re: thoughts on the K path

[Guest guest]

Chrism wrote:

In this journey it is important to release the attachments we have on

systems and techniques that may become swept into the infusion causing

an interference with the natural expression of the Kundalini in you.

 

I'm just beginning to get this now in hindsight. When I started on this K path

over a year

ago (I actually had a K experience a decade before this but never experienced it

on any

level I was aware of after this), I was practicing and teaching yoga. I had

been doing yoga

for 15+ years. I was having sudden excessive heat, kriyas, etc. and was

searching for

answers outside. I remember waking up and hearing an inner voice saying " your

life will

never be the same. " It freaked me out. I spent money consulting people who

seemed to

understand K, read books on K, had some sessions with someone who said they had

gone

through a K awakening. I continued to go to yoga retreats only to be activated

further. I

was in intense fear alot of the time, had much sleeplessness, etc. Other

peoples'

experience was similar to mine in many ways and different in others. I finally

started

listening inside & quit practicing and teaching yoga, started eating

differently, taking long

walks in nature. There was still this sense that eventually I'd get back to the

yoga/teaching but I now think it was simply a vehicle to where I am now. There

are alot of

physical manifestations for me yet I think now its now my challenge to listen

deeper to the

whisperings within, to what K wants of me. I feel like a real novice to this

listening.

 

I have alot of social fear lately, fear I used to feel intensely in my

adolescence. I'm getting

lots of images and understanding of how this came to be and making space to be

with

what comes up. Its not rationale but feels very real. Not the most comfortable

but seems

important.

 

Your paragraph was very helpful to me. Thanks and many blessings,

Jan