the yr after my shaktipat

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Hi all you k people out there!

 

Its been awhile since I posted...just thought i would let you know

some of the interesting things since my shaktipat a year ago September.

First I started seeing these brillant little lights up in the sky

dancing about in the sunlight. Now they are brighter, more vibrant for

me especially in places of nature. And I see these pops of different

colors up in the sky. So very beautiful. I see these lights dancing

around the moon at night and the stars are very interesting to watch.

Before of course I saw them as one color and now one star will look

extremely blue, another red.....strange things these stars! (:

When I lay in bed at night my room is like a light show. There is so

much going on....well Disney World Fireworks has nothing on this!

Extremely beautiful. See thousands of these tiny lights and lights of

different colors. Some lights streak by quite quickly, other

lights....like this big ball of white light comes over me and inside

it are these little briallant lights, always moving! It seems to start

out as shadows moving across the ceiling and walls, and then it turns

into just brillant balls of light. There is a tunnel on the wall next

to my bed everynight. Realities seem to get mixed a bit. Sometimes

that tunnel looks so real and my wall looks so unreal that I get out

of bed and put my hand in it....but its still the wall! (:

 

Was once thinking of jumping in there....guess I would have knocked my

head a bit hard!

 

And this always present well I don't know what it is. Its like a

pinwheel, that pulsates on opposite times and always this pulsating

moves....sorta like a flower. It can be huge seeming to cover a mile

and then I say hello, and it comes closer. It is always moving,

pulsating. It shoots out what I think is prana, but not sure. So I say

thank you very much....and it comes closer and closer until its upon

me just shooting these tiny lights all over me. I send it

love....perhaps I will start talking to it more and see how that goes.

This will even appear to me over my bed at night. Quite friendly

pinwheel indeed!

 

See that purpley, pink, green light when I close my eyes and it swirls

and swirls. Sometimes its just over my head with eyes open and

sometimes it can get so big its over me covering my body.

 

Early this morning while still dark I am laying down watching all

these lights and I decide to play with them a bit. I put my hand up in

the air and am being kinda silly and i start singing stupid songs, yes

I can quite amuse myself, anyway wow the lights all start getting so

much more vibrant, alive, dancing, brighter, the room is just filling

up....it was crazy. I have decided they like to play! (:

 

Everything glows! The smallest bug has a beautiful glow! The trees and

all plants have this almost vapor that comes off it in waves....the

beauty can bring you to tears! And the flowers, wow! The light the

comes up into the air off a flower in so amazing....the patterns, and

it shoots up so high. Sometimes at night there are coloumns of light

..... don't know what that is yet....its just in the air close to me.

Sometimes during the full moon it can be a bit intense. The air blinks

so much...everything blinking...can get a bit sick to the stomach with

the blinking. Walking in the grass barefoot helps helps helps! Thanks

Chrism...always remember that!

 

I see peoples heads glowing alot. My nephew comes over and he is a

fireball....so full of energy....and wow his glow is BIG! (:

See this light shooting off my fingertips and it goes so far and the

whole body glows. Have seen it shooting off my toes and knees too. Saw

this purpley color .... the sunlight seems to be very good for

us....can see this prana. And when I'm out in the sunlight all my

senses are heightened and colors and glows more vibrant.

 

I never tried to make this stuff happen or try to see. Its just there

now when my eyes are open, like looking at whatever is around you. Its

just there. But it is very beautiful. Have had many lessons and more

and more lessons in surrender. Have also had many hard times with

emotional stuff and keeping myself grounded, some intense periods of

feeling alone and intense love. Sometimes I wonder how much more

clearing out can a person go through! (:

 

The only thing I can say is at least for me, love and appreciation

move me through quicker. That and also for me, to stay light with all

this...the emotions can get intense....sometimes you have to just try

to release it. Sometimes it doesnt feel that you can move through it.

So put some happy music on when you've released and go play. Laugh and

play....be stupid....I'm quite good at that....just be lighthearted

and it all goes so much easier. Being serious at least for me keeps me

stuck or moving slower or a heavy feeling. Helping others is of course

great....but try to be playful....it seems to help. And trust me this

is from someone who many times learns the hard way! (:

 

Have felt these pinpricks going into my body and then wham...it turns

to bliss! Quite nice. Have seen my head start to explode with this

light after focusing on love for about an hour. Feel alot of energy

moving. Its a beautiful feeling. Have had difficulty with the adrenals

and kidney pain....went to the hospital a few times...cuz it felt like

something was wrong....but I'm fine. So watermelon, and lots of it.

Especially if you start to feel that pulsing at your tailbone or that

tingle feeling there.

 

Have had many visitors in the middle of the night. I keep a digital

clock that glows so I turn to look and yes...I know its my Shakti time

and somethings coming. I have failed over and over again. Did I say

over enough? I don't think so! Then finally I seemed to just break

down and be like, fine, kill me if you want...do whatever you want I

don't care...send the huge spiders, the snakes, the wolves....seen

them all. And wouldnt you know it....just like said....just

like I knew I should....they came....I surrendered and then wham!

Bliss....Bliss....Bliss....

 

Again...I am a slow learner! (: Have had the snake in my dreams all

over the place...and coming out my third eye. Not always so good while

in my dreams to surrender. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. At least

now while I am awake and I get a visit I can surrender! Finally!

 

Feels like a screwdriver in my ears at night. Like work is being done

there. My lips quiver. Its kinda funny. Hear some stuff too...

 

I keep my tongue where tells us to ALL the time. If I place it

a bit back, like at the top by the roof of my mouth in the middle. It

feels like FIRE!!!!!

 

When i lay down out night to sleep my body does the jerking thing. Its

not bad though. Some nights more jerks than other nights. I also seem

to get these shakes. It comes in different forms. Mainly it feels as

if you have a fever and your body is burning something off and you

shake and shake. There seems to be a healing quality about it. I just

lay there until its over. Sometimes I will shake on and off for an

hour or two. But it always comes at good times. Thank you Shakti!

 

The energy can sometimes feel quite sexual too....will leave that one

alone for now. Sometimes there is a surrender and a surrender.

 

Sometimes when I've had those shakti visitors and I surrender there is

that bliss that comes as i said. And sometimes there is a different

surrender I feel....more of an inviting of spirit more of a beautiful

excitement saying fill me with this divine energy. And the body can

shake in a very ecstatic way and you want to move and dance and well

you feel like you want to dance outside around a fire with drums and

its very primal. These body shakes....well its a trip on the wild side

and you feel wild and alive.

 

And you feel free and when you feel this aliveness the light seems

brighter and when you close your eyes this same aliveness this light

brings you in deeper. So it may seem a contradiction, but thats what

it does...at least for me.

 

I know there are people that may feel I shouldnt write about this

stuff, don't focus on it. I tell you this because in one year this is

now my reality. That this is part of my life now. It takes a bit of

getting used to....at least for me. And I had much fear!!!! When I

just play and have this light attitude I feel and experience a much

more pleasant experience. But the emotions have been difficult. Going

into nature helps balance me out. This has been quite

challenging....shakti seems to shake things up a bit here...well

everywhere. I can be overly sensitive and really need my alone time in

nature.

 

And after I walk or jog it off and then the mind quiets .... sometimes

it takes forever!!!! But then there is such peace. The animals of the

forest are quite interesting too. The deer will not run now....will

stand a few feet away and just watch me. I will talk to them softly.

Of course I am there so much they are used to me! (:

 

And noone around me in my daily life knows any of this. They would not

understand.

 

I hope to be able to go within deeper to that peace and that power

that i see. And all of this although slowly is helping me do that.

 

So this is some of my first year after shaktipat. So things can change

and reality changes. I can't believe all this stuff was in the air

that I never knew was there before. The aliveness of the trees and

plants and nature....the way the water looks now....everything is so

much more beautiful than I could have believed. It is very humbling.

You feel tears of gratitude for all that is around you.

 

So enjoy your shaktipat! Stay lighthearted! Play and laugh! Be silly!

Do your practices .... smile down at yourself....oh and really really

get that watermelon! Hope this helps you in your surrender!!!!!

Just tell Shakti...

 

Bring em on!!! Snakes, Spiders, Wolves, Tigers, bring them on....just

think of how great it will be when they all turn to bliss and

beautiful energy running through your body, like a liquid gold....so

beautiful!!! And then you will be able to go inside deeper and feel

that peace there. Guess what I'm saying is.....don't be a baby like

me!!!!! They feel as solid as the furniture you lay on....maybe

more...and even though you still will probably feel fear (at least

those of us who need a bit of work in this area! ha) just keep saying

over and over I surrender, I surrender, I surrender....because even

when I still had Huge fear....if I did this....still this bliss comes

all over me. And its not for the bliss I did this, but more to want to

get through this stage. But for you thrill seekers....you may like it!

And maybe you won't even have this....but I needed some lessons in

surrender and some lessons in getting over my fears. So I did need this.

 

And one last maybe helpful thing that I needed to learn. Try to love

yourself....for everything.....

 

And have a great shaktipat....don't forget to be lighthearted some too!

 

So notice what time you wake up in the middle of night....For me its

about 3:00am....and I can almost say....its Shakti time....bring it on!

 

Love to you all!

Deb

 

 

Deb

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Hi Deb

 

 

WoW !! What a fantastic journey you have been walking , and it sounds

like your doing great -Good job . It sounds to me that you are

piercing the veil and been gifted with sight to see these wonderful

views . I occasional can also see this area and it is just

unexplainable . I like to just lay in my yard and watch the ocean of

energy break like waves upon my energetic body . Blessings to you Deb

and thank you for sharing your progress on the list , i am sure this

will help many that are also working in theses areas .

 

 

blessings

Chris_H

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Beautiful Deb.

You are just beautiful! And it is showing! - blessings

and (more) brilliance to you! - chrism

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Hey stranger, really great to hear from you again after this time away.I was wondering how you are, last thing I remember you were trying to rid yourself of unwanted visitors....Happy you are reaching a good place within your awakening, surrendering to all that She has to offer.Good job you didnt try to jump in to the tunnel, heehee, that would have been a shock, or perhaps you would have ended up somewhere else? Who knows..LOLHUGSelektra x x x

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Amazing!

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Deb:

 

thank you for sharing your experiences- while reading you i got giddy

- you read like a little girl high on joy- i am very happy for you -

it is good to hear from those who are having wonderful experiences -

it gives us all something to look forward to and helps us get an idea

as to what is possible-

 

i know it is difficult not being able to share yet you can always come

here and tell us what is happening but it sounds to me as if you are

facing your journey head on in a very positive manner- with

fearlessness and determination and i know it has not always been easy -

 

kudos to you and enjoy those lovely colored lights

e

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Thanks so much for sharing Deb.

 

Be well, bradly