Just checking in...

[Guest guest]

Hi Group and Chrism,

 

I'm just checking in to let you know that I'm still alive. LOL. I

have been busy. This week is finals week. Projects has been keeping

me up and busy. I think Elektra might be right that the stress is

causing my rashes to flare up and also the heat from my jacket (it

has been raining here). I guess when I perspire, the rashes flares up

too. I bought the grape seed oil that recommended and that is

helping with the itchiness.

 

The weekend after labor day, I had a very interesting experience when

I was in class. Well, when my teacher turned the light off so that we

could have a look at the screen at the projector, of course, the room

turned a little dim. Our wall is white. While my teacher Sara was

standing in front of my classmate Jeff lecturing us, I could see her

aura and Jeff's who was sitting 3 seats to my right. It looked as if

her aura was another spirit. It was a few inches above and behind

her. I looked directly at her, but not at the aura but I could see it

with my peripheral vision. It's huge and expanded! I first saw a

bright white outline around her. Then it turned translucent. I could

see the outer layer color is milky red. How interesting. Hehe, I hope

she didn't think I was staring at her. But I couldn't get my eyes to

look away from her even as she walked towards the black board. I

could see her aura following her. Like there's a big spirit/shadow

walking behind following her every move. At first I thought I was

just seeing things, but I know I wasn't. I was just surprised I

guess. I wasn't expecting that.

 

I am really really curious to know what the images, colors and

symbols in my visions when I meditate means. I am still trying to get

used to asking the images to show me more information, but sometimes

I forget and go on with another question or image. I know that dream

symbols are similar, but I am aware that images or scenes in visions

are symbolic. The question is .. what do they mean? What are they

trying to tell me? I have to dig deeper. I saw a red butterly with a

blue design around its left wing. I also saw a yellow memo pad with

red writings on it, but I couldn't make out what was written bec they

were written in calligraphy/script. On the day when I saw my

teacher's aura while on the train, I saw a butterfly fly by. It was

beautiful.

 

As for my aunt, she still drives me crazy. Even crazier since until

now she has not forgiven my dad. I don't know what they fought about

in the past, but she always blames me for everything even though I

have nothing to do with it. I probably haven't been born yet when she

and my dad had this misunderstanding. It really hurts my feelings

when she takes her anger out of me. It especially hurts me when she

talks about my dad like that. I might be closer to my mom than my

dad, but I am close to him in a different way. He is more strict

while my mom is a bit carefree. I lost my temper that night when my

uncle called up my dad overseas and my aunt reacted badly. I even

talked to my dad about it that she always puts me in the middle of

their misunderstandings. She said that I am just like my dad, etc.

When I defend my dad, she gets very upset. How would she feel if I

said something about my uncle? I'm sure she would be upset and defend

him. I mean, it seems that its always alright for her to be the

victim or feel hurt etc., but it's not alright for others. She is

always the perfect one, she wants everyone to be like her. She's not

a saint.

 

When I told her that I would move out after I graduate, she then

tries to make me feel guilty telling me that she knows that after I

graduate, I would leave her to find a job somewhere or get married,

etc. I don't know what her problem is. When she doesn't get her way,

the other person always comes out as the bad one. No, unconditional

love doesn't exist in my aunt's vocabulary. Conditional love, yes.

 

That's all for now. Wish me luck on my finals.

 

Always,

Anne

[Guest guest]

Lots of luck to you anne, not that you need luck as I know you work very hard

love.

Sorry about your aunt, I pray for her to find forgiveness and unconditionsl

love.

HUGS and Love to you sis

elektra x x x