Guest guest Posted March 18, 2009 Report Share Posted March 18, 2009 Something very upsetting happened to me at work yesterday, no need for the details here but it really shook me up. For years now I have working with " surrendering " As the event was unfolding my reaction was one of amazement…not in a good way! All the time I was telling myself to just accept, be with it and surrender. A little later I found that I was angry. All the time I was telling myself to surrender, let go of my feelings, anger, and just be in the present. An hour or two after that I was depressed. All the time I was telling myself to surrender, let go of my feelings, sadness, and just be in the present. Just a bit after that I found my self really really nervous…shaken in very deep way, scared. All the time I was telling myself to surrender, let go of my feelings, trust that everything is just as it should be and all is good. Still I was and am shaken up. I wish I could just simply let it go…surrender to the present…really trust that everything is just as it needs to be and I am fine, on my path as just I should be. These are ideas that I do believe in and yet there is something that I do not feel about them. This is obvious to me because I am still shaken up, scared. I believe that everything that happens is part of my learning, part of my path, my karma, everything is designed to lead me to where I need be to learn what I need to learn to help me progress on the path to enlightenment and yet I am still shaken up and scared. So I work on it, " surrender " , and have patience with myself and work on surrendering some more. It is a process! rich Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 18, 2009 Report Share Posted March 18, 2009 Congratulations Richard, It is in these times when the rubber meets the road that we can really source ourselves and discern how we are and how we are not in a form of expression within our intentions. Yes it is a process to be sure. Hold fast my friend it may not be as complete an equation as we might sometimes desire but as we continue upon our paths we will eventually come into as much of an understanding as we allow ourselves to have. And there are always going to be some questions while we are in the limited life expression. You are where you need to be at this time and learning what you need to learn. Lifes harsh lessons can lend certain ambiguities to our understandings of the harsh experiences but often they can lend a contrast as well that can help us see through the trauma. - blessings Richard Eisenberg - chrism , " Richard Eisenberg " <Pyaar333 wrote: > > > > Something very upsetting happened to me at work yesterday, no need for the details here but it really shook me up. > > For years now I have working with " surrendering " > > As the event was unfolding my reaction was one of amazement…not in a good way! All the time I was telling myself to just accept, be with it and surrender. > > A little later I found that I was angry. All the time I was telling myself to surrender, let go of my feelings, anger, and just be in the present. > > An hour or two after that I was depressed. All the time I was telling myself to surrender, let go of my feelings, sadness, and just be in the present. > > Just a bit after that I found my self really really nervous…shaken in very deep way, scared. All the time I was telling myself to surrender, let go of my feelings, trust that everything is just as it should be and all is good. > > Still I was and am shaken up. > > I wish I could just simply let it go…surrender to the present…really trust that everything is just as it needs to be and I am fine, on my path as just I should be. These are ideas that I do believe in and yet there is something that I do not feel about them. This is obvious to me because I am still shaken up, scared. > > I believe that everything that happens is part of my learning, part of my path, my karma, everything is designed to lead me to where I need be to learn what I need to learn to help me progress on the path to enlightenment and yet I am still shaken up and scared. > > So I work on it, " surrender " , and have patience with myself and work on surrendering some more. > > It is a process! > rich > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 18, 2009 Report Share Posted March 18, 2009 Also, part of the process of surrender is not, to use a term that I like from Neuro Semantics, " meta stating " . This means to just let the feelings be what they are, not wanting them to change, not what them to go away or anything, not judge them….just being with what is. If I am scared then, fine just be in the fear If I am angry then, fine just be in the anger If I am sad then, fine just be in the sadness If I am happy then, fine just be in the happiness Etc Often we think about our feeling and have feelings about our feelings. This is meta stating. If I think that I should not be angry then I can feel ashamed of my anger. To take this even further, If shame threatens my ego I may be scared of my shame. This layering, meta stating, of thoughts can go on and on and on. It is not easy to just stay with a feeling that is so uncomfortable but I guess that that is just how it works. rich Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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