Peace

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The journey keeps on unfolding..each day brings new change, new

development. I saw a man with a huge tumor on the side of his head

today that deformed him horribly. I did Tonglen practice...breathing

his tumor into my heart, feeling his suffering, and breathing back

love from my heart towards his (imagined) now handsome face. I am

thinking of him now; what suffering he has to endure and how grateful

I am to be normal. I realized that the gift of peace (which I will

write about) is for everyone, and how miraculous if he could also

liberated. And then, marvelling at existance, at creation. Just

looking at all the people on the subway, seeing how each person is

the center of their world and sees the world in their own way. Just

astounded and amazed that we are here, that the miracle of life

exists, that the miracle of death exists. Creation is astonishing;

how small our minds are that we become blase about the show we

witness every day.

 

Three weeks ago. I had a strong often unbearable helmet. There were

dreams of a white haired young man with shining light around his head.

Two weeks ago. I had burning heat every morning, and many of my

positive attachments came into awareness. My crown chakra twitched a

lot..For a week I was tired and exhausted until they were released.

 

Dreams the last two nights…

1. I go towards a large room. My feet are washed by someone before I

enter the room. I go inside and there is a magnificent presence, of

enormous grace and goodness and power. Reverence is my only response.

 

2. I am again with my Tibetan Master. We are in a room in a house

together, and we watch TV. I find out he also likes tennis and

understands science, just like I do. There are beautiful girls on TV;

we both watch. I am pleasantly surprised at how open he is. There is

rain outside. A white dove flies down from the sky through the rain

and lands by the window. One of the masters servants opens the window

and brings the dove to me, placing it on my shoulder. I stroke the

dove, and then it flies off.

 

Today I have felt peace. A line from somewhere in the bible kept

coming to me `the peace that surpasses understanding'. Peace is

sublime and beautiful, almost immaculately soft and gentle. It's not

a state of mind or a way of thinking. It's not something that can be

known. It's not the feeling of relaxation you may have after coming

back from vacation. As the line goes, it's beyond understanding. I

pray that all of you may get to experience this gift.

 

As I write this, I can feel neck and shoulder tension starting again…

here we go again??

 

Blessings to all..

Love Bruce