Right-brain/left-brain

[Guest guest]

One of my many spiritual experiments which didn't work too well for me, was the

use of

binaural brain-wave entrainment recordings. Because I always know what I am

doing, I

tried this for several years while I was also doing visualization exercises to

stimulate

Kundalini energy. To make a long story monotonous, the visualizations worked,

and the

brainwave entrainment recordings worked, too. The combined effect was similar to

hiring

two different construction companies to build a bridge across the same river at

the same

time. There was serious over-construction, and the results were extremely un-

coordinated. I began experiencing seizures which mimicked extreme allergic

reactions,

heart-attacks, and strokes. As a result, I was able to visit several

emergency-care facilities

all over the United States as I traveled in my work. Finally, I experienced full

cardiac arrest

while alone in my motel room, which also resulted in multiple concussions during

the

subsequent fall on a beautiful polished marble floor. As an interesting

side-note, they say

that one skipped heart-beat is no biggy, two results is discomfort and is viewed

a an

emergency, and three consecutive skipped beats results in total blackness. They

are right.

I checked on it. Three seconds and you're gone. Anyway, this incident was

serious enough

to land me in a Mayo Clinic where the neurology department congratulated me on

being

the only individual they have ever heard of who survived a seizure-induced

cardiac-arrest

without emergency medical intervention. They cannot explain what would have

re-started

my heart. In hindsight, I suspect that this was the point in my adventures when

Shatki

began using the ol' two-by-four between the eyes to try to let me know I was

doing

something wrong. It also afforded me the chance to experience an " altered " state

of

awareness during the hour and a half when the body was " unconscious " . During

this

period, there was an awareness of the body's situation, but, without any

emotion-based

concern. There was sight, smell, hearing, and limited linear reasoning and

awareness. I say

limited because there was absolutely no memory of what caused the body to be on

the

floor, nor any concern with what may happen " next " . There was simple awareness

that the

situation was potentially terminal, and that the body was very tired, weak, and

cold. A

towel was rolled and placed under the head for comfort. So, the state of

awareness was

accomodating of the body's discomfort, but wasn't " worried " over it. I have

thought about

that state of awareness a lot, and discussed it with the neurologists at Mayo.

They

described it as a classic out-of-body experience, except that my point of

awareness was

from inside the body. Boy, I can't seem to get anything right. Anyway, as in the

cases of

most classic out-of-body near-death experiencers, there has been a complete

elimination

of the fear of death. My New Year's gift for anyone bored enough to read this is

death is

no big deal. In my experience, it's just a sudden change of consciousness to a

different

frequency. There is trauma for the body, but that, as you discover, is not you.

Only the ego

is afraid of death, and everything else, for that matter. My only concern

regarding that

state of awareness during my temporary " demise " , is the total lack of feeling,

particularly

emotion. I think the word " sterile " would not be inaccurate. It was, I would say

cooly

objective, and, I'm afraid it would have become very boring. There was, however,

still the

sense of separateness. There was no awareness of anything other than this body's

immediate situation. I attribute that to the karmic fact that it was not this

body's " time " to

go. So, this unit of consciousness remained attached to the body.

Since that event, I have also experienced several Kundalini-energy events which

also

resulted in " altered " concsiousness, but not the sterile, cold awareness of my

NDE. That

energy was more like the " white light " aspect of most NDE's, the aspect that was

missing

from my experience. K-energy does not feel like an emotion-based energy, for me,

but a

principled, nurturing, and unconditional regard for all life which is so strong

that it

displaces all negative energy. I keep wondering if Kundalini is not the feminine

aspect of

" God " concsiousness, while the more sterile, objective aspect that I experienced

in my NDE

was not the masculine aspect. I am hoping maybe someone here may have

experienced an

NDE, and have some impressions to offer.

Mayo tested everything my HMO would pay them to test. The only thing I ever got

for a

diagnosis, was " non-epilectic seizure condition with observed abnormal activity

of the

right frontal lobe " . Tests have shown average neural activity in my left

hemisphere, but

over twice the activity in the right hemisphere. Most people have average

activity in the

left and very little in the right. They are left-brain dominant. Our whole world

is left-brain

dominant. The left brain is the seat of linear, cause-and-effect thinking. The

right brain is

the home of conceptual, non-linear thought.

EEG's of advanced Yogis and advanced meditation-practitioners always show

extremely

active right hemispheres, and, in rare cases, a matched high level in the left

(whole-brain

function).Mystical insight is associated with the right hemisphere, particularly

the right

frontal lobe. Now, the question, would this mean that the state of enlightenment

functions

through the right brain? Is the ego based in the lower, reptilian brain, with

higher rational

thought based in the left brain, and is enlightenment transcendence of the ego,

which

requires an activated right-brain?

I am dying to read a new book which some of you may enjoy called, " My Stroke of

Insight " ,

by Jill Taylor, PH-D. this lady is a brain researcher, who experienced a massive

stroke

which totally disabled her left brain. She was left with only right-brain

function. She slowly

recovered use of her left brain, and has written this book about the revelations

she

experienced as a result of right-brain experience completely devoid of

left-=brain

linearity. Her descriptions of her right-brain experiences directly parallel the

descriptions

of the early stages of ego-transcendance. For those of us on the K-path, it may

provide

valuable insights.

I apologize for the excessive verbal exercise, but this is the closest I have

come to putting

words to the impressions and questions I have gained from my experiences. I

voice them

here in hopes that someone here may have had some similar experiences and

additional

insights. These kinds of experiences don't come with manuals or maps, and its

not easy to

understand where you are. Or what, for that matter.

Peace

Craig