Pain and Service -

September 8, 2008

Hello Maritza,

So good to hear from you. should be back soon and will be able

to offer some assistance. I put his name in the subject line so he

will see it right away.

Love, dhyana

, Maritza

Castrillon <mcastrillon_2000 wrote:

>

> Hello all:

>

> I thank all of you for your dedication to this group and although I

have not been as active I do read all of the e-mails each day just to

keep myself in the " loop of things " . Now, I find myself that I need

your support in maybe aiding me in understanding as to why I have

recently been feeling many illnesses such as:

> * A pain in my shoulder--stiff pain that comes and goes (just read

the e-mail below so I now understand this one)

> * A sharp pain at the bottom left of my abdomen and although

they performed a CAT scan regarding ALL of my internal organs it came

back normal

> * I am scheduled for a colonoscopy tomorrow as well

> * I have an infection in my lungs which has also caused an awful

cough with tight chest and laringitis

> I have to ask myself and ask all of you....what am I not doing that

I have to do?? I have surrendered to the K and I practice my

safeties. Am I missing something. I've been missing alot of work too

and that is a bit concerning for me as well. I need some help as to

be able to clarify what is it that I am not doing or lacking. I went

through a blissful stage and now it's blockage after

blockage......Please help!

>

> Thanks to all of you!!!!

> Maritza

>

> novalees <dhyana

>

> Monday, September 8, 2008 6:44:38 PM

> Pain and Service #6243

>

> Kundalini is a gift. A gift from the creator. A gift you can give to

> yourself by awakening it. Holding this gift is something else

> entirely. If you hold this physically activated spiritual energy

> inside you without moving it, in some places of your body a

> stagnation event can occur.

>

> A stagnation event is where the Kundalini infuses the body but

> certain areas resist the infusion due to emotional, or physical,

> mental blockages. This will feel like a burning sensation on the

> body. There are many people activating on this list now and I want

> you to be aware of this.

>

> The joints in the shoulders and the elbow can feel as if they are

> burning. Kind of feels like an arthritis symptom. It isn't. It is

> Kundalini getting into the body as is its mission. And it will do

> this no matter your pain

>

> So stretch and do the yoga, this is a service to yourself, flex the

> joints including the mandibular joints as the tooth pain can be most

> distracting. Do this daily get your routine going. Eyes up, tongue

> up, fingers locked (optional for the fingers)

>

> Stay away from hard liquor like vodka and whiskys. Watch your

> caffine intake.

>

> Do service for others. This one is a big deal. If you have engaged

> the Kundalini for personal selfish reasons and you are not giving of

> the love and kindness bestowed upon you, pain can result. Illness

> can result. As you give service to others a conditioning of the flow

> will occur. Kundalini is highly suseptable to the condition of love

> that we hold in ourselves.

>

> This Love must be given outward towards others. This action is a

> relief valve that allows the energy a point of expansion and

> release. Intake - outflow. If you only have intake problems are soon

> to follow. So give yourself a service by giving service to others. -

>

September 8, 2008

, Maritza

Castrillon <mcastrillon_2000 wrote:

>

> Hello all:

>

> I thank all of you for your dedication to this group and although I

have not been as active I do read all of the e-mails each day just to

keep myself in the " loop of things " . Now, I find myself that I need

your support in maybe aiding me in understanding as to why I have

recently been feeling many illnesses such as:

> * A pain in my shoulder--stiff pain that comes and goes (just read

the e-mail below so I now understand this one)

> * A sharp pain at the bottom left of my abdomen and although

they performed a CAT scan regarding ALL of my internal organs it came

back normal

> * I am scheduled for a colonoscopy tomorrow as well

> * I have an infection in my lungs which has also caused an awful

cough with tight chest and laringitis

> I have to ask myself and ask all of you....what am I not doing that

I have to do?? I have surrendered to the K and I practice my

safeties. Am I missing something. I've been missing alot of work too

and that is a bit concerning for me as well. I need some help as to

be able to clarify what is it that I am not doing or lacking. I went

through a blissful stage and now it's blockage after

blockage......Please help!

>

> Thanks to all of you!!!!

> Maritza

>

> novalees <dhyana

>

> Monday, September 8, 2008 6:44:38 PM

> Pain and Service #6243

>

> Kundalini is a gift. A gift from the creator. A gift you can give to

> yourself by awakening it. Holding this gift is something else

> entirely. If you hold this physically activated spiritual energy

> inside you without moving it, in some places of your body a

> stagnation event can occur.

>

> A stagnation event is where the Kundalini infuses the body but

> certain areas resist the infusion due to emotional, or physical,

> mental blockages. This will feel like a burning sensation on the

> body. There are many people activating on this list now and I want

> you to be aware of this.

>

> The joints in the shoulders and the elbow can feel as if they are

> burning. Kind of feels like an arthritis symptom. It isn't. It is

> Kundalini getting into the body as is its mission. And it will do

> this no matter your pain

>

> So stretch and do the yoga, this is a service to yourself, flex the

> joints including the mandibular joints as the tooth pain can be most

> distracting. Do this daily get your routine going. Eyes up, tongue

> up, fingers locked (optional for the fingers)

>

> Stay away from hard liquor like vodka and whiskys. Watch your

> caffine intake.

>

> Do service for others. This one is a big deal. If you have engaged

> the Kundalini for personal selfish reasons and you are not giving of

> the love and kindness bestowed upon you, pain can result. Illness

> can result. As you give service to others a conditioning of the flow

> will occur. Kundalini is highly suseptable to the condition of love

> that we hold in ourselves.

>

> This Love must be given outward towards others. This action is a

> relief valve that allows the energy a point of expansion and

> release. Intake - outflow. If you only have intake problems are soon

> to follow. So give yourself a service by giving service to others. -

>

September 9, 2008

Hello Chrism...glad to have you back. Let me tell you what has been going and maybe writing about it will help me get it out of my system.

First issue is lately I was having ALOT of incidents with my teenagers---alcohol, drugs, not making curfew, being late paying their own bills such as car, insurance etc... (20 & 21 y/o's) and unfortunately it was "follow the rules, pay your bills on time" or get out....so they left. Of course, they are older than 18 and it was probably time to get out but due to the circumstances in which they left it has been somewhat difficult for me. Although, I have to admit that my middle son (Jonathan) was just a hand full. I have 4 kids one is 14, 20, 21 and 23. Jonathan and Jr. are my oldest (they are the ones that left). They are both attending college but ever since they left I have not heard much from them. I've been been told by my ex that they are angry with me and I just feel like "how dare you", I'm terribly dissappointed as to the behavior that they were trying to get me to accept. It

was more like: mom take care of me, but let me do WHATEVER I want and there is no way that I would even accept that. So, I had rules they broke them and on the 3rd time you get an ultimatum...shape up or get out. They had 2 maids, food done, clothes washed, rooms clean, had a car, nice house, pleasant atmosphere but of course, like all teenagers pulling their weight and adhereng to rules was just too much to ask huh??? Well, "hit the road jack's" I said. No more.

Second issue.....there is a lady at my job who is just not on my good side. She is controlling, dominating and tries to micro-manage me although has no authority over it. I did sit down and talk to her and told her how I felt so I'm going to see how that develops. I do send her love and try my best to ignore her but at times I sincerely do want to ring her neck (figure of speech of course).

Third issue, my partner has been traveling SOOOO much (in 10 days out 20) so I think that I am going through the loneliness transition. I have been trying to do things on my own time while being alone but I'm having a little bit of a difficult time adapting to it and needless to say, I do feel a little edgy with everything that was going on with my boys and me taking on the responsibility alone.

Fourth issue....I had a full time maid living in our house but she quit (and one part time one that came in 2 times a week to help her out) because my partner travels alot and I work 9 hours mon=Fri so we are pretty much drained out when we come home. Of course, her quitting brought in MORE CHANGES, the kids had to have new rules such as "pick up your own mess" and although they did it,it was a CONSTANT chore to get them to do it properly. They all say I'm a neat freak....I say I don't want to live in the dumps. Maybe I am one, but maybe I'm not. I just like to have my house SPOTLESS at all times, what is wrong with that. My house reflects who I am as a person. Of course, my partner comes in so tired and doesn't want to do anything either sooooo....changes. EVERYONE must pick up after themselves whether they like it or not. There were 5 of us in this house and although the part time maid

started coming in 3 times a week well we still had to clean up when she wasn't. This made of course, everyone squirm and I was on top of them like there's no tomorrow. o.k. another change----yes, I've been through many changes lately.

Fifth issue....my EX-----OH MY GOD MY EX!!! Always in our business..always. Of course 10 years with my kiddos was a long time and my kiddos count very much on that support but there is not one thing that goes past my ex in my house. Everything is communicated through my kiddos and since hasn't moved on well.....you can imagine. EVERYTHING related to my kids does not go unnoticed, my kids have a very tight relationship and I must say much tighter that with Mj (my current parner with whom I've been with for 3 years) so you can imagine the stress that puts on Mj and I as well.

Maybe it's all the changes, maybe it's the past that will NEVER go away (like my ex) as long as the kids are involved, maybe it's the lady at my job, maybe it's the FULL time maid being gone, maybe it's not......don't know what it is. I think I'm just talking/typing too much. Do I make sense????

Maritza

<> Sent: Tuesday, September 9, 2008 12:35:10 AM Re: Pain and Service - CHRISM - Maritza

Hello Maritza,The tests will help your "conscious" mind make the connection that these are not illnesses that are defined by disease. They are defined by the Kundalini and as you intimate they are due to blockages. Please recapitulate and re address what blockages are present that stand out the most for you. Please also outline your practice and what you are doing daily. Do this here if you are comfortable and we can begin to make some progress towards your coming into balance with what has been given. -

September 9, 2008

Maritza,

If i was you I would spit the dummy. Let the kids be kids leave them

with the old man. Keep your partner away on his trips, leave the

worries of the office at the office. Go for a holiday spend a weekend

on an ashram or some type of spirtual comunity.

There I will meet new and different people. Maybe i would be taught

how to relax and breath in the fresh air of the county surrounds.

Thay may teach me asanas yoga nidra meditation or something similar

though the best thing i could do there understanding my current

situation outside friendly discussions with the people there would be

to do karma yoga or to help them with the function of there retreat.

Then after two or three days I will feel refreshed and fighting fit

to take on your concerns with a much more relaxed attitute.

Some time we all just have to get away to sort out our own thoughts

and impressions and get to something that resembles nature.

John.

I wish you luck

, Maritza

Castrillon <mcastrillon_2000 wrote:

>

> Hello Chrism...glad to have you back. Let me tell you what has

been going and maybe writing about it will help me get it out of my

system.

>

> First issue is lately I was having ALOT of incidents with my

teenagers---alcohol, drugs, not making curfew, being late paying

their own bills such as car, insurance etc... (20 & 21 y/o's) and

unfortunately it was " follow the rules, pay your bills on time " or

get out....so they left. Of course, they are older than 18 and it

was probably time to get out but due to the circumstances in which

they left it has been somewhat difficult for me. Although, I have to

admit that my middle son (Jonathan) was just a hand full. I have 4

kids one is 14, 20, 21 and 23. Jonathan and Jr. are my oldest (they

are the ones that left). They are both attending college but ever

since they left I have not heard much from them. I've been been told

by my ex that they are angry with me and I just feel like " how dare

you " , I'm terribly dissappointed as to the behavior that they were

trying to get me to accept. It was more like: mom take care of me,

but let me do

> WHATEVER I want and there is no way that I would even accept

that. So, I had rules they broke them and on the 3rd time you get an

ultimatum...shape up or get out. They had 2 maids, food done,

clothes washed, rooms clean, had a car, nice house, pleasant

atmosphere but of course, like all teenagers pulling their weight and

adhereng to rules was just too much to ask huh??? Well, " hit the road

jack's " I said. No more.

>

> Second issue.....there is a lady at my job who is just not on my

good side. She is controlling, dominating and tries to micro-manage

me although has no authority over it. I did sit down and talk to her

and told her how I felt so I'm going to see how that develops. I do

send her love and try my best to ignore her but at times I sincerely

do want to ring her neck (figure of speech of course).

>

> Third issue, my partner has been traveling SOOOO much (in 10 days

out 20) so I think that I am going through the loneliness

transition. I have been trying to do things on my own time while

being alone but I'm having a little bit of a difficult time adapting

to it and needless to say, I do feel a little edgy with everything

that was going on with my boys and me taking on the responsibility

alone.

>

> Fourth issue....I had a full time maid living in our house but she

quit (and one part time one that came in 2 times a week to help her

out) because my partner travels alot and I work 9 hours mon=Fri so we

are pretty much drained out when we come home. Of course, her

quitting brought in MORE CHANGES, the kids had to have new rules such

as " pick up your own mess " and although they did it,it was a CONSTANT

chore to get them to do it properly. They all say I'm a neat

freak....I say I don't want to live in the dumps. Maybe I am one,

but maybe I'm not. I just like to have my house SPOTLESS at all

times, what is wrong with that. My house reflects who I am as a

person. Of course, my partner comes in so tired and doesn't want to

do anything either sooooo....changes. EVERYONE must pick up after

themselves whether they like it or not. There were 5 of us in this

house and although the part time maid started coming in 3 times a

week well we still

> had to clean up when she wasn't. This made of course, everyone

squirm and I was on top of them like there's no tomorrow. o.k.

another change----yes, I've been through many changes lately.

>

> Fifth issue....my EX-----OH MY GOD MY EX!!! Always in our

business..always. Of course 10 years with my kiddos was a long time

and my kiddos count very much on that support but there is not one

thing that goes past my ex in my house. Everything is communicated

through my kiddos and since hasn't moved on well.....you can

imagine. EVERYTHING related to my kids does not go unnoticed, my

kids have a very tight relationship and I must say much tighter that

with Mj (my current parner with whom I've been with for 3 years) so

you can imagine the stress that puts on Mj and I as well.

>

> Maybe it's all the changes, maybe it's the past that will NEVER go

away (like my ex) as long as the kids are involved, maybe it's the

lady at my job, maybe it's the FULL time maid being gone, maybe it's

not......don't know what it is. I think I'm just talking/typing too

much. Do I make sense????

>

> Maritza

>

> <>

>

> Tuesday, September 9, 2008 12:35:10 AM

> Re: Pain and Service -

CHRISM - Maritza

>

> Hello Maritza,

> The tests will help your " conscious " mind make the

> connection that these are not illnesses that are defined by

disease.

> They are defined by the Kundalini and as you intimate they are due

to

> blockages. Please recapitulate and re address what blockages are

> present that stand out the most for you.

>

> Please also outline your practice and what you are doing daily. Do

> this here if you are comfortable and we can begin to make some

> progress towards your coming into balance with what has been

given. -

>

September 9, 2008

I hope you don't mind me answering this even though it's addressed

to chrism.Wow Maritza,i know you have your hands full but don't sweat

the small stuff.I used to be like you sans the maid but now i'm not

like that no more,unless my mother comes to visit,lol.And don't think

that my apartment is a mess when she's not visiting us.I understand

your decision with the older kids.You did the right thing and i would

have done the same thing.Sometimes you have to put your foot down or

they'll take advantage of you.

love,nicole