Camels, power issues and dream work

[Guest guest]

Hi gang,

 

ok..sorry..this is another long one, so get your coffee ready Its

a snapshot of my proces and i feel it may be useful to people working

with energies in dreams. Its kind of a powerful energetic day; Ike is

hitting Texas, I am in Taipei, Taiwan and a typhoon (hurricane) is

hitting Taipei today and the rain is belting down outside as I write

its full moon and thats doing funny things to my K, and the dreams

are rolling on...

 

love

Bruce

 

" I realized the other day that I am happiest when I am deeply

connected to life and feeling that connection as a sense of being

excited, invigorated, in the flow or moving towards something that's

important. That all sounds great, so the million dollar question is,

why don't I take continual action towards my goals? What are my

resistances? Why do I think about what I want to do all the time,

then when it comes down to the actual doing, I often procrastinate

and do something else?

 

I have been increasingly aware of this for a while. Something inside

me resists me going where I want to go. I have tried using brute

force and willpower in the past, and that works for a while, then I

become stagnant again, and I lose my happiness as I get caught up in

routine. Routine is so attractive because everyone else I know seems

caught up inside it, that when I try and speak to anyone about what

it means to be `connected to Eros, connected to the life or creative

impulse', no one really ever understands.

 

I had some dreams last night.

 

Dream 1. I am trying to get to where I want to go, maybe to have fun

or do something important. I have to cross a field of camels. I think

it will be no problem to pass the camels, even though I know that

they will slowly but effectively move to block people trying to

pass. The camels have greedy keepers with them who accept money for

using the camels. I try and pass but the camels move and block me,

and I feel frustrated, as I can't pass. I have to retreat to the

start of the field again.

 

Dream 2. I am going to play tennis and I am invited to join. I have

someone else's racket yet want to rush back to my room to find my

racket so I can play. I am happy to be invited to the game but I am

worried it will start before I return. I really want to have my own

racket.

 

Dream 3. I am in a pharmacy. I am attracted to the male pharmacist

and I am looking for antibiotics.

 

I woke up trying to understand the camel dream. A part of me wants to

do something, like take action towards a purpose, while another part

of me is blocking me. The theme of control is emerging. If I go into

the perspective of the camel keepers, they use the camels (a

powerful, yet sluggish and heavy energy) to stop people from moving,

to control travelers. The keepers want to be paid. I can tap into the

camel energy; I feel it now, as a heaviness, a lethargy, a

sluggishness that stops me from being the light, creative and open

Bruce that I want to be. What does this energy want? (part of my

inner work is to try and befriend, understand and then integrate the

different energies that are coming into awareness, as I move towards

greater levels of wholeness.) The keepers want money and value from

letting me get past, and they use the camel energy as a way to ensure

that they are paid. If I were to pay, then the camels could be used

to do useful work. So, how can I pay the keepers?

I imagine paying them 20 000 dollars. I can now ride and use the

camels, and they allow me to mount a camel. The large lumbering

energy can now carry me to my goal, and the energy brings stability,

groundedness, certainty and persistence. It's a powerful earthy

energy that can give me sustenance to my purpose, and carries a type

of gravity and security.

 

As I write this, I feel heat in my stomach and my body feels quite

hot. Last week until around Wednesday, for almost about 4 or 5

continuous days and nights, with a few `afterburns' the last few

days, I had a large nadi release in my back, parallel to my solar

plexus/navel area. There were also some energy releases in my

stomach. Something is the third chakra energy center has been

opening up, to be used towards creating results through action?

This would make sense as the issues that I am dealing with are

personal power (and disempowerment) issues

 

I have always been a `head case', good at theory and academics, but

not so good at creating results that I want in the world. I also have

a tendency to be ungrounded, and a lot of the time in the kundalini

process, I have felt high and spaced. As I write this, I realize I am

enjoying the feeling of being centered and situated in the heaviness

of the body, and the feeling of stability that brings. There is also

a warmth that is radiating from my stomach area. Come to think of it,

I had a dream a few days ago when a powerful, playful energy emerged.

 

Dream. I am on the beach and a giant baby whale is playfully trying

to beach itself, trying to get onto land and play.

 

At the time, I interpreted the dream as some type of good energy

emerging from the unconscious which wanted to befriend me. Maybe the

energy emerged, and the controller aspect of my ego (the keepers of

the camels) tried to hijack it (turning the whale energy into camels)

for its own self-serving purposes. The true self (me) has to befriend

the keepers, and learn to use (ride ) the camel energy as a support

to achieving the self's purpose. Skipping back through this post, and

reading the dream about tennis, I see that I want my truth, my

instruments, and I don't want to `play the game of life' with other

peoples tools (their wishes, opinions, and so on as symbolized by

their rackets). I just did some reading on the third chakra and power

issues, and the feelings that I am having today and the power issues

that have been emerging into awareness this week seem to resonate

with the information that I am reading.

 

One thing again about the process of growth has come clear for me,

and that is always to work with what is arising. I used to get myself

in knots by trying to take charge of my inner process and turn myself

into what I thought I should be in order to compensate for my

weaknesses and deficiencies. I realize now that if I can just open my

mind and pay careful attention to my thinking, my feelings and the

impulses in my body, then that will allow issues to emerge into

awareness which can be dealt with. Every dream image and symbol is

has an energetic component, and I sense that my task is to understand

the energies and ask how they can be used. I find this miraculous

that the body has its own agenda for healing and health, and if we

can just work with what is, then the process unfolds accordingly.

[Guest guest]

Hi bruce,

Yes a great story that i enjoyed very much, with the typhoon it

reminds me of Kansis and that you are realising that KANSIS is not

Kansis any more Toto. Much of the anolgy you discibe is that the

wizard with the camels is not as big and as powerful as you think he

is nor is his machinary (The camels). The wizard wishs to steal your

labour energy for free. you believe by giving it to him you wil be

free to pass though you will not mostltly because the money will not

pay the debt and subcounciously it seems to me you all ready know

this. Knowing who you are is the only thing that will get you passed

the personal illusion of dominance the camel keeper has over you

that will allow you to find your way home just as Dorethy done.

 

 

, " bruce_oom "

<bruce_oom wrote:

>

> Hi gang,

>

> ok..sorry..this is another long one, so get your coffee ready

Its

> a snapshot of my proces and i feel it may be useful to people

working

> with energies in dreams. Its kind of a powerful energetic day; Ike

is

> hitting Texas, I am in Taipei, Taiwan and a typhoon (hurricane) is

> hitting Taipei today and the rain is belting down outside as I

write

> its full moon and thats doing funny things to my K, and the dreams

> are rolling on...

>

> love

> Bruce

>

> " I realized the other day that I am happiest when I am deeply

> connected to life and feeling that connection as a sense of being

> excited, invigorated, in the flow or moving towards something

that's

> important. That all sounds great, so the million dollar question

is,

> why don't I take continual action towards my goals? What are my

> resistances? Why do I think about what I want to do all the time,

> then when it comes down to the actual doing, I often procrastinate

> and do something else?

>

> I have been increasingly aware of this for a while. Something

inside

> me resists me going where I want to go. I have tried using brute

> force and willpower in the past, and that works for a while, then I

> become stagnant again, and I lose my happiness as I get caught up

in

> routine. Routine is so attractive because everyone else I know

seems

> caught up inside it, that when I try and speak to anyone about what

> it means to be `connected to Eros, connected to the life or

creative

> impulse', no one really ever understands.

>

> I had some dreams last night.

>

> Dream 1. I am trying to get to where I want to go, maybe to have

fun

> or do something important. I have to cross a field of camels. I

think

> it will be no problem to pass the camels, even though I know that

> they will slowly but effectively move to block people trying to

> pass. The camels have greedy keepers with them who accept money for

> using the camels. I try and pass but the camels move and block me,

> and I feel frustrated, as I can't pass. I have to retreat to the

> start of the field again.

>

> Dream 2. I am going to play tennis and I am invited to join. I have

> someone else's racket yet want to rush back to my room to find my

> racket so I can play. I am happy to be invited to the game but I am

> worried it will start before I return. I really want to have my own

> racket.

>

> Dream 3. I am in a pharmacy. I am attracted to the male pharmacist

> and I am looking for antibiotics.

>

> I woke up trying to understand the camel dream. A part of me wants

to

> do something, like take action towards a purpose, while another

part

> of me is blocking me. The theme of control is emerging. If I go

into

> the perspective of the camel keepers, they use the camels (a

> powerful, yet sluggish and heavy energy) to stop people from

moving,

> to control travelers. The keepers want to be paid. I can tap into

the

> camel energy; I feel it now, as a heaviness, a lethargy, a

> sluggishness that stops me from being the light, creative and open

> Bruce that I want to be. What does this energy want? (part of my

> inner work is to try and befriend, understand and then integrate

the

> different energies that are coming into awareness, as I move

towards

> greater levels of wholeness.) The keepers want money and value from

> letting me get past, and they use the camel energy as a way to

ensure

> that they are paid. If I were to pay, then the camels could be used

> to do useful work. So, how can I pay the keepers?

> I imagine paying them 20 000 dollars. I can now ride and use the

> camels, and they allow me to mount a camel. The large lumbering

> energy can now carry me to my goal, and the energy brings

stability,

> groundedness, certainty and persistence. It's a powerful earthy

> energy that can give me sustenance to my purpose, and carries a

type

> of gravity and security.

>

> As I write this, I feel heat in my stomach and my body feels quite

> hot. Last week until around Wednesday, for almost about 4 or 5

> continuous days and nights, with a few `afterburns' the last few

> days, I had a large nadi release in my back, parallel to my solar

> plexus/navel area. There were also some energy releases in my

> stomach. Something is the third chakra energy center has been

> opening up, to be used towards creating results through action?

> This would make sense as the issues that I am dealing with are

> personal power (and disempowerment) issues

>

> I have always been a `head case', good at theory and academics, but

> not so good at creating results that I want in the world. I also

have

> a tendency to be ungrounded, and a lot of the time in the kundalini

> process, I have felt high and spaced. As I write this, I realize I

am

> enjoying the feeling of being centered and situated in the

heaviness

> of the body, and the feeling of stability that brings. There is

also

> a warmth that is radiating from my stomach area. Come to think of

it,

> I had a dream a few days ago when a powerful, playful energy

emerged.

>

> Dream. I am on the beach and a giant baby whale is playfully trying

> to beach itself, trying to get onto land and play.

>

> At the time, I interpreted the dream as some type of good energy

> emerging from the unconscious which wanted to befriend me. Maybe

the

> energy emerged, and the controller aspect of my ego (the keepers of

> the camels) tried to hijack it (turning the whale energy into

camels)

> for its own self-serving purposes. The true self (me) has to

befriend

> the keepers, and learn to use (ride ) the camel energy as a support

> to achieving the self's purpose. Skipping back through this post,

and

> reading the dream about tennis, I see that I want my truth, my

> instruments, and I don't want to `play the game of life' with other

> peoples tools (their wishes, opinions, and so on as symbolized by

> their rackets). I just did some reading on the third chakra and

power

> issues, and the feelings that I am having today and the power

issues

> that have been emerging into awareness this week seem to resonate

> with the information that I am reading.

>

> One thing again about the process of growth has come clear for me,

> and that is always to work with what is arising. I used to get

myself

> in knots by trying to take charge of my inner process and turn

myself

> into what I thought I should be in order to compensate for my

> weaknesses and deficiencies. I realize now that if I can just open

my

> mind and pay careful attention to my thinking, my feelings and the

> impulses in my body, then that will allow issues to emerge into

> awareness which can be dealt with. Every dream image and symbol is

> has an energetic component, and I sense that my task is to

understand

> the energies and ask how they can be used. I find this miraculous

> that the body has its own agenda for healing and health, and if we

> can just work with what is, then the process unfolds accordingly.

>

[Guest guest]

ha so many things have stopped being Kansis recently!! Thanks for

the great insights; I like your perspective on the story.

 

Bruce

 

 

> Hi bruce,

> Yes a great story that i enjoyed very much, with the typhoon it

> reminds me of Kansis and that you are realising that KANSIS is not

> Kansis any more Toto. Much of the anolgy you discibe is that the

> wizard with the camels is not as big and as powerful as you think

he

> is nor is his machinary (The camels). The wizard wishs to steal

your

> labour energy for free. you believe by giving it to him you wil be

> free to pass though you will not mostltly because the money will

not

> pay the debt and subcounciously it seems to me you all ready know

> this. Knowing who you are is the only thing that will get you

passed

> the personal illusion of dominance the camel keeper has over you

> that will allow you to find your way home just as Dorethy done.

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

hi Paula ha..thanks for the shake up and the observations!! I gotto

say..I am enjoying everyones different angle at looking at the camels

 

Bruce

 

 

.....Bruce friend , Im squishing your paper up..

> don't give a poo , what others are doing, fear of failure is the

> only thing failing you , boot it out...

>

> You are talented , kind, understanding allow yourself to shine..

>

>

> Paula.....

>

[Guest guest]

Bruce wrote:

I realize now that if I can

> just open my

> mind and pay careful attention to my thinking, my feelings

> and the

> impulses in my body, then that will allow issues to emerge

> into

> awareness which can be dealt with. Every dream image and

> symbol is

> has an energetic component, and I sense that my task is to

> understand

> the energies and ask how they can be used. I find this

> miraculous

> that the body has its own agenda for healing and health,

> and if we

> can just work with what is, then the process unfolds

> accordingly.

 

This is such a great realisation, the body will release and guide you if you

allow it to without judging the process, I have also been learning this Bruce,

you put it so well in to words.

The Shakti and the body and the dreams all work together in perfect synergie to

allow our unfolding.

If we just relax, follow the inner promptings and acknowledge the process all

goes well and according to plan.

Well done Bruce,

love elektra x x x

 

ps I find that doing more of the tibetans helps to ground in to the body and

release lethargy. i too have the tendancy to be lethargic, its taken me a while

to ground and energise.

[Guest guest]

-Re: Full moon and dream

 

Spiritual energy initiates from the universal central sun it is then

transmitted to the Pleiades or Dog Star from here it is then

transmitted to the solar systems. our solar system is one of them and

it is our sun what has the greatest magnetism to attract it. The sun

then transmutes it to the planets. Therefore the energy is

transmuted down every time. If we did not have the moon many would

not be able to cope with this higher finer energy though thinking

that any energy comes from the moon is false thinking that has been

binding humanity in ignorance. It is also what belongs to the analogy

of the false prophets because the moon is acting as a medium. Though

in fact it is dead and does not give of any life energy any more.

Western astrology says that it does though the energy they claim to

be of the moon is actually of the Earth. What actually happens is

that the moon draws energy towards it . when there is a full moon the

moon is behind the earth and the earth is getting full blast from

the sun with out the moon stealing the energy that otherwise would

reach the earth when it is in any other part of its cycle. Although

the moon maybe deemed dead soma still looks after us in our sometime

primitive status not to be able to cope with the full effects of Sun

energy. Soma means of the moon it is a narcotic type substance to

create trancelike state it has side effects that competes in some

ways against modern day evolution. Though in other ways gives relief

to the tired, weary and or ill. Not much different to ganja, hashish

or opium poppy in the healing processes. Some sects in India still

use them for spiritual prowess, though they belong to an ancient yoga

system that has been lost in evolution of consciousness over time. I

believe many of the old ancient hatha yoga practices have been lost

and rightfully so, as they were for the development of the perfected

physical form and towards the development of the emotional body. The

effects of the moon if any would be associated with ancient memes or

samcaras of days of old pre flood and may even predate Adam so in

these cases know that you are an old soul and everything that has

been, is stored in the akasha, to be resolved.

 

John

 

-- In , " bruce_oom "

<bruce_oom wrote:

>

>

> ha so many things have stopped being Kansis recently!! Thanks

for

> the great insights; I like your perspective on the story.

>

>

> Bruce

>

>