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[Guest guest]

Hello,

 

I am experiencing strange sensations in my body.

 

Hot pins and needles in my back and shoulders, also my a buzzing sound

in my ears. Sometimes this is really uncomfortable. The past few days

this has been really uncomfortable. I have read some information, but

my head is also hurting, and it is uncomfortable just to sit behind

the computer screen. I also have knee jerk reactions, involuntary

reactions in my limbs.

 

I have been ill for some time about two years. I haven't had a job,

just been quite depressed, doctor said psychotic. However, I have got

over the lack of fatigue, and feel very restless and energetic, as if

there is a great mass of energy inside that needs to get out or find

expression. I've started painting and drawing, and I have been writing

lots of good poetry recently.

 

However, I am at a loss as to what to do with myself. A friend said

that if I was in India I could stay in a special Kundalini hospital.

As it happens, there are no such institutions around here in England!

 

I am drinking lots of water, doing lots of walking/running and

following the safeties. Today I am only drinking water. But I feel

like me head has too much pressure, and I am frightened by all the

sensations and buzzing.

 

Do I tell me doctor about all this? What can they do? I've already

refused their medication?? I'm being told I must get a job soon, but I

don't know what to do. I'm really hypersensitive and not well centred

in myself. Lots of people just throw me off balance and this makes me mad.

 

I have considered voluntary work, but I'm not sure its wise to be with

people who have dual diagnosis or behavioural difficulties, etc. as

I'm not right myself! Its like being in Catch 22.

 

Perhaps you can advise on something? I growing to hate my environment,

especially England, and want to leave for Scandinavia in the

countryside and work on a farm for a while. I'm also worried that at

the age of 29 in two months time, I'll nearly be 30, and haven't found

what I'm supposed to do. Poetry and painting won't earn a living until

I'm very good at it, etc., but feel this m akes me more isolated, and

lonely. I feel I'm just stagnating in my bedroom surrounded by all

these books i feel i have to read.

[Guest guest]

I can understand how hard it must be for you in the UK, I come from the UK and couldn't wait to leave to be honest.Ask the Divine Mother to guide you to where you need to be, ask within to find your purpose.If you need to isolate yourself and go working in the country then maybe you should do this as working with nature is great for the Kundalini.Its difficult to be born in to western society, have all the pressure put on you to make money, be normal, get a job, BE SOMETHING , but kundalini people are not guided by these same goals, so it can feel odd and hard to find our place.I have faith in you that you can find your perfect lifestyle if you go within and follow the flow.I wouldnt talk about any of your symptoms to your doctor, I would search for a communityfriend who know about kundalini to talk to.Wishing

you blessings and loveelektra x x x

[Guest guest]

These feelings are not accidental and you may wish to seriously

consider responding from an action based mind set to following these

internal guidances.

 

Volunteering is a great way to do this as well as is moving to another

place where a more natural environment can be experienced. Scandinavia

is far more approachable in the Kundalini context than other

countries. So consider this.

 

Do the volunteering and see if you can move away from the " idea " of

being ill when in fact you may merely be going through a

transformation in your body and mind and heart and psychology and

spirituality.

 

I wouldnt mention this to the MD. Drugs are the only option for an MD

regarding the symptoms of the Kundalini(typically).

 

Get out an amongst the masses and move that love! Move that energy and

give from your heart through your hands and intentions. And do not be

concerned with the issues of what you may have been told is " wrong "

with you. Now is the time to focus on what is " right " with you and to

let that condition blossom.

 

Kundalini is a gift and a responsibility. It is an aspect of divinity

that will turn a person into the " vessel of the divine " in a pro

active way. Respond to this as best you can. Dont worry about a

diagnosis that may not have been on the mark in the first place. Dont

worry about helping others who have their own issues as we all do.

 

Jump in and get your hands and mind and heart involved in helping

others. In these activities will you receive another balance and an

increase of the Kundalini expression in you. - blessings to you! - chrism

 

, " hazman_zipman "

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