what happened today

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ok so today i was meditating, when the sexual energy was once again

engolfing me...but this time i got a vision of a " snake " " reptile "

male thing

even though it didn't bring about any fear i was scare of it's

appearance

it kept trying to give me " oral " but i kept pushing it back

and away...to the point i call upon my angel by name to come and help

my angel came but the thing wouldn't go away

then my agel created like a " fuunel? " white on my head leaving the

top crown chakra open, the " thing " kept going around it trying to

get " in? "

then the reptile thing became a regular snake straight very straight

then i realize the snake was inside " someone " spine

i could see the " outline " but more then that is like i could see

inside the being and see the snake

it was on it's belly trying to give me oral

i mean i can even described the hair do the being had

it look " human "

when i saw it this way i relax and decided to see what happens

just as i began to get " deeper " more relax, my daughter came into

the room and startle me a bit

i still had the sexual energy but couldn't get back to that state

again

i'm weak and couldn't take the sexual tension any more and was

getting frustrated with the invaility to get back...

well the end is that i relieve myself

but since i did it...i have this " weight " on what it feels like my

orange chakra area

and it hurts from time to time

it's almost feel like even though i relieve the body from the sexual

energy...is not complete?

is like the emotion is still there? not sure if i can word it any

better

 

what you think it means?

should i allowed it?