Guest guest Posted January 22, 2009 Report Share Posted January 22, 2009 hey, I had a strange experience about an hour ago. Well first I did my chakra breathing and felt a thick pressure from my tailbone to where my navel would be on my spine. Once I got to my heart chakra, the back of my head resting on the ground felt like it was being pushed into a jagged rock (I was laying on a carpet). Well then I did my meditation and it was going smoothly until I started to feel anxious. I've been practicing letting go and surrendering to the present moment (for some reason is really hard right now, physically painful) and I surrender and surrender then all of a sudden I'm aware of something inside me. Its wreaking havoc jumping off the inner walls of my abdomen almost like an alien entity was inside me. I wasn't aware of any thoughts in general, more like hearing noise, rubbish, but it was creating anxiety in me. And then it starts crying. Then I realize that maybe this is my inner child/ego and I wonder if I should hold it like a mother does her baby or drop it. I decide to embrace it. Then a few moment later I realize I've been aware of this entity before. One time last week I felt great release and after a while something came up beside me, felt like an entity but I knew it was a part of me. It was waiting for me to become identified with my thoughts so it could take over again, I just allowed it to be there. Does anyone know whats going on here, is this the ego. I think that this is the actual cause of a lot of the anxiety that I feel, and not what I thought it was. It's this that won't let me forget my past/story and keeps me trapped, unable to let go. It's strong to the point that it initially hurts to surrender and let go when I realize I'm lost in thought. Any clues? thanks craig Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 22, 2009 Report Share Posted January 22, 2009 Hi kunda,Right from the next day of my activation ( a month back) invisible hands are constantly working on me.I dont know if this is the energy patterns or if these are hands.But these hands work on my subtle body.I dont know what this is (greater me) or entity or energy.If these are entities, then they are very disciplined and give a feeling of love by tapping etc.All my Kriyas are also facilitated by them.For example, the hand feeling makes me move my head left and right, up and down etc at times.All of this has been very slow and gentle.~ The rose smell continues.. CheersSkooglekundaflame <kundaflame Sent: Friday, 23 January, 2009 8:57:25 AM inner child as a separate entity hey, I had a strange experience about an hour ago. Well first I did my chakra breathing and felt a thick pressure from my tailbone to where my navel would be on my spine. Once I got to my heart chakra, the back of my head resting on the ground felt like it was being pushed into a jagged rock (I was laying on a carpet). Well then I did my meditation and it was going smoothly until I started to feel anxious. I've been practicing letting go and surrendering to the present moment (for some reason is really hard right now, physically painful) and I surrender and surrender then all of a sudden I'm aware of something inside me. Its wreaking havoc jumping off the inner walls of my abdomen almost like an alien entity was inside me. I wasn't aware of any thoughts in general, more like hearing noise, rubbish, but it was creating anxiety in me. And then it starts crying. Then I realize that maybe this is my inner child/ego and I wonder if I should hold it like a mother does her baby or drop it. I decide to embrace it. Then a few moment later I realize I've been aware of this entity before. One time last week I felt great release and after a while something came up beside me, felt like an entity but I knew it was a part of me. It was waiting for me to become identified with my thoughts so it could take over again, I just allowed it to be there. Does anyone know whats going on here, is this the ego. I think that this is the actual cause of a lot of the anxiety that I feel, and not what I thought it was. It's this that won't let me forget my past/story and keeps me trapped, unable to let go. It's strong to the point that it initially hurts to surrender and let go when I realize I'm lost in thought. Any clues? thanks craig Add more friends to your messenger and enjoy! Invite them now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 23, 2009 Report Share Posted January 23, 2009 This is a scenario that is allowing you to have discrimination between your levels of consciousness. Your ego you and your middle self or the conscious you. So yes you may see this as a training session for the ego child within. And for the mature spirit you are. These defined parameters will diminish over time as the ego you melts into the middle self or higher functioning self as the Kundalini continues to flow. You do not need to chakra breath. - blessings to you! - chrism , " kundaflame " <kundaflame wrote: > > hey, I had a strange experience about an hour ago. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 23, 2009 Report Share Posted January 23, 2009 Thank you Chirsm, it feels like I've been given Divine grace with your help. with my deepest gratitude craig , " chrism " <> wrote: > > This is a scenario that is allowing you to have discrimination between > your levels of consciousness. Your ego you and your middle self or the > conscious you. So yes you may see this as a training session for the > ego child within. And for the mature spirit you are. These defined > parameters will diminish over time as the ego you melts into the > middle self or higher functioning self as the Kundalini continues to > flow. You do not need to chakra breath. - blessings to you! - chrism Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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