Well I'm out

[Guest guest]

I guess I got quite toxic to me, and everything around me. Sorry for that

if I did it here. Got home from the hospital this afternoon. MRI says I

have some new, odd, growth on my brain. I think I knew that. Nobody really

wants to tell me what it is. I'm not even sure we all exist in the same

reality, so what I say or feel seems strange. All the docs have no

answers. When they let me stand and I do a finger lock, I feel vast

reserves of power.

 

What I did was check out, divorced myself from the body, floated, life was

not good, toxic is the word that keeps coming up.

 

Sorry if I got mean. Jean just took over and sent me in, I guess I wasn't

nice to her either. I really dislike how they test you, and you are not a

person. Piece of meat on my shift.

 

I did have a sweetheart of a nurse, made sure she put ice in my OJ, that

was so nice.

 

I'm here with my friends, I'll be quiet if that's ok. Got some stuff going

on.

 

Don

 

Not very sure what is up.

 

Just not very sure, got the couch tonite, pain killers, and some some sort

of really mind bending stuff they gave me,

Hard to type.

s

[Guest guest]

Wow, Don. Why don't you come over to the Healing Group.

Sending you love and peace.

Love, dhyana

 

 

, merlin wrote:

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>

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> I guess I got quite toxic to me, and everything around me. Sorry for

that

> if I did it here. Got home from the hospital this afternoon. MRI says I

> have some new, odd, growth on my brain.

[Guest guest]

Nice to meet you Don, :-3. I'm sure a lot of people can definitely relate to how you get treated like an object at a hospital (i can), but it's hard for doctors and what not to not grow detached, they have to deal with death every day, and if they don't detach themselves then they wouldn't be able to do their job, and then they'd be dealing with even worse stuff no doubt :-P. And toxic has all kinds of connotations :-3 in fact there's a hard style song called toxic anthem that's quite awesome :-D hehe so sometimes it's an awesome word. And unfortunantly i was only able to see one of your posts, but dude! It just sounded like you were having a bad day, and it seems like being able to write about that stuff here is part of what this is for right? I definitly know what it's like to think you're having a ngative impact on things around

you, but i can tell you for a fact you haven't had a negative impact on me at all :-3 (and i don't doubt that you haven't had a negative impact on anyone else here either :-3), in fact you've had a positive one (i mean come on man, take a step back and look at how awesomely hilarious the idea of being dismissed by a squirl is! It made me think of the Eddie Izzard stand up comedey routine about squirls eating nuts with two hands and looking up as if to say, did i leave the gas on? No! No i'm a squirl! hehe).That, and chearing people up is fun! So you've provided me (and i'd imagine quite a few other people here the chance to do that :-D! So dude, you've like, made my day :-D that's sweet, thanks! :-3).And count your blessings man, you had an awesome nurse, you've got a house to put the couch you're on tonight in :-3, (not to mention a couch that's comfortable enough to lie on, and don't tell me it's not

comfortable or else you'd have said you're on the floor tonight hehe), not to mention PAIN KILLERS! And those can be quite delicious :-9, but that might just be me being jealous of your perscriptions hehe (man i only got codine for my broken ribs when i went to the hospital, that stuff was gone in like two days and it just knocked me out, didn't kill any pain :-P). Good luck with everything man, just know that we're here, and it's always good times. No matter how messed up stuff gets, it's always good times hehehe :-3. For instance, OMG! My dog just died and my friends all got arrested and the clubs i go to just got shut down and i got fired and kicked out of my house and life just generlly sucks!... But i still have most of my appendages and a couple bucks in my pocket so hey, :-D good times :-3. Have a nice night man, and have fun with those painkillers!! :-D hehe.--- On Sat, 10/4/08,

merlin <merlin wrote:

 

I guess I got quite toxic to me, and everything around me. Sorry for that

if I did it here. Got home from the hospital this afternoon. MRI says I

have some new, odd, growth on my brain. I think I knew that. Nobody really

wants to tell me what it is. I'm not even sure we all exist in the same

reality, so what I say or feel seems strange. All the docs have no

answers. When they let me stand and I do a finger lock, I feel vast

reserves of power.

[Guest guest]

Yes Don, why not come to the healing group? Let your friends help relieve what ails you.

Sarita

, "novalees" <dhyana wrote:>> Wow, Don. Why don't you come over to the Healing Group.> Sending you love and peace.> Love, dhyana> > > , merlin@ wrote:> >> > > > > > I guess I got quite toxic to me, and everything around me. Sorry for> that> > if I did it here. Got home from the hospital this afternoon. MRI says I> > have some new, odd, growth on my brain.>

[Guest guest]

Sorry to respond to my own, please forgive the typos. Having a hard time

seeing the screen with what

they now have me on. I'm doing as i am told for my wife, she is so worried.

I'm not sure it is right for me, but she thinks the docs are right.

 

Sometimes you have to just give it up.

 

She found me on the ground, eyes open and not seeing. Chain saw running.

She called 911. It was horrific for her. I love her dearly.

 

I would give her my life. I will do what she asks.

 

Don

in peace

[Guest guest]

hi don my father is blind and i have aways blamed it on the drugs

they gave him. My only responce from my so called sisters was, How

could that blind him and he was going blind anyway. he was found to

have a small postrate count on a check up it was during his stay in

hospital and have no idea what they were pumping him with before or

after. i dont think it was the female hormones that was given him.

John

, merlin

wrote:

>

> Sorry to respond to my own, please forgive the typos. Having a

hard time

> seeing the screen with what

> they now have me on. I'm doing as i am told for my wife, she is so

worried.

> I'm not sure it is right for me, but she thinks the docs are right.

>

> Sometimes you have to just give it up.

>

> She found me on the ground, eyes open and not seeing. Chain saw

running.

> She called 911. It was horrific for her. I love her dearly.

>

> I would give her my life. I will do what she asks.

>

> Don

> in peace

>

[Guest guest]

Don please try the k. healing...scarper from the hospitals with 6 legs,

just get out of there,

love paula ..

>

>

>

> I guess I got quite toxic to me, and everything around me. Sorry for

that

> if I did it here. Got home from the hospital this afternoon. MRI

says I

 

> person.

[Guest guest]

Know that you are loved - know you can ask for what you need- know i

am sending prayers your way and do consider healing as offered from

the group -

 

merlin - is a fictional character who espoused super powers - he has

always been a favorite figure in my readings and for the last few

months i have had a real merlin who also showed unusual powers - the

power to describe a happening in such glorious detail as to make the

happening come alive for me - the power to break down an idea in a

manner that was easy to understand - the power to make me laugh and

see the goofy in everyday situations- the power to bring nature into

my personal space - the power to reach across the miles and offer

kindness to a stranger

 

thank you Don - you will forever be my manifested merlin

 

[Guest guest]

Dear Don,

I am sending prayers for you , I only wish you feel better soon, you are a

delight and I love you dearly.

I know you don't believe in prayers or healing , but I do, and I hope you use

them for your benefit.

Ask and you shall receive I believe the saying goes....

Love and hugs dear Don,

elektra x x x