Shaktipat Thank you's

[Guest guest]

My body has been leading up to the explosion today. My short term

memory loss, the feelings of not being here, the bliss and

overwhelming happiness. My daughter unknowingly helped me today. She

had been to see Stevie Wonder in concert in London and recorded him

singing 'AS' (Always). She sent this recording to me knowing it was

the tune her father, my violent ex-husband, had dedicated to me years

ago. She knew I would cry and remember the days when we were in love,

the days before hard drugs changed him into something none of us

recognised.

 

As my K rose today it spent most of its time in my heart centre

swirling like a spinning top of rainbow colours. I had no control

over the love I radiated towards him, feeling it covering him in a

cloudy of love and care, and help in any pain he has about how things

turned out between us. I saw myself embracing him as a dear old

friend for the first time in 15yrs. Any left over hurt had gone and

all my pain and hatred towards him subsided.

 

As usual I had to dash to the bathroom feeling so much energy and

movement in my base chakra. I did not need the bathroom, I just

needed to be there in case. ;-). I Lent against the bathroom wall

arching my back as it made its way from my heart to my throat and up

to my brow. Remembering the safeties I put tongue op, fingers locked

and eyes up as kaleidoscopes of colour filled my head.

 

I had no idea where I was. I was in my bathroom but yet not there. I

could no longer feel the cold floor as I was full of fire in every

cell of my body. I felt like a ball of fire. I came 'down' slowly and

took myself back to bed to bask in the glow of my own fire.

 

Thank you Chrism.

 

Skydancer x

[Guest guest]

Skydancer:

My daughters observed the same behaviors in me years ago as you observed in your father. I don't think that I am k activated, but we are seriously in love. When I left my daughters in the US 9 months ago the youngest called a few days after I arrived. She said that she had something to tell me" that all who knew me loved me." I said that I was a jerk in my addictions and the affects that PTSD had on me. I said that I was missing from fatherhood. She said that that was then and that I needed to go through to get to where I am now. I couldn't sleep and I stayed up in their love. The next night I called her to tell her that I am lucky that most parents don't hear that because those sentiments may only be expressed at a funeral.

 

I don't mean to be egotistical by this story, on the contrary, I was humbled and I knew I am where I need to be. I am gruff at times to my daughters, being like a drill sargeant, but that is only because I am a parent trying to teach them to go within for their needs. They know this and accept me for who I am and for my heart.

 

Love from another father,

Jake_,___

[Guest guest]

Hi Jake,

 

Thanks for your reply to my post. Often we don't like to admit these

flaws in our character, especially when they affect others. Those

they severely affect are often our close family, those we profess to

love and respect but treat with anger and distain.

 

, Andrew Carney

<jakecarney36 wrote:

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> Skydancer:

> My daughters observed the same behaviors in me years ago as you

observed in your father.

 

***It was actually my ex-husband, not my father. Its funny that you

mistook the two as I never met my father as I am the result of a

rape. I have forgiven my father for what he did to my mother and wish

I could have met him to let him know that I hold no malice. My mother

forgave him a long time ago and it is only now that I can understand

how she has done so, it could not have been easy for her.***

 

I don't think that I am k activated, but we are seriously in love.

When I left my daughters in the US 9 months ago the youngest called a

few days after I arrived. She said that she had something to tell me "

that all who knew me loved me. " I said that I was a jerk in my

addictions and the affects that PTSD had on me.

 

***I am sorry to hear that you have suffered from PTSD. My present

husband had it badly for a number of years before I met him, due to

being in the Royal Marines.***

 

I said that I was missing from fatherhood. She said that that was

then and that I needed to go through to get to where I am now. I

couldn't sleep and I stayed up in their love. The next night I called

her to tell her that I am lucky that most parents don't hear that

because those sentiments may only be expressed at a funeral.

 

***How true that last sentence is. If only the safeties were followed

by all then everyone could leave this plane with a purer heart.***

 

>  

> I don't mean to be egotistical by this story, on the contrary, I

was humbled and I knew I am where I need to be. I am gruff at times

to my daughters, being like a drill sargeant,  but that is only

because I am a parent trying to teach them to go within for their

needs. They know this and accept me for who I am and for my heart.

 

***You have a very wise and beautiful daughter. As she said it was

all in the past and she is here for you now with no malice in her

heart, giving you the opportunity to be the great father you are.

Don't waste this precious gift of a second chance.***

 

Blessings, Skydancer x

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Thanks for your reply Skydancer. My PTSD is from combat in  Vietnam, so I guess that your husband and I have PTSD from the military in common. A lifelong quest to heal has brought me here. What a lovely and caring place that we occupy on this site. Jake--- On Mon, 9/15/08, Skydancer <ionaskydancer wrote:Skydancer <ionaskydancer Re: Shaktipat Thank you's Chrism Date: Monday, September 15, 2008, 12:29 AM

 

 

 

Hi Jake,

 

Thanks for your reply to my post. Often we don't like to admit these