Recent Experience

[Guest guest]

Hello everyone. My name is Noah, and I am a new member. I think that

I recently had a kundalini experience, and I'd like to share with you

all my story.

 

First off, here's a bit of my background with regard to meditation.

Recently (past few months)

I started practicing some light meditation (mostly on body sensations)

to help

relieve stress and anxiety. Over the past few weeks I've become more

routine with regard to meditation. Also, sometimes I notice myself

meditating during the day on and off while out doing things (mentally

noting and accepting anything and everything that arises in the mind).

 

Anyways, last week I laid down on my bed on my back and completely

relaxed. I just laid there watching my body sensations. I soon

discovered that, if I did not interfere, my body (hands/feet/limbs in

particular) would start moving. It seemed that they would get into a

certain position and tense up (even though I was relaxing). Needless

to say I was intrigued by this, so later that evening I sat down on

the floor to meditate on body sensation. Again, once I was completely

relaxed, my feet, hands, and entire torso began to move. I " went with

it " and soon discovered myself face down with my forehead touching the

floor and my hands out in front of my body, palms down on the ground.

My legs were still crossed and my heel was pressing into my navel

area. Then, out of nowhere, I feel this tingling sensation between my

genitals and my anus, immediately followed by an er3ction and an

org@smic feeling (I was in a deeper meditation at this point and no

thoughts were going through my mind). Once this happened, a lot of

thoughts started to arise in my mind. I was very confused and somewhat

afraid because this had never happened before. I tried to accept the

fear/confusion and keep meditating but the feelings became too strong

so I decided to stop. I got up off the floor, and I still felt the

tingling sensation, but it felt as though it had grown in size -

almost as if there was a hot ping pong ball resting down there.

 

I figured the feeling would subside, and I tried telling myself that

this occurrence was just something random and insignificant. However,

I was still curious, so a little while later I laid down on my bed to,

once again, watch my body sensations. The burning/tingling sensation

was still there. Almost immediately as I started to relax the body I

sustained another er3ction followed by another intense org@smic feeling.

At this point I really didn't know what was happening.

I was confused, curious, kind of scared, and feeling very good all at the

same time. I had a lot of energy and the tingling / burning sensation

felt like it was growing more and more intense. I was not able to

sleep at all that night.

 

I remembered hearing about kundalini energy, but didn't know much

about it. Since I couldn't sleep I got online and read as much as I

could find about it. I went to class early the next morning and could

barely sit still in my seat due to the sensation. I started to think

that perhaps this really was some type of kundalini-related

experience, so I focused intently on infusing my entire body with

mindfulness and equanimity. I wanted to watch what was happening to

me. During my second class the tingling sensation down below finally

stopped, but it re-appeared in my chest.

I went home early and laid down on my bed in order to watch what was

happening without distraction. The sensation soon left my chest and

was absent temporarily even though I was searching for it. Soon

thereafter my head started tilting backward, so I sat up to allow it

to tilt completely back with my chin up in the air. The muscles in my

cheeks and face started twitching and contorting. It felt as if

little balls of energy were pushing their way up through my neck and

into my face on either side. My eyes closed forcefully and stayed

shut until it felt as if the energy went up into my forehead between

my eyes. Then my eyes opened so forcefully that it felt as if I

wouldn't be able to close them if I tried. I also felt extremely

aware, and it felt like someone had turned down the volume level of my

thoughts (could barely hear myself thinking). This happened over and

over again and seemed to build in intensity. After working its way

into my forehead, the energy started working its way up and around the

back up my neck and behind my ears. My head kept swaying back and

forth, left and right, and it felt like the energy was taking some

crazy spiral pathway in its attempt to work its way to the top of my

head. At one point after a ball of energy reached the top of my head

my eyes closed extremely tight and there was a bright, vivid vision of

a tree with white petals, followed by the silhouette of a forest.

When this happened I started to panic / get very scared. I managed to

calm myself. I felt exhausted, but as long as I let it, the energy

would continue forcing its way up through my neck.

 

Shortly afterward, I started seeing all of my thoughts (words and

images) on this small square-like screen in the center of my vision.

I could see the screen and its contents very well if I closed my eyes.

As soon as a new thought arose it would take the place of the old

thought on the screen. For some reason that is hard to explain, this

really wreaked havoc with me trying to sleep. I felt as if I was

split into the usual " me " and the " watcher " of the body / screen /

sensations. So as

I would drift off into sleep I would, for some reason, jerk back into

consciousness. It was like the body was very tired and craved sleep,

but as the watcher I didn't care, and the watcher didn't need sleep.

Again, this is difficult to explain, but that is how it felt

more-or-less. Eventually I was able to sleep and boy did I sleep. I

slept on and off for about two or three days. I missed several

classes, but I didn't care.

 

It's been about a week since it happened. Here are some things I've

noticed over the past week: The thought screen does not seem as

apparent / obvious anymore. I was never one to remember my dreams

very well, but now I can remember my dreams very well, and they seem

much more vivid / detailed as they are happening. I don't care about

a lot of things anymore that I did care about beforehand. I feel much

more apathetic toward most things. I find myself staring off into

space very often now. My logical/thinking process seems to be

impaired in that I cannot think as clearly or quickly as before.

Also, it seems

like my vision has been dusted off, because now I see everything with

very much clarity / sharpness. I have much LESS energy now than

before, and I want to sleep all the time. There's no more pronounced

body movement during meditation. Other than those things, I feel

relatively normal again.

 

I apologize for this being so long, but I wanted to be as detailed as

possible. Also, I felt the need to simply get this all off my chest

and share it with someone. Do you all have any thoughts as to whether

or not this is kundalini related? Should I expect anything else like

this to occur in the future?

 

Thanks for reading,

Noah

[Guest guest]

Oh yes Noah - Welcome to the wonderful world of Kundalini. You have

been given a beautiful gift that is very rare. You are in the right

place and you will find many here who have experienced similar events.

Each one of us has a unique path that will be directed by the Kundalini.

I have not had the intense events you are having but I know from

reading the others that it is all a normal part of the process. You

are right to just go with it and let the Kundalini do what it must.

 

Thank you for sharing - I love reading about others journeys.

 

I am very happy for you. Please read the safeties and also you may

want to check out the archive posts and chrism's articles.

 

http://www.kundaliniawakeningsystems1.com/

chrism's articles

 

http://www.kundaliniawakeningsystems1.com/the-safeties.html

the safeties

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hi Noah,

 

welcome I can relate to much of what you say, and how the watcher

never gets tired. For me, a lot of integration and change happened as I

moved from the usual 'me' into what you call 'the watcher'. Often after

a burst of K. activity, sometimes when it would push up, or pull my

eyes closed, or things like that, I would usually dream intensly and

then my energetics would get all over the place. Sometimes I need to

sleep a lot, sometimes a little. Usually after each 'peak period' my

system has to go through an adjustment phase. I find it best to just

surrender to the process...if you need to sleep, then sleep. Also, do

the 5 tibetans or yoga or regular excercise to keep on moving and

balancing the energy. Your approach of openning to and accepting

whatever arises will be very helpful in the path.

 

 

 

warm regards

Bruce

[Guest guest]

Thank you all very much for the warm welcome. It is nice to be among

people that are going through something similar. Also, thank you for

the responses. They have been very helpful.

 

- Noah