Question on meditative states with kundalini

[Guest guest]

Hi all

 

I've had two occurrences in the last week that has me somewhat weary of going

into meditative state again . On most meditations i reach a state with an ocean

of luminous light energy with no form . This has been the case for an year now

but in the last week i've had some changes take place beyond my control .

 

I started a meditation two nights ago and within twenty minutes i could feel

every molecule of my being raised in vibration with great velocity . This would

be the kundalini energy taking control and propelling me into higher states of

meditation then i could normally reach .

 

I surpass this formless state into another luminous state without form but i

also feel as if i have loss all ideas of form , as if it never existed . At this

point even in a formless state i feel as though i am coming apart or expanding

from such an high vibrations .

 

This is the part that puzzles me . The last two times that this has happen with

the kundalini energy , im in this completely formless ocean of light and then i

see a house . It's as though i am pulled into this house . Once i am in the

house i have an what looks similar to an astral body and there is a man in the

house also .

 

He begins to speak to me about continuing the journey . He never describes what

is waiting but i get this overwhelming feeling that he is warning me to make

sure i have no doubts . It feels like if i was to go through the door and

continue the meditation that it would be something that i would never forget or

completely change my ideas .

 

I would think this to be an illusion of the mind if had not kundalini interceded

in propelling me to this point not once but twice . Any ideas on this ? My

initial response is that i should surrender to this change but i feel it must be

an important choice since there is someone in this state making sure that i am

ready . I am nervous that if i go into meditation again that the kundalini

energy will once again propel me to this choice .

[Guest guest]

In a way Chris I see that you have already made the choice. Kundalini is already

within and bringing you into these states. Its not going to go away because you

choose not to meditate based upon a fear of not being able to put the genie back

in the bottle. The genie is already out. I feel your first conclusion is the

best one. But there is no rush. Feel for yourself how you wish to approach this

and feel strong in your commitment. Get more information if you need to.

 

Take your time and remember that you are always changing. There is never a time

that you are not. These changes that are being given are merely outside of your

control by how and what the change is that they represent so again there is the

unknown that can challenge us by its strangeness and unpredictability. Take your

time and " FEEL " how you wish to proceed.

 

Remember how you felt in your early Kundalini experiences and how you have been

changed by them. Never to return to your pre Kundalini condition. Yet here you

are the Chris we have come to know. Your family knows you, your friends know

you, and you know you. Everything is still fine yes? And yet you have changed

due to this condition.

 

I see this as another test of fear. A way of understanding the ego and its

desire to be the dominant expressive force in a persons life. And this warning

applies to all people who enter into the Kundalini. The Kundalini will change a

person forever. So be advised.

 

Surrender is a difficult choice to make sometimes.

 

So if you feel uncertain then hold off from the meditations and pay attention to

the dream life. These may give you some of the wisdom's that will help you to

become more informed of your " actual " choices that are being presented. -

 

[Guest guest]

Thanks for the reply chrism . I believe you are correct on this post . I've had

the fear test in the past and this one is by far the most terrifying to me for

some reason . While writing the initial post and even now my stomach knots up

just thinking about it . Kundalini must have found an area deep down in my

subconscious that is bringing up fear . I believe the illusion of choice plus

the knowing that i still carry some doubt even though i have no reason to is

causing this fear . I will do my best to surrender and hopefully just speaking

about this will help change the scenario when this happens again .

 

 

 

 

blessings