Guest guest Posted January 20, 2009 Report Share Posted January 20, 2009 Thank you Cuneyt, and Sarita. The whole concept of depersonalisation makes sense of many points in my life. The first time I felt it was when I was tickled. I used to and still do, hate being tickled and the more you tell someone to stop, the more they continue. One day during another tickling event I kind of 'shifted' out of my body and I felt nothing. I was aware of the person annoying me, but felt nothing, as if I switched off. The next time I remember doing it was when I was nine and an uncle started s & xually abusing me. I would just shift somewhere else, and suddenly it was not me he was touching. 'I' was somewhere off to the side. I ofter reacted to trauma in this way, especially in my First marriage. He would shout, abuse, hit etc. but it was not me he hit as I had gone off somewhere else, until he had finished. As I got older I would wonder what I was doing here and I was sure I was like an alien just visiting and one day the veil or wall would come down and my proper life would appear. It was like watching the sci-fi films about parallel lives and I was in another Skydancers life, maybe I was there to help her out, or a mistake had been made in a timeline. After I left the abusive marriage I had a 'breakdown', where my dreams and real life seemed to often blend. It may have been due to medication, who knows? Then 10yrs ago it felt like a fog clearing and I could see clearly. I would shift now and then but usually when I was bored, or watching TV. By the time the clarity came I had given up/lost all material possessions, money and many 'friends', but they meant nothing. When someone asks about my past, I always refer to it as my 'past life', 'before I woke up', because that's what it felt like. Strangely I was never frightened by the shifts. It was during the shifts that things made more sense. I know I am not mad, but I also know I am not the same. I recognise the old Skydancer, but as an old friend, not me. I hope this makes some kind of sense. ;-) Blessings, Skydancer x , " M. Cuneyt Birkok " <birkok wrote: > > Dear Chrism > > Would you please comment on " *Depersonalization Disorder " at this page > mentioned: *http://www.diigo.com/04nom > ***** > *Besides many things, they claim that meditation and mystic assumptions > causes depersonalization. > How to avoid losing ego? > Some technics we are using and attitudes such as " surrendering , letting go " > etc. couldn't increase depersonalization? > > > > Love end regards, > > Cüneyt > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 20, 2009 Report Share Posted January 20, 2009 Makes perfect sense. There are many coping mechanisms the person will use to maintain sanity and balance inside of Karmic life time events. Nice going Skydancer and I am happy to read of your present dynamics about your " past life " - blessings to you! - chrism , " Skydancer " <ionaskydancer wrote: > > Thank you Cuneyt, and Sarita. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 21, 2009 Report Share Posted January 21, 2009 Because of the multiple traumatic events, depersonalization has happened frequently to me. Sometimes it feels more normal than "normal." I used dr#gs to exacerbate this condition, to make it go higher. After nearly 20 years dr#g free, I realize that I do it pritty well on my own. Yesterday I missed a familiar train stop and was traveling along reading my favorite spiritual book when I realized that my wife had de-trained several stops before. I was so excited to be reading this material and phasing out of the material world that I could probably still be training somewhere near Tibet if something hadn't drawn my attention. --- On Tue, 1/20/09, Skydancer <ionaskydancer wrote: Skydancer <ionaskydancer Re: Depersonalization-Skydancer, Help Chrism Date: Tuesday, January 20, 2009, 10:23 PM Thank you Cuneyt, and Sarita.The whole concept of depersonalisation makes sense of many points in my life. .. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 21, 2009 Report Share Posted January 21, 2009 Hello Jake, Its possible you could have been needing that information at that time. Extreme focus can sometimes be confused with depersonalization. Only you can know if that applies though! - blessings to you my friend! - chrism , Andrew Carney <jakecarney36 wrote: > > Because of the multiple traumatic events, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 21, 2009 Report Share Posted January 21, 2009 Is 'depersonalization' the same as 'dissociation'? I used to do work where the issue of dissociation because of infant/early childhood trauma was frequent. Dissociation is a mental process that severs a connection to a person's thoughts, memories, feelings, actions, or sense of identity. Dissociation is a normal response to trauma, and allows the mind to distance itself from experiences that are too much for the psyche to process at that time. [Wikipedia] Carolyn 'Beliefs are those things we hold to be true, and which are instrumental in creating our actions and our experience of life.'--- On Wed, 1/21/09, Andrew Carney <jakecarney36 wrote: Andrew Carney <jakecarney36Re: Re: Depersonalization-Skydancer, Help Chrism Date: Wednesday, January 21, 2009, 9:02 AM Because of the multiple traumatic events, depersonalization has happened frequently to me. Sometimes it feels more normal than "normal." I used dr#gs to exacerbate this condition, to make it go higher. After nearly 20 years dr#g free, I realize that I do it pritty well on my own. Yesterday I missed a familiar train stop and was traveling along reading my favorite spiritual book when I realized that my wife had de-trained several stops before. I was so excited to be reading this material and phasing out of the material world that I could probably still be training somewhere near Tibet if something hadn't drawn my attention. --- On Tue, 1/20/09, Skydancer <ionaskydancer@ .co. uk> wrote: Skydancer <ionaskydancer@ .co. uk>[Kundalini-Awakenin g-Systems- 1] Re: Depersonalization- Skydancer, Help ChrismKundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 Tuesday, January 20, 2009, 10:23 PM Thank you Cuneyt, and Sarita.The whole concept of depersonalisation makes sense of many points in my life. .. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 21, 2009 Report Share Posted January 21, 2009 In that context I would say it is Carolyn. - , ReikiHands2004 <reikihands2004 wrote: > > Is 'depersonalization' the same as 'dissociation'? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 21, 2009 Report Share Posted January 21, 2009 Hi Chrism: I have had more severe symptoms. Right after my traumatic experiences I phased out in dramatic ways. Drugs were usually present to compound the reaction. Now that the phasing out, not focusing part is always present. Now, I phase out to avoid a confrontation and wind up a few cities away which is OK. Anytime that anxiety enters my psyáhie such as the recent problems in the Mid East or the sickness of a friend, I get lost in some way. I have augmented my reaction to a sort of meaningful prayer and meditation. It serves a great purpose. Usually I am punctual for important engagements and responsible to those that need me. Thanks for being you. Love, Jake--- On Wed, 1/21/09, chrism <> wrote: <> Re: Depersonalization-Skydancer, Help Chrism Date: Wednesday, January 21, 2009, 4:00 PM Hello Jake, Its possible you could have been needing that informationat that time. Extreme focus can sometimes be confused withdepersonalization. Only you can know if that applies though! -blessings to you my friend! - chrism Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , Andrew Carney<jakecarney36@ ....> wrote:>> Because of the multiple traumatic events, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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