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Hi,

 

It was suggested to me that I join this group because of what I have been

posting on the

OBE newsletter message board. Rather than write it all over again, I will

simply copy and

paste the portion that is relevant. Keep in mind that I have no experience with

any

terminology or philosophies associated with any of this. I wasn't even aware

anyone

discussed anything like this, and have been on my own for the last twenty-six

years.

 

I have been experiencing this since I was 12 years old. I'm 38 now and have

seen and felt

things that I've never seen described on any of these sites. When I first

experienced this at

12, I was really frightened and had no idea what was going on. Nobody could

explain

what I was trying to describe to them. Everyone thought it was really strange.

As time

went on, I began to realize that I could control myself in this state and

learned how to

wake myself up. I was not afraid because i knew that nothing bad could happen

to me...or

so I thought. Around the time I turned 20, things took a drastic turn. I lost

control of my

of the OBE's and began to encounter things that I didn't want any part of. I

began to be

able to walk around my room although not voluntarily. I heard voices and was

attacked

several times by things that I can only describe as energy that looked like the

shape of a

man without a face...just a shadow. When it would attack me, it would lunge at

me, and

as soon as it struck me, I would feel like I was being hit by a lightning bolt.

I felt a very

powerful electric shock that made my body rock. This started to happen almost

every

night for about a year, and some of it started to cross over into my everyday

awake life.

This is the part where I should mention that I do not have any psychological

problems, nor

do I use drugs, suffer from delusions, or any sort of depression. I'm a normal

guy with a

normal life and family. I am very perceptive of my surroundings and of other

people, and

I'm often the person who is sought for advice. So now back my experiences.

After most

of the episodes that I just described, I would get a phone call that would

simply hang-up

as soon as I answered. This was before the *69 days, so I could never find out

where the

calls were coming from. Only once did someone answer the phone, and it was a

woman

screaming bloody murder in spanish, begging for help because someone was trying

to

break into her house. Then she hung up and I never heard from her again. After

that very

scary year, I stopped having OBE's for quite sometime. When they did occur they

were

mild and calm again. When I was married I told my wife about them, and she even

got to

see it happening to me. You see, I can fall into an OBE with my eyes wide open

and can

see everyone around me...but that's not all I see. I can partially move my feet

and my

hands, blink and roll my eyes, and with a little effort even speak. Although

I've entered

this state in my sleep, I can also enter it while I am awake. In the last

couple of years I

have experienced being touched while I lay in bed before I fall asleep. That

has been kind

of freaky since I'm not even in an OBE at the time. I just feel a hand gently

come to rest on

my back, which of course makes me jump! But the OBE's have taken a new course

once

again. You see now I feel the presence of something with me when they occur.

This

something does not feel like a good thing. The feeling that I get in the OBE

now is that

this thing is trying to pull me out of my body against my will. I feel like it

is trying to enter

my body at the same time. But since I am in control of my portion, I do not

fear it. I am

able to fight it and out muscle it and push it away. I even verbalize during

these " fights "

and tell it that it can't harm me and I reach out and dare it to let me get a

hold of it. I

decided to write because it wouldn't let me sleep tonight and it verbally

responded to me

today. When I told it to go away and let me sleep, it clearly said " no " . I

have spoken to

others who have experienced OBE's and no one has ever been able to even come

close to

the experiences that I have. I view some of these sites and sometimes think

that many of

the writings here are a little misleading. I don't think many of people who

experience this

know what they're dealing with. There are a lot of things out there that are

not peaceful

and seem to want to cause harm. I will say that these experiences have

enlightened me,

given me great perception, and taken away many fears. I am a God fearing and

believing

person and I believe that since there's a God, there is also a devil, and a lot

of stuff in

between. I can't prove it, but I believe that what I'm seeing is a lot of that

in between

stuff