Not very sure about this

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This is a new one for me. My energy practice is very selfish. Ego I guess.

It is centered inward to fight my cancer. Somewhere, along my way, I have

managed to train myself to merge with some sort of energy field. The

natural world led my way. I have a deep love of nature. I am accepted

there as one. When I first bought this property, I came here with a small

tent, but didn't bother with it, took off my clothes and lived for the

next month in the woods. The woods, and the air, the sun and especially

the stars took me in and made me their own. It is this energy I think I

tap into. It is this energy that has been shared so that I may be well.

It's also this energy that struck up a resonance with my K, and started it

all off. It's like I take a healing shower. Bathe in it, breath it in, the

more open I let myself be, the more it fills me.

 

My gratitude is beyond what words can say. In my little 60 acre eden I do

my " float " and surf the waves of the pure life energy that surrounds me.

It keeps me alive. Most days it is as easy as a finger lock, a deep

breath, relaxing and I am there. Other days it can be a bit harder. It

always has led to a sense of peace, openness, occasionally joy and bliss.

It is this peace I always try to share with you all. Toads, spiders,bats,

hawks, deer, and the silly rabbit.

 

Today was different. While the world around me ebbs and flows, creatures

die and are born, the baby turkeys are heartbreaking they are so cute.

Today I got very strong emotional content.

 

Sorrow, deep and enduring sorrow. Love, the kind that our language has no

words to express, pure emotion. Love that shakes you to your core. Sorrow.

 

I'm afraid there is a bad moon rising. The energy was full of sorrow and I

have never seen it like this. There is a disturbance in the force Yoda

says. It's new to me, this sorrow. It feels deep.

 

I open my eyes, and I realize they were full of tears.

 

Peace from my eden

 

Don

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I, too, have been feeling, this sorrow move in and out, and sometimes overwhelm my energy. I drug myself out of bed last night after a hard work to, forcing myself to go to yoga. in class, we did a kriya to allow us to "let go". Soemtimes you need to share your feelings, with a mate, a friend, a group, and the reason for doing this is to lighten this load, to cut it in half by giving it to the other person. But there are times when the other person says, "I don't need or want your stuff. It is YOUR stuff. I have my OWN stuff." This is the time to let go, to merge with the Divine, and to really give everything to this source, the GUru. Every hair on our head is numbered. Every breath we take, every word we speak is recorded. There is no reason to fear. There is no reason for sorrow. Our birthright is bliss, to

merge with the higher consciousness. I know what I need to do to keep this connection. I know to take care of my body as a temple, to practice the safeties, to practice my yoga, and to meditate, meditate, meditate. To get to the Zero space, the nothingness, the void. To remind myself to BREATHE.

 

I have the funnies picture in my mind of you running through the woods in that unclothed state. (hehe)

 

Namaste

Julie--- On Thu, 8/28/08, merlin <merlin wrote:

merlin <merlin Not very sure about this Date: Thursday, August 28, 2008, 10:23 PM

 

 

This is a new one for me. My energy practice is very selfish. Ego I guess.It is centered inward to fight my cancer. Somewhere, along my way, I havemanaged to train myself to merge with some sort of energy field. Thenatural world led my way. I have a deep love of nature. I am acceptedthere as one. When I first bought this property, I came here with a smalltent, but didn't bother with it, took off my clothes and lived for thenext month in the woods. The woods, and the air, the sun and especiallythe stars took me in and made me their own. It is this energy I think Itap into. It is this energy that has been shared so that I may be well.It's also this energy that struck up a resonance with my K, and started itall off. It's like I take a healing shower. Bathe in it, breath it in, themore open I let myself be, the more it fills me.My gratitude is beyond what words can say. In my little 60 acre eden I

domy "float" and surf the waves of the pure life energy that surrounds me.It keeps me alive. Most days it is as easy as a finger lock, a deepbreath, relaxing and I am there. Other days it can be a bit harder. Italways has led to a sense of peace, openness, occasionally joy and bliss.It is this peace I always try to share with you all. Toads, spiders,bats,hawks, deer, and the silly rabbit.Today was different. While the world around me ebbs and flows, creaturesdie and are born, the baby turkeys are heartbreaking they are so cute. Today I got very strong emotional content.Sorrow, deep and enduring sorrow. Love, the kind that our language has nowords to express, pure emotion. Love that shakes you to your core. Sorrow.I'm afraid there is a bad moon rising. The energy was full of sorrow and Ihave never seen it like this. There is a disturbance in the force Yodasays. It's new to me, this

sorrow. It feels deep.I open my eyes, and I realize they were full of tears.Peace from my edenDon

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> I, too, have been feeling, this sorrow move in and out, and sometimes

> overwhelm my energy. 

 

Hi Julie, hope you caught Chrims comments on it. He, of course, managed to

explain parts of it I just did not have the words to describe. The only

other thing I thought of, was a foreshadowing of things to come, when you

mentioned it, that came right to mind.

>  

> I have the funnies picture in my mind of you running through the woods in

> that unclothed state.  (hehe)

>  

So am I running away from something or am I trying to catch something?

 

VLC very large chuckle.

 

Peace

 

Don

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Hey Don,

Well, let's just say it was very "midsummer night's dreamish". I certainly hope you are feeling better. I keep you in my prayers. I just had this wonderful experience in yoga last night. I had been wanting a flower of life pendant to wear around my neck. It was the last thing I thought of in yoga meditation, "Where do I get one?". At the hotel today, a lady came up to me and said I had admired her necklace and she wanted me to have it. Sure enough, the flower of life pendant. She took it off her neck and gave it to me. Not like me to take anything from anyone, especially a stranger. But I felt this was meant for me.

 

Take care of yourself. How are the arms?

Julie--- On Fri, 8/29/08, merlin <merlin wrote:

merlin <merlinRe: Not very sure about this Date: Friday, August 29, 2008, 10:34 PM

 

 

> I, too, have been feeling, this sorrow move in and out, and sometimes> overwhelm my energy. Hi Julie, hope you caught Chrims comments on it. He, of course, managed toexplain parts of it I just did not have the words to describe. The onlyother thing I thought of, was a foreshadowing of things to come, when youmentioned it, that came right to mind.> > I have the funnies picture in my mind of you running through the woods in> that unclothed state. (hehe)> So am I running away from something or am I trying to catch something?VLC very large chuckle.PeaceDon

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> Our magical Merlin, you moved me to silence................

 

Now that is a truly magical feat !!! Hug!

 

 

> Is it possible to merge inside the cancer ,as you merge with your Eden?

> Embracing it ,losing your fear of it, discovering it's secrets as to

> why it materialised. Then when this is felt, I believe it will then

> transmute into light,healing or you will be at one with death ,

> becomming enlightened, and permanently free....

>

Everyone out here today is nailing it, that's pretty much what I have

done. To be honest, I actually pretty surprised I'm still alive. I've

worked against the odds for most of my time here. Chuckle, I was the

tower climber you called when no one else would climb. I threw away fear

a long time ago, I did not like the way it tastes. I have no fear of

death, I always figured I was fine before I was born into this world and

I'll be just fine after as well. There is a very calm and warm place

inside of me, it's been with me since I can remember. I'm beginning to

think that's a sense and a feeling of the K inside of me. Probably the

friend that has been with me the longest.

 

Then there's another part of me. When I got the diagnosis, I waited six

months and had another biopsy. Same findings but in a new location. Then

the talk of surgery, hormone treatment etc. I just said no, I'm not going

to have it. And I don't. My sons call me a stubborn old coot, which just

means when I set my mind to something, not much stands in my way. That

cancer may get me someday, but I'm not planning on it.

 

 

Now about that great beam of light shinning out of my butt, I'm not so sure.

 

 

Hugs back to you and thanks and gratitude for your concern.

Throw in some blessings for good measure and just a dab of

 

Peace

 

Don

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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That is so kewl, it surely was meant for you. There is an ebb and flow of

time, space, and eternity. Some things really are meant to be. Cherish it,

the universe knew it was yours. Geez and I get toads and spiders.

 

Actually the arms have taken some getting used to, the hands just radiate,

can be quite strange using the chain saw. From the wrists up to the elbows

now is active, but no where near as much as the hands. In fact that seems

to be an on and off thing, or at least my awareness of it is. I'm really

not quite sure what I'm going to do if this continues. Hard to imagine all

of my body feeling like this. If you have ever taken a nine volt battery

and put your tongue on the terminals, that's what it feels like.

 

Thinking of you with the weather coming, stay on top of it. There are now

4 storms headed into the gulf.

 

Be safe

 

Don

 

> Hey Don,

> Well, let's just say it was very " midsummer night's dreamish " .  I

> certainly hope you are feeling better.  I keep you in my prayers.  I just

> had this wonderful experience in yoga last night.  I had been wanting a

> flower of life pendant to wear around my neck.  It was the last thing I

> thought of in yoga meditation, " Where do I get one? " .  At the hotel today,

> a lady came up to me and said I had admired her necklace and she wanted me

> to have it.  Sure enough, the flower of life pendant.  She took it off her

> neck and gave it to me.  Not like me to take anything from anyone,

> especially a stranger.  But I felt this was meant for me. 

>  

> Take care of yourself.  How are the arms?

>

>

> Julie

>