 09:24 PM 8/18/2008, you wrote: If it was all hearts and flowers, how much would we really appreciate it? All sunshine makes deserts. Brandi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 19, 2008 Report Share Posted August 19, 2008 Claudia I find being out in nature to be very healing. Do you spend any time outside? Sitting on the earth or gardening? even just reading or listening to the insects and birds. Being outside may help you find that beauty and passion for life that seems to disappear when we are grieving for a loved one. Also we each have angels and guides that help us if we ask them. Please ask them for help in working through /releasing this grief. Please remember too that " death " is just a passing into the next state, we shed our physical bodies but our spiritual selves remain and are actually much happier because we have left behind all the baggage we have here in our physical form. Your father probably comes and visits you. Mine would make the lights go off and on. And I can still sometimes feel my cat who passed jump on the bed beside me and sometimes will even see him. Even knowing this I know the physical separation from a loved one is still hard. I hope something I've said helps you. blessings Tilly , Claudia <newtfoodbowl wrote: > > > > I have been thinking about this subject since you posted this, Chrism. I am having a very hard time surrendering my fears and other negative emotions, which seem to have magnified in the last few months. I don't know if it's part of my grief over the loss of my dad or not, but I feel like a different person now....sort of like a prisoner in a dark cell. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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