Hey everyone, I'm new here...

[Guest guest]

Hey, my name's Craig. I don't know where to start so here's a thread I

started in a different group, so yall know where I'm coming from.

 

http://www.oprah.com/community/thread/90496?start=15 & tstart=0

 

and since my 5 months away, I feel it's getting harder and harder to

get motivated for spiritual pursuits, i.e. meditation, concentration,

but once I start, it's very peaceful and I like it. Does anyone know

why it's hard to get motivated. I also feel more susceptible to my

emotions. I feel like sometimes they are just going to come out

without any control. I feel like I'm on a big see-saw going from

being in the world and not of it, to being almost totally in the world.

Thanks

Craig

[Guest guest]

Hi Craig and welcome. I read what you have been experiencing. I have in

the past experienced horrendous pain between the shoulder blades. It

hurt so bad whenever I sneezed or coughed and to get sick and throw up

was really, really bad, like thousands of needle sticking in me. I went

to the chiropacter for over a year trying to get help. It was relieved

only after I had the energy to go up to my base of skull then back down

to my heart chakra in an explosion, which felt great. I have had the

pain a few times since then and get the ache around my heart chakra

area, but nothing as bad as it was.

 

We follow the safeties here and they help big time. Here is where you

can read about them and try them out, see if they help you.

 

http://www.kundaliniawakeningsystems1.com/the-safeties.html

 

Linda

 

 

, " brothahen "

<brothahen wrote:

>

> Hey, my name's Craig. I don't know where to start so here's a thread I

> started in a different group, so yall know where I'm coming from.

>

> http://www.oprah.com/community/thread/90496?start=15 & tstart=0

>

> and since my 5 months away, I feel it's getting harder and harder to

> get motivated for spiritual pursuits, i.e. meditation, concentration,

> but once I start, it's very peaceful and I like it. Does anyone know

> why it's hard to get motivated. I also feel more susceptible to my

> emotions. I feel like sometimes they are just going to come out

> without any control. I feel like I'm on a big see-saw going from

> being in the world and not of it, to being almost totally in the

world.

> Thanks

> Craig

>

[Guest guest]

welcome Craig:

 

getting motivated was difficult for me still is - having to do a

practice each day is a burden - some are gun ho and just slip right

into a practice (some come from a lifetime of practices ) and can add

to it and grow others (like me and it sounds like you) have to really

make an effort to get going. it is ok - we are all different and

function at different levels- take each day and do your best to

incorporate the practice into your life then if you slip up just start

over again - eventually you will find what works for you - a habit

takes at least 30 days to make/break- and for some of us longer

 

 

i find the tibetans and meditation becoming easier after a year - am

still working on the other safeties - i kept hearing do the safeties

do the safeties and could not figure out how one does

honesty/tolerance/forgiveness, etc, each day - makes no sense to me -

 

i understood how to be tolerate when situations arose but every day???

i still am struggling with this concept- daily?? i have tried to sit

at night and go over each safety and just think on it - i am still not

sure if that qualifies as " doing the safeties "

 

but i am at the point where i will do what i can and not worry so much

about the how tos or what ifs- the biggy is forgiveness and that is a

daily struggle for me - i have never bought into forgiveness - and i

force myself to say the words for the various folks that have harmed

me or folks i have harmed - the words come somewhat easier but there

is no real feelings in them- at least not yet - but i keep trying - a

behavior theory reads - say the words do the action and it will change

your attitude - well that is my strategy - but along with this is

somehow " feeling " the forgiveness " feeling " love for the person - that

has not come about as yet - of course that may have to do with the

fact that i closed down my feelings a while ago -

 

there are a few suggestions on this site on how to do forgiveness -

read those and start that safety immediately - maybe for you that will

come easier than the overall practice - i wish that for you -

 

i love and cherish the gift of Kundalini yet i do not like having to

do a program - i have always felt i was a free spirit - a schedule of

" dos' does not fit that lifestyle for me -

 

use the archives here and read the main site with chrism's articles -

you will find much there that may help you on your path - for some

this all comes very easily for others - not - know that you are here

for a reason and that you are being cared for by your kundalini-

 

 

[Guest guest]

Thanks for your replies, it's funny with forgiveness, I find

myself more and more drawn toward metta (loving kindness) meditation,

which feels great, but when it comes to interacting with people, I

feel my old, unconscious " armor " go up. I really want to have true

connection with people, as the Buddha put it: to love everything and

everyone like a mother loves her child, though she doesn't always have

to like the child. This is the one thing that's always been lacking in

my life, authentic relationships. Maybe this is kundalini working out

karma in my heart chakra.

, here's an idea that I always overlook, but works every time I

use it, that might help (I'm also writing this for me so maybe I can

remember it more often). Another word for forgiveness is acceptance,

you forgive someone when you accept who they are. When you realize

that you can't fully, or partially, forgive someone yet, then accept

that you can't. With that acceptance someone still receives

forgiveness, you. I think that's where forgiveness is intended to

point to anyway because the outer world reflects the inner.

Linda thanks for the pointer to the safeties, Ill give them all a try.

 

Craig

[Guest guest]

Craig - thank you this makes good sense to me I have been more

accepting of where I am and what I do or do not - You are here to

remind me of this and to encourage me on my way - so welcome and thank

you for the advice - these words are definitely keepers...

 

 

 

Another word for forgiveness is acceptance,

> you forgive someone when you accept who they are. When you realize

> that you can't fully, or partially, forgive someone yet, then accept

> that you can't.

>