in the womb of kali *... just shown this to .... :)

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chrism , much love , respect and reverence , you were justly

> kicking my bum , for being a lazy writer.. and lazy thinker.

> i see that now. you are trying to take me and everyone to be the

> best we can be..

> in life i get away with murder, you are a great teacher that wont

> allow me to lax.

> as the spiritual journey is a tough one. thanks for the loving

> boot..

>

> i have been making my past posts condensed , as i know we have fast

> lives and things to do , assuming all knew my meaning,

> sorry for this ,

>

> here are my discoveries ,i have been wrestling with my dark side,

> before the spat with chrism...caused me great confusion..

> please god let this be on topic...

>

> in my darkness, which is no longer a fearful place ,

> but actually the comforting womb of the mother goddess kali,

> the dark sea of void , where we came from and where we will

return.

> i had reason to question my wanting* a shaktipat attunement.

> my thoughts began as egoic, self centered, hurt pride at my rift

> with chrism..

> but then a change occured . i got over myself and

> looked inside, spoke with shakti, the question i had was, who is

> the *i

> that wants* to recieve an attunement. i was looking at my roots of

> desire..

> a fire sprang up in my manipura chakra..the chakra of kali ..

> it was an egoic drive of desire. the short cut , that chrism always

> warns me of.

> for me to have a shaktipat attunement wouldent be my quest or

> the heros journey that joseph campbell describes.

>

> as in reality we are all already there. in a higher reality we*

> are just a character in the drama of our mind .

> to get there , its simple . just open , your heart

> and the kundalini weavers will relate to you that

> all the heavens and all the hells are within ,

> just waiting to be embraced with love..no need to fear.

>

> with all of our family's wonderful mails full of love,

> my heart chakra opened wide and spun so high to a point way

beyond

> anything ,

> i could possibly contemplate... i came back to share it with

you ..

>

> wheather don is showing me god through his eyes of eden,

> or when linda and i researching religion and christ,

> julie and elektra with pure hearted friendship.

> the way dhyana just wraps you in her love and makes everything

> better.

> carol that taught me its ok, to embrace my darkness, to find the

> light..my biggest lesson.

> and everyone for being there when times were troubled,,

> the many lessons you have taught me in such a short time..

>

> for me , what makes me soar and experience god, like nothing else

> are these connections we share. the open hearted , free flow of

> kundalini lifeforce , i call love.

> the vehicle is unimportant , the connections of selfless love ,

> without desire is all..........

>

> and you guys got it!!

>

> love paula..

>

[Guest guest]

Sweet Paula,

 

So wonderful to read you again. Write slow and give us time to keep

up! Quite a journey here, huh? lol!

 

Warm love and hugs,

dhyana

 

, " alayafire "

<ari.reza wrote:

>

> chrism , much love , respect and reverence , you were justly

> > kicking my bum , for being a lazy writer.. and lazy thinker.

> > i see that now. you are trying to take me and everyone to be the

> > best we can be..

> > in life i get away with murder, you are a great teacher that wont

> > allow me to lax.

> > as the spiritual journey is a tough one. thanks for the loving

> > boot..

> >

> > i have been making my past posts condensed , as i know we have fast

> > lives and things to do , assuming all knew my meaning,

> > sorry for this ,

> >

> > here are my discoveries ,i have been wrestling with my dark side,

> > before the spat with chrism...caused me great confusion..

> > please god let this be on topic...

> >

> > in my darkness, which is no longer a fearful place ,

> > but actually the comforting womb of the mother goddess kali,

> > the dark sea of void , where we came from and where we will

> return.

> > i had reason to question my wanting* a shaktipat attunement.

> > my thoughts began as egoic, self centered, hurt pride at my rift

> > with chrism..

> > but then a change occured . i got over myself and

> > looked inside, spoke with shakti, the question i had was, who is

> > the *i

> > that wants* to recieve an attunement. i was looking at my roots of

> > desire..

> > a fire sprang up in my manipura chakra..the chakra of kali ..

> > it was an egoic drive of desire. the short cut , that chrism always

> > warns me of.

> > for me to have a shaktipat attunement wouldent be my quest or

> > the heros journey that joseph campbell describes.

> >

> > as in reality we are all already there. in a higher reality we*

> > are just a character in the drama of our mind .

> > to get there , its simple . just open , your heart

> > and the kundalini weavers will relate to you that

> > all the heavens and all the hells are within ,

> > just waiting to be embraced with love..no need to fear.

> >

> > with all of our family's wonderful mails full of love,

> > my heart chakra opened wide and spun so high to a point way

> beyond

> > anything ,

> > i could possibly contemplate... i came back to share it with

> you ..

> >

> > wheather don is showing me god through his eyes of eden,

> > or when linda and i researching religion and christ,

> > julie and elektra with pure hearted friendship.

> > the way dhyana just wraps you in her love and makes everything

> > better.

> > carol that taught me its ok, to embrace my darkness, to find the

> > light..my biggest lesson.

> > and everyone for being there when times were troubled,,

> > the many lessons you have taught me in such a short time..

> >

> > for me , what makes me soar and experience god, like nothing else

> > are these connections we share. the open hearted , free flow of

> > kundalini lifeforce , i call love.

> > the vehicle is unimportant , the connections of selfless love ,

> > without desire is all..........

> >

> > and you guys got it!!

> >

> > love paula..

> >

>

[Guest guest]

dhyana my turn to give you the really huge hug this time..

thankyou ..much love paulaxx

[Guest guest]

Dearest Paula, that was beautiful to read.

 

I think many of us here have been facing the ego and our shadows, they are not

to be ashamed of, but to be embarced and seen as just more divinity in

expression. Just like you put it, the womb of Kali! love it.

 

I think the ego is really kicking and screaming right now and bring havoc to

many, I for one have been having the battle of the ego going on throughot this

tour I'm on right now.

But, you know what, I wouldn't have it any other way, and to share it with you

and all these wonderful people here is the only way I'd have it.

I love you dearly and am so glad you are back with us to share your tender heart

and loving words.

YIPPEEEEEEEE

love e x x x

 

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[Guest guest]

thanks e

 

the thing that amazed me most when i came back is that we are as a

family, all going through the same thing, at the same time..

i expected to be the only one..

 

seems shakti has our group bonded, growing in sync!!

 

happy to be back

paula xx