Unbearably loud sound in my head ( a K symptom?)

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Hi all,

 

I would have asked about this sooner but I have only just remembered it.

 

There were two or three times, roughly six months to a year before my K

awakened (I can't really remember) during which as I fell asleep (the

very instant sleep came) I would experience something horrible. For a

second I would become stuck between waking and sleep, it felt like I

became stuck and paralyzed in a tiny hole somewhere inside (the hole

we fall into when we fall asleep).

 

As I was stuck, I would experience a high pitched ringing so loud, so

unbearably loud that it felt as though it was obliterating everything,

me, the world, the universe, it was that loud, a level of volume that

is in no way imaginable, a ringing that felt like a very fast sledge

hammer pummeling my head to mush.

 

As I became stuck with this sound, I would loose all sense of myself,

because nothing could possibly exist next to THAT sound, at

being crushed into this tiny hole and subjected to this impossible

sound, panic and terror exploded from me in every direction. It took

only a second (if that) for the uncontrollable panic to wiggle me out

of that hole, but it was a second of shear torture. It felt like my

head was being smashed into oblivion by that sound. A high pitched

ringing, it wasn't a constant tone.

 

This occurred only at the point of falling asleep. And a second later,

after freeing myself, I would gasp for air and shoot up straight, I

imagine it being like drowning and experiencing the moment of

suffocation (but with a sound loud enough wipe away the universe).

 

After it happened, I laid down again and and tried to get to sleep

(having no idea it would happen again).

 

After about four or five hours of this I couldn't take it anymore. I

was so tired I could barely keep my eyes open and every five minutes I

was being sucked into a vortex of torture.

 

I was terrified and I panicked, I left the house and roamed the

streets so I couldn't fall asleep. I thought something was seriously

wrong, I was crying, thinking I was going to die.

 

Anyway it eventually died down and I managed to fall asleep

peacefully. I experienced another night or two of this around that

period but to a lesser degree, and I haven't experienced it since.

 

I just remember this, and still have no idea what it was.

 

I wonder if it is K related?

 

Thanks

Cal