Merging of feminine and masculine energy and se%ual orientation-ideas anyone :)

[Guest guest]

Memories have come back today about being attracted to women when I was

young, from ages 5 to 10 or more. At some point I started being

attracted to males, but have remained attracted to women as well. Is is

possible that this is a desire to know oneself in an intimate way? Are

we born a certain sexual orientation? I am confused right now. I can

see myself with a man or a woman. Could the feelings of being bi-se%

ual have anything to do with the merging of feminine and masculine

energies? I've been dishonest with myself for some time in my current

relationship, thinking I had to agree to be intimate because he wanted

release. I no longer feel well about this. Instead, I feel well about

intimacy if it is for the purpose of sharing love, giving is

receiving. Currently, I have no sexual desire for him. This is due

partly to the fact that I became honest with myself and the se% feels

rushed and I no longer feel well about it. I've given thought to

marrying him, but know I can't until these things are resolved.

 

-Jessica

[Guest guest]

Hello Jessica,

 

Thank you for sharing so honestly. I had a dream the

other night about being with a woman intimately. I woke

up a little stunned. lol! I thought " okay. " Made me

think that Shakti was messing with my second chakra.

Made me think of a shadow self. So I had no problem

with the dream. But I could see where confusion or

guilt could have come into it if I had looked at it

differently, identifying with it.

 

I love hearing of your honesty with yourself. Through

honesty we can take care of and understand ourselves,

and that is a beautiful thing. Freedom and nurturing

allows us to be ourselves in a deeper way. I hear what

you're saying about your relationship. Men and women

approach s+x so differently. It really blossoms when

both have the balance of the two. Be gentle with your-

self right now. Shakti may be bringing you through

something, or opening the second more.

 

Sending love,

xxx

dhyana

 

, " Jessica "

<jdehne88 wrote:

>

> Memories have come back today about being attracted to women when I was

> young, from ages 5 to 10 or more. At some point I started being

> attracted to males, but have remained attracted to women as well. Is is

> possible that this is a desire to know oneself in an intimate way? Are

> we born a certain sexual orientation? I am confused right now. I can

> see myself with a man or a woman. Could the feelings of being bi-se%

> ual have anything to do with the merging of feminine and masculine

> energies? I've been dishonest with myself for some time in my current

> relationship, thinking I had to agree to be intimate because he wanted

> release. I no longer feel well about this. Instead, I feel well about

> intimacy if it is for the purpose of sharing love, giving is

> receiving. Currently, I have no sexual desire for him. This is due

> partly to the fact that I became honest with myself and the se% feels

> rushed and I no longer feel well about it. I've given thought to

> marrying him, but know I can't until these things are resolved.

>

> -Jessica

>

[Guest guest]

Snap

my hobby at 5 was pinging br@ straps!

I was never attracted to the male form,at all.When all of my friends

were talking about their favourite male film star well I just

couldn't see it..

One day I met mabruk my husband , when I met him be both had a love

at first sight meeting. It didn't matter that he was a man. I

couldn't see that. All I could see in front of me was a spirit I felt

I had known forever. Now 5 kids and many eons have passed and we are

still as connected, as cheesy as that sounds:) So when you find love

male or female , let me tell you thunderbolts do exist..

 

I think it does have to do with the mixing of the male and female

energies as in myself I notice I express both aspects in myself.

 

Paula~

 

 

 

 

, " Jessica "

<jdehne88 wrote:

>

> Memories have come back today about being attracted to women when I

was

> young, from ages 5 to 10 or more. At some point I started being

> attracted to males, but have remained attracted to women as well.

Is is

> possible that this is a desire to know oneself in an intimate way?

Are

> we born a certain sexual orientation? I am confused right now. I

can

> see myself with a man or a woman. Could the feelings of being bi-

se%

> ual have anything to do with the merging of feminine and masculine

> energies? I've been dishonest with myself for some time in my

current

> relationship, thinking I had to agree to be intimate because he

wanted

> release. I no longer feel well about this. Instead, I feel well

about

> intimacy if it is for the purpose of sharing love, giving is

> receiving. Currently, I have no sexual desire for him. This is

due

> partly to the fact that I became honest with myself and the se%

feels

> rushed and I no longer feel well about it. I've given thought to

> marrying him, but know I can't until these things are resolved.

>

> -Jessica

>

[Guest guest]

At 05:48 PM 11/12/2008, you wrote:

Memories have come back today

about being attracted to women when I was

young, from ages 5 to 10 or more. At some point I started being

attracted to males, but have remained attracted to women as well. Is is

 

possible that this is a desire to know oneself in an intimate way? Are

 

we born a certain sexual orientation?

Most gay people believe we are. I believe our natural state is somewhere

along the " bis3xual " continuum. Every animal species has some

degree of gay and bisexual behavior, it's normal. It's our culture and

religions that are messed up about it.

I am confused right

now. I can

see myself with a man or a woman. Could the feelings of being bi-se%

ual have anything to do with the merging of feminine and masculine

energies?

I don't know. Maybe. But if you have always been attracted to women I

think it's likely you are attracted to women, and the spiritual energies

have merely brought that to the surface.

I've been dishonest

with myself for some time in my current

relationship, thinking I had to agree to be intimate because he wanted

 

release. I no longer feel well about this. Instead, I feel well about

 

intimacy if it is for the purpose of sharing love, giving is

receiving. Currently, I have no sexual desire for him. This is due

partly to the fact that I became honest with myself and the se% feels

 

rushed and I no longer feel well about it. I've given thought to

marrying him, but know I can't until these things are

resolved.

That is wisdom.

Brandi

[Guest guest]

Yes the merging can sometimes, for periods of time, have the effect

of supporting an interest in both s & xes. This does typically pass

and we are well to remember the body we have chosen to express

through in this life. There are some very good reasons for the

expressive choice that is being experienced.

 

There is also the idea that we are not merely what it is we express

interest in on a s & xual level. We are more than our s & xual interests

and self definition from the aspect of s & xual orientation is similar

to saying your a mechanic because you know how to tighten a bolt.

There is far more to the scope of being a person and especially a

Kundalini active person.

 

Sacred Male and Sacred Female propose the joining of the " male " and

the " female " in order to complete the circuit for the Kundalini to

flow. We all have these two within us and it is that equation that

allows the flow to begin. The s & xual act is as a representation of

the Kundalini awakening as the child is the product of the merging

just as we are that child when the Kundalini brings its changes upon

and within us.

 

Nothing wrong with being attracted to an individual whatever the sex

may be. Self definition from the preference can lead to limitations

that are not always balanced. Just have love for each other and that

is what counts the most.

 

If you are no longer attracted to a person is there more to the

relationship than mere s & xual fulfillment? Is there a friendship and

a mutual love that transcends the s & xual component of the

relationship? Are there factors that are inhibiting an interest

based in chemical deficiencies? Is it a mercurial interest that one

has for the other that was never anything other than curiosity?

 

We make the choices in our lives that affect other people's lives

and it is very important to not diminish the effect we have on

others. In that vein it is very important to make decisions that

allow a maturation of consideration with how it has impact on other

lives. Without turning into a martyr.

 

So see if your love is multi dimensional and with multi dynamics in

its source and expressive nature. See and feel if it is a product of

an attitude that is complete in its considerations of self and

others. Feel why the initial merging took place at all and allow

those decisions to have an honored place in the current agenda that

the future possibilities may not be sacrificed for a current

expression of a Kundalini induced change of heart that may not be

permanent but in transition.

 

Kundalini isn't limited and can love all that come into its

surroundings. As that expression grows within you perhaps your ego

view of the love within can also be expanded to include more and

more about and of another without relying on specific qualities. Or

not. It depends also on the dynamics of those who cannot as yet

speak and those we haven't heard from. - my take - chrism

 

, " Jessica "

<jdehne88 wrote:

I am confused right now.

[Guest guest]

Seems to me that you are just getting deeper in to who you are.

Se% goes through many different colours during activation, sometimes I cannot

desire anyone or anything se5ual, at other times I feel very open , I find my

self attracted to different people also men and women, not just my hubby, and

then next minute I cannot see anyone else and I become focused back in to my

relationship again.

I find more and more that I can only enjoy se% from a worship stand point and

not for any other reasons. I feel whole in myself and do not need another to

complete me.

These feelings are sometimes hard to interpret in to the NOW and current

relationships, I guess you just have to ask yourself, does my partner support me

in my different shades of growth and love me free?

I can luckily answer YES to this question with my hubby.

Its important to find someone who loves you free; more then what sex they are or

how they look etc etc.

 

Good luck and much love elektra x x x

[Guest guest]

Seems to me that you are just getting deeper in to who you are.

Se% goes through many different colours during activation, sometimes I cannot

desire anyone or anything se5ual, at other times I feel very open , I find my

self attracted to different people also men and women, not just my hubby, and

then next minute I cannot see anyone else and I become focused back in to my

relationship again.

I find more and more that I can only enjoy se% from a worship stand point and

not for any other reasons. I feel whole in myself and do not need another to

complete me.

These feelings are sometimes hard to interpret in to the NOW and current

relationships, I guess you just have to ask yourself, does my partner support me

in my different shades of growth and love me free?

I can luckily answer YES to this question with my hubby.

Its important to find someone who loves you free; more then what se% they are or

how they look etc etc.

 

Good luck and much love elektra x x x