Guest guest Posted September 3, 2008 Report Share Posted September 3, 2008 Hi All... As we are about to be going into shaktipat soon ,I thought it might be useful to do some work on our shadows as a group, so that we feel, clear and happy as we meet our mother. The Hoichol Indians of Mexico have such a ceremony before they eat their holy sacrement* that allows them to travel within their consciousness. They have a string and they make a knot in it for everything they want to confess or everthing that is fearful to them. Then when their group meets they air their woes and burn their knot in the fire. Their friends then help them to work out their problems so that they can visit with the god/dess with a clear heart, and less fear. I'll got first, eeks.. FEAR.. My biggest fear is for my kids, I fear some natural disaster that will cause me to be separated from them, or they will be hurt. I feat they get a terrible uncurable illness. CONFESSION.. I use the old boys network to get work completed faster, Britain is a great big bureaucracy and if I didn't use it , work would not move.. Anyway , if ya fancy playing then think of an emotion , fear, thought, memory or confession you want to rid yourself of and flame it . You can do it privately or here with all of us to give you our take and help out on it.Then when we go into shaktipat we'll be clear , confident and ready. love paula.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 3, 2008 Report Share Posted September 3, 2008 wow, paula, if thats all you have to confess you are not doing to badly love!!! my confessions can fill a whole page! And I have already confessed many to the group including my worst most painful memory of me and my shadow! I thought I had HIV for some time, when I met my now husband I did not tell him the full reality of my " belief " that I was sick and went on to have unprotected sex with him. I then lived many years with him, believing I had infected him with a deadly virus and was in fact a m8rder3r. We had also agreed to both get tested before we took the condom off, he did but i skipped the hiv test and told him i'd had it, the truth is I was too afraid. I lied to him. To kill another (or think you have), especially the one you love, is a horrible thing to carry around in your soul and yet and I did that and carried that. Made no difference it was all illusion and that infact I was not ill at all, in my mind I thought I was really sick and I did not tell him and had the sex without protection when I had never done anything like that before, all the while a voice in my head was telling me to do it, and saying " this is your destiny, don't question it " . So, I didn't question. I later told hubby everything, as I have found great peace in fessing up every single thing in my life with hubby that i thought needed to be said, we have no lies or secrets between us, he knows every sordid detail and loves me completely. Shadow and all. love elektra x x x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 4, 2008 Report Share Posted September 4, 2008 You are truly BLESSED!!!! So happy for you and your hubby.......... Julie--- On Wed, 9/3/08, Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: Elektra Fire <elektra.fireRe: SHAKTIPAT and the shadow* Date: Wednesday, September 3, 2008, 10:24 PM wow, paula, if thats all you have to confess you are not doing to badly love!!!my confessions can fill a whole page!And I have already confessed many to the group including my worst most painful memory of me and my shadow!I thought I had HIV for some time, when I met my now husband I did not tell him the full reality of my "belief" that I was sick and went on to have unprotected sex with him.I then lived many years with him, believing I had infected him with a deadly virus and was in fact a m8rder3r.We had also agreed to both get tested before we took the condom off, he did but i skipped the hiv test and told him i'd had it, the truth is I was too afraid. I lied to him.To kill another (or think you have), especially the one you love, is a horrible thing to carry around in your soul and yet and I did that and carried that.Made no difference it was all illusion and that infact I was not ill at all, in my mind I thought I was really sick and I did not tell him and had the sex without protection when I had never done anything like that before, all the while a voice in my head was telling me to do it, and saying "this is your destiny, don't question it".So, I didn't question.I later told hubby everything, as I have found great peace in fessing up every single thing in my life with hubby that i thought needed to be said, we have no lies or secrets between us, he knows every sordid detail and loves me completely. Shadow and all.love elektra x x x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 4, 2008 Report Share Posted September 4, 2008 Hi Elektra Truth always succeds in the end, and you allowed it so. You have just explained what a belief can do, and then overcome that belief in spite of all your fear, and then the superb support of your hubby! You are truly blessed blessings and love nick --- On Wed, 3/9/08, Elektra Fire <elektra.fire wrote: > Elektra Fire <elektra.fire > Re: SHAKTIPAT and the shadow* > > Received: Wednesday, 3 September, 2008, 11:24 PM > wow, paula, if thats all you have to confess you are not > doing to badly love!!! > my confessions can fill a whole page! > And I have already confessed many to the group including my > worst most painful memory of me and my shadow! > > I thought I had HIV for some time, when I met my now > husband I did not tell him the full reality of my > " belief " that I was sick and went on to have > unprotected sex with him. > I then lived many years with him, believing I had infected > him with a deadly virus and was in fact a m8rder3r. > We had also agreed to both get tested before we took the > condom off, he did but i skipped the hiv test and told him > i'd had it, the truth is I was too afraid. I lied to > him. > > To kill another (or think you have), especially the one you > love, is a horrible thing to carry around in your soul and > yet and I did that and carried that. > Made no difference it was all illusion and that infact I > was not ill at all, in my mind I thought I was really sick > and I did not tell him and had the sex without protection > when I had never done anything like that before, all the > while a voice in my head was telling me to do it, and saying > " this is your destiny, don't question it " . > So, I didn't question. > I later told hubby everything, as I have found great peace > in fessing up every single thing in my life with hubby that > i thought needed to be said, we have no lies or secrets > between us, he knows every sordid detail and loves me > completely. Shadow and all. > > love elektra x x x > > > > > --- > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 4, 2008 Report Share Posted September 4, 2008 u are truly BLESSED!!!! So happy for you and your > hubby.......... > > > Julie Funnily enough, on our anniversary which was 2nd september, I had a dream that night that I had given him HIV but I didn't have it. Shows I still carry this. I know this issue is at the route of many of my sexual problems as I closed my sexuality down after this belief kicked in. I have been working a lot to clear it, even now, after all this time. The shock of the whole incedent and the fear it generated in me at the time was the worst fear in my entire life. Now I've faced my worst fear at least I don't have to again. Lets hope I can finally release this fully. Thanks for listening x x x love elektra. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 4, 2008 Report Share Posted September 4, 2008 Have you seen this? http://postsecret.blogspot.com/ Brandi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 4, 2008 Report Share Posted September 4, 2008 At 05:22 PM 9/4/2008, you wrote: Loved it Brandi He's published several books worth of these postcards now, all of them best sellers. It's a hugely popular site - sort of like a " Confessional Box " for the Internet age. Brandi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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